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offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 17:42 [#02633832]
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oh. maybe i'm so repetitive because i need to know what it's
like to be one instance of many. inside a barn. before that
container will be an effective piece of software


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 17:50 [#02633833]
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or perhaps even that i merely had to get used to it.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 18:10 [#02633834]
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i think i tried instances during the "sphere of context"
stretch and it really didn't go anywhere.

now i'm sitting here and thinking about how: "it would
seem... i feel... maybe... that i possibly rambled on about
how i can almost get the traffic back from [down and out
first time etc] and now i'm actually rather feeling like i
did, but at this point i'm nervous i've completely
disappeared up my own fundament"

that, yes, there is going to have to be this sort of
iterative blindness to what's going on, if i'm role-playing
as an instance of myself. being comfortable with this and
learning to work with it

without disappearing up my own fundament


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 18:13 [#02633835]
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it'd be pretty tite if i just popped out of another 800mcg
image caption and it's like "hey guys i'm back it's compiled
now"


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 18:38 [#02633836]
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getting snapped back into previous streams of thought like
an apple mag-safe connector (kerSNAP) and i've replayed some
stuff like a VCR. now i can even watch myself do it and...
i'm all "well, yes, i know, but i can't tell you precisely
how, or figure out where it comes from without work"

perhaps this is all, itself, a previous train of thought
i've been snapped back into (kerSNAP) and that thought was
about quantum and running multiple instances of myself and
"brb guys" then "ok it's done i'm back"

we've been chewing on all this. but there hasn't been any...
you'll note i do not seem terribly concerned. that in fact i
seem quite amused and delighted. it's true; i am. sorry for
the mess on the board

however, this is precisely how an instance of me would act
-- "am i simulating an instance of myself right now as a
data point, and has it lasted a few years now? or am i just
sucked back into it in bits, yes, i've been gradually
piecing it together as a hobby. that nothing in the here and
now feels jumbled like this, actually... and am i about to
pop out the other end? AWESOME"

it would probably be disconcerting to many people to realize
they're an instance of themselves that they've been
simulating 4 years and their instance would lose their shit
and panic. do the wrong thing and not deliberately order
cheese pizza

but then there's a firm enough barrier that i know what day
of the month it is, when my bills are due, which are paid,
etc -- that, shit, yes, some domains are due today, i missed
discogs on the... bbl


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 18:57 [#02633838]
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now i'm sitting here and thinking about how: "it would
seem... i feel... maybe... that i possibly rambled on about
how i can almost get the traffic back from [down and out
first time etc] and now i'm actually rather feeling like i
did, but at this point i'm nervous i've completely
disappeared up my own fundament"


now i'm sitting here and thinking about how: "it would
seem... i feel... maybe... that i then possibly asked about,
have i rambled on about this before? [it feels weird or
something etc]"

and when i talk about "it's a measure of signal strength
now" this is fucking off to the charts to the point where
i'm like... alright, have i broken it? i'm taking a moment,
because, the equipment seems fine, the reading is simply so
surprising


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 21:14 [#02633839]
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bollocks. ULTRA-bollocks. just now: "well if it is quantum
and the passage of time is the universe's
computation, then..." and it's finally happened. i've left
the solar system

the furthest out i got is a lot of consideration about the
moon. that schizophrenics, bipolar, other sorts tend to
stack up on a histogram around the phases of the moon. kind
of. they can see a trend. but no, wait, they think it's
bollocks

...and, essentially, it's an analog thing. they are asking
"is it the moon or not" when they should instead ask "how
much of it is the moon" and boom that's why it's such a
waffle [currently, i think the consensus is that it's bunk,
but they'll do a pole flip inside of a decade, bet you].
because the deep sea vent theory on the origin of life is
bunk; you can't build a sandcastle in high tide. you need a
sealed pod with RNA precursor gunk fed by gentle alpha
radiation, and -- this pod has lots of spikey pockets to
hold our, um, nucleotides-to-be, and everything from axial
tilt to tectonic drift stirs the juices in here, but the
most important is the moon, and we're performing a sort of
annealing that manages to form a loop that pumps entropy out
while fed on a steady energy source. eventually the first
pod cracked open and spilled out into the ocean and that was
it. there were quite a few others and they found one
recently; i do have a citation

...and, yes, the moon. barely even looked at the planets.
and if it's quantum i now have to think about the nature of
the universe. and finally read erwin esch book "this is
life" because it was all "that clown has my shit in 1952" or
was it 42 i don't know whatever

sigh. well, it came out lazily like that; i suppose i'll
simply allow it to keep doing that


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 21:25 [#02633840]
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the universe is space-time granular and is both
deterministic and completely unpredictable, as it is its own
fastest explanation

the original word in the 1974 paper was "simulation" but one
day i mistyped it as "explanation" and sent myself into
giggles, because -- it works precisely the same way, but
it's me all over.

the most succinct explanation of the universe is the
universe. the most succinct explanation of myself, is to be
myself. as we further explain the universe to ourselves, its
bounds will grow at an accelerating rate.

i have this much solid. that's just a summary i am dumping.
and here it's.... whooaaa, way back there, yes... what the
fuck does space-time granular mean? because whatever that
shit is it's what i need. the rest of it just fit so
gobsmackingly well that i simply thought "oh, fuck physics"
and decided i didn't need to open that can of cats


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 22:24 [#02633844]
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> there's a hop past that,
  there's a hop past that,
    there's a hop past that,
      there's a hop past that,
        there's a hop past that,
there's a hop past that,

that, sorry, i explained poorly there. that i may have gone
on discord and spoken of "unfit" instead, that really i
missed this whole album for the most part... etc... but from
there i'm actually into a discord conversation somewhere
after i moved [likely around the pizza [place] delivery guy
discord convo] and that's more like 2021, a year or two
afterwards, that i am THEN into "i can feel how the traffic
was" and then "but i'm not going to distract myself with
this" and THEN "have i talked about this before"

now i feel like: the answer is no. i did have a funny
feeling, i remember. i think i was more setting a marker for
myself; faking myself out into whether i've gone that far
and now i've found it later and that's why microwaving it
back into a thing seems rather odd. but now, yes, i think
that did happen, and i hadn't actually spoken of it before
then.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 22:44 [#02633846]
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when it comes to the conversation about "what makes humans
different from all the other animals"

my answer, until just recently, was -- weasel-brain may have
this slightly wrong -- the FOX-P2 gene? a mutation that
essentially caused some neural connections involving
speaking and subvocalization and like, yep, there's the
distributed wiring we need

...but, no. we didn't have quantum this or that in my pod of
bespoke RNA. that photosynthesis is quantum, but then it
took quite a while before a primate brain, some mutation,
forms a stable enough network that a quantum reaction
happens slow enough for the brain to theoretically, actually
use. and now: perhaps that's actually the difference between
us and all other animals. why we have rhythm

or perhaps it's both this and the FOX-P2 gene because
this stuff is a bit of a jerk about not being simple


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 23:01 [#02633847]
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perhaps that's actually the difference between us and
all other animals. why we have rhythm


or rather, why other animals seem to struggle with it. that
some animals unquestioningly have at least a bit. parrots.
the pair of monkeys walking in sync. that the way it goes is
"before we went quantum, it was most of the way there
anyways, and it would fire off here and there but it didn't
have much of a pulse" and then some mutation and the
tube(ule)s are stable and we move from monkeys walking
together like they're photocopies to disco. which was very
hard on the musicians as it treated them like monkeys


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 23:03 [#02633848]
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so, yes, sparks of rhythm, some proper demonstrations here
and there... but years ago, this thread, on about: you can't
switch a brain off and then back on because you lose the
waltz of timing of signals and that is, perhaps, something
akin to what the soul is, in an engineering sense. and once
someone insisted "rhythm IS consciousness" and i wouldn't go
that far, but. without timing, it wouldn't happen. at best
monkeys moving in mirror image


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 23:20 [#02633849]
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that when i wrote it before i called the FOX-P2 gene,
subvocalization mutation thing, "the control lines we need"
or such instead, and that is more accurate. it's not that
neurons had problems wiring all over, but we need some sort
of new and specially unique network of control lines on top
of a generic mammal brain. and this was something like
"these vocal lines now go 200x as long, it's weird" you can
understand i think: shit, shit, yep. but then perhaps this
would actually somehow tie in with the brain making a
quantum leap; that no one's asked if FOX-P2 made quantum
action less out of the question


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 23:22 [#02633850]
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that saying "maybe it's both" can also mean "maybe they are
effectively the same thing" or in that case, the same
mutation; the same event. but this stuff is a jerk about
being complicated, and it's probably not that succinct


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 23:27 [#02633851]
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and then some mutation and the tube(ule)s are stable and
we move from monkeys walking together like they're
photocopies to disco. which was very hard on the musicians
as it treated them like monkeys


i think i stole this from the NPR interview with questlove,
the one where he talks about the burn and THAT SONG and
modulating key [and an entire context about associations].
that the quote is something like, "i feel like disco was
very hard on the musicians, forcing them to go so long in
such a mechanical way"

and, really, not stole. that's where i learned that.
and as soon as i hear it, i think: wow, shit, that's sad.
and i absolutely believe it


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-22 23:47 [#02633852]
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and now i'm saying: i might have credited questlove with
something i heard in my apartment in 2019 or such; that it
stands out because it's an image of the living room which,
well, that place was tiny, it was pretty much a storage
locker instead and so i had to have been fucking with all
the crap there as i listened to it and... perhaps grafted
that into a very relevant, to recent shit, reference to the
actual questlove npr interview, how he got a third degree
burn on a radiator running down the hallway naked as a child
and, right as he burned himself, a song modulated key
repeatedly and he's on about how, it's not just that song
that gives him massive amounts of physically experienced
pain to this day, but that whenever key is modulated
anything anywhere, he feels physical pain

it sounds somewhat like his cognition is rooted around this,
and it makes sense he'd succeed as a musician. the most i
have to offer is that i remember... kids don't understand
"don't touch that, it's hot" until they burn themselves. and
i remember thinking: i understand pain and i theoretically
know what you mean about this being bad, but i'm afraid i
need to actually try this -- and then when grandma's back is
turned, i put the back of my left hand onto a scorching hot
pot and hold it there, that i'm not sure what the degree
was, but something something my mom all, they should have
taken you to the fucking hospital and i still have the scar.
i know what they mean when they say it's hot now


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 00:07 [#02633854]
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that i do wonder -- so i went ahead and very deliberately
burned myself to the point where i probably should have been
hospitalized; because i understood "it's hot" in a
theoretical sense, and i knew what pain was from other
incidents. but i was having trouble putting together in my
head what, exactly, this would be like. i knew that on a
scale of bad things to do, this was off the fucking charts.
and grandma's not as quick as my parents and now is my
chance


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 00:07 [#02633855]
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that i do wonder if that's where my sense of "stop it,
you're about to burn yourself" comes from


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 00:12 [#02633856]
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i guess i was setting a reference point for myself, as well
as a marker.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 01:05 [#02633857]
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i was on acid sometime in like 2011 and the doorbell rings
and i answer it. and it's all rainy and stormy and moody out
and... it's jehovah's witnesses.

"uh, hello" i manage

"we heard that someone here needs... help"

...and there was such a dark and ominous undertone to the
way he said "help" that it haunts me to this day. it
probably didn't sound quite that far if you weren't on acid

a friend of mine had gotten a bit loaded one night shortly
before that one and put my name and address into their
website and i never even got the line on what he said
because i'm not sure he remembered himself

but it was like, yes: we've been told you're vulnerable now.
we're here to take advantage of that and get our fingernails
into your mental conditioning

the only reason i'd even answered the door is that was
relatively Experienced at this point, and i managed to hold
it all in. and apologize to them deeply for my idiot friend
[long story short, i figured it out on the spot] making them
come out on such a miserable night for nothing. it was kind
of like nod, understood, but -- do you know anyone else
nearby who needs help?

ugh. he did it again

these days, i like the church mice, they're sweet people.
but kind of like the ghosts in mario 3, if you turn your
back they become freaking vultures from above


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 01:06 [#02633858]
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then i was also with it enough, despite ++, to phone him up
and chew him out


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 01:08 [#02633859]
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i never developed my ability to... output my hed images into
drawings, paintings, whatever. but the image of them when i
opened up the door, they were very trapezoidal. perspective
like they're very tall, trapezoid at bottom. i'm seeing this
in watercolor and i'm applying the style of some painter
from art deco era i can't really place. i can't paint like
that though, or it'd take me a year or three


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 02:50 [#02633860]
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that, oh, yeah. i very much remembered i did post that
jehovah's witness story on this board right after it
happened, so we could put a date on it. and i thought it'd
just fit here

that thread did do well. i went into more detail about the
chap behind their appearance; i didn't say he was loaded
though. because it's actually now, in 2024, that i realize:
yeahhhh had to be


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 13:52 [#02633878]
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it now makes sense, effectively, for me to perform a
sideband channel attack on itself; a sideband channel attack
on a sideband channel attack to understand what's happening.
and one of the little treasures i get along the way, i don't
think this has ever made sense anywhere else before. unless
you count thousands of years of yogis and whatnot hitting
the same spots and not having the concept of a sideband
attack

that this is exactly like

LAZY_TITLE

As a result, the DMP often reads the data and attempts to
treat it as an address to perform memory access. This
“dereferencing” of “pointers”—meaning the reading
of data and leaking it through a side channel—is a
flagrant violation of the constant-time paradigm.


and then my LAZY_TITLE from before

that with the mind, "barn" is, all at once, the data, the
address, and the thing itself. the core idea of a CAM is a
computer memory that works like: instead of having to search
for where BARN is you just say BARN and it dumps all the
shit


...and that sounds like a good idea. i have to poop. i'm
going to go dump all the shit while my brain dumps all the
shit. because writing this is effectively what will kick the
process off. this sideband channel attack on a sideband
channel attack. which is probably something like the rare
ascending axon connections, granule cells, gcPc used for
proprioceptive feedback at sites used for storing data
related to movement and

bbl


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 14:14 [#02633879]
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that went precisely, directly, literally, as i... well, i'm
washing my hands and out tumbles "sampled data points"

now my conscious job is to stew on the meaning of this. my
first thought was something like, "oh, yes, if you sample
enough data points to get the address, you have the data,
because they are one and the same thing"

then i think: no, this is my thing about "enough sampled
data points and you have the whole thing" from two pages ago
or such

then i realize: okay, jumping from that first inference to
the second, that was it, right there, that was the sideband
channel attack

i actually had difficulty writing this up. i actually had a
brainfart and shit... wait... i can't remember... so i went
back down to the bathroom and put myself back in the zone
where i'd had the train of thought best i could, and it
popped right out

now, just now, writing this, as i type, i see that this is
me performing the same sideband channel attack again, by
going through all that to get it into words.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 14:21 [#02633880]
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no, wait, i got that backwards. i thought maybe it was
perhaps about the solution to "enough data points" the other
day and then... wow. the conclusion makes sense but the more
i try to reconstruct this bit, the more of a mess it
becomes. which is a good sign i've hit something more atomic


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 14:32 [#02633881]
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oh. oh. to a certain degree, it's possible you can
experience your own train of thought as happening in a
certain linear order, when it's actually happening in
parallel. you perceive "i thought this, then i thought that"
but the thoughts both happened at the same time. however,
they only make sense to your conscious mind if one happens
before the other, so that's how you perceive it. if you're
saying, "i know [that], but [this] is something else" you're
thinking of what the [this] is as you say the word [that] --
because someone has referenced something similar, and, no,
you don't quite have it, and you're holding [that] off to
the side as your brain goes off to reference [this]

it was a theory. i generally haven't popped the hood on it
beyond that, because it's incredibly difficult to think
about!

but, yes: what happened, there, was that my first thought
didn't actually make any sense, but i didn't notice. because
it led to another thought, and together, the whole arc adds
up into something sensible. however, when i try to type it
up now, i get a bit tangled up. and now i'm performing a
sideband channel attack on all of [this] again


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 14:36 [#02633882]
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first i thought... hmm... a vague incomplete thot that
referenced my sampled data points thing.

then a thot that no, wait, that's not quite it. then i
realize that i'm performing the sideband attack as i've
asked.

the first thot would be comparable to how something makes
sense in a dream, but then dissolves when you attempt to
explain it.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 14:49 [#02633883]
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so, perhaps something like: you have thought A, and thought
A makes no sense without referencing thought B. however,
you've had thought A first. your brain sees the hole; you
have thought B to fill in the blanks from A. then,
consciously, you perceive having B before A, because having
A before B makes absolutely no sense. it's an incomplete
calculation


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 15:33 [#02633884]
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the timescale of this matters. that, previously, i was more
thinking along the timescale of "as you generate a sentence
of thought in your head" -- subsecond timing -- but now
we're into the proper "train of thought" timescale -- five
or ten seconds, perhaps

in retrospect it should seem obvious that near my current
thought, are mostly incomplete versions of everything i
could think. and how could i think anything at all unless i
could somehow pick from all that? but how could i pick from
all that unless i complete it somewhat?

how do you even decide where to go next? you have, possibly,
a vast number of incomplete thoughts at all times. we're
picking from all these in order to decide what to think
next, but we haven't actually thought any of them yet...
because we're deciding what to think next.

then we've decided what to think next, and we need to
complete the thought. and for it to be complete, you had to
have had another supporting thought beforehand, so that's
how you perceive it.

perhaps the prefetch mechanism may actually be a postfetch
mechanism

something something the weird nebulous mathematical set of
[everything you could think next) is, i have to say... the
sort of thing i usually decide is too much of a mess to
trifle with


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 16:07 [#02633885]
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[everything you could think next) does seem a good problem
for a quantum computer. that it considers every possible
train of thought at once and selects one? sure. or it's that
they all exist in an analog fuzzy way and we amplify a
little portion into our current state of mind. or both. or
that these are one and the same thing.

[that i am feeling some of this tugging me and i get up to
write again. and i think i'll dial back to that point and
start there. then i realize i'm beginning to compose the
post in my hed [i'm down the stairs from the attic at this
point] and i am opening it, "originally, i was going to
start at [somewhere later in this post] but i decided to
just go back and replay it from there" and think: shit, i'm
already tangling my timeline up. i need to get in there
right now before i tangle it any further, and -- shit, i'm
doing it again)

so we sort of collapse the waveform from every possible
train of thought at once, and that we have control over how
the waveform is collapsed. theoretically, somewhat,
eventually. with asking the right questions, studying the
results, and praxis.

this decision process could be a quantum bubble that exists
on top of a classical computer, a generic mammal brain. i'm
hungry and oddly craving that cake frosting with partially
hydroginated soybean oil. thanks brain

anyways, i've struggled for a while, for a good way to
say... yes, i have it: you can see anything, but you can't
see everything.

there is also the issue of error, noise, and mild brain
damage from drinking my ass off a few years ago. these can
all be recovered from, with effort. or, rather, perhaps i
could recover anything, but i can't recover everything.

penrose tiling came into my fold because of a recent article
in quanta magazine about how two guys from different folds
got stuck in a car and wound up proving that penrose tiling
theoretically works as an error correction scheme for
quantum computing


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 16:34 [#02633886]
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it makes sense, it makes sense, it makes sense.

directing blood flow is about directing your resources, and
so the control of blood flow is, due to evolutionary
pressure, a form of decision making. eventually system of
blood flow are so complex that it begins to approach
something we would regard as thought, and eagerly
anthropomorphize; get lost in when we discuss consciousness
and where it starts and stops. if you kept tearing it down
to simpler and simpler blood flow networks, i wager you
would wind up at some simple core algorithms that every med
student has to suffer through

but evolution is about competition, and reaction time is
important to your game. and we're making our decisions with
squishy fluidics.

so we evolve the nervous system, because electricity is much
faster. since we're so invested in this complex blood flow
network, we use the neurons to make decisions about blood
flow, faster than we ever could with just blood flow.

the arc of evolution and competition after the start of
neural networks builds to its conclusion, and the only thing
faster than electricity is quantum mechanics and since we're
so invested in this complex neural network, we use the
quantum matrix to make decisions about the neural network,
faster than we ever could with just electricity.

so maybe penrose and i are both right. or this is how i've
written it and i've artificially trapped myself again. for
the moment, this feels correct -- that, going back to the
"no computational ceiling" thing, this means it's sort of
halfway. more towards "you could do this, but you'd need to
live for about 300 years to pull it off" but still far
beyond my previous cap


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 16:49 [#02633887]
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so now i have to reconsider my approach again. and i'm still
hungry. and today i have just been brooding on this
nonstop all day instead of just popping out of the garbage
can here and there in between actually getting work done.
and i'm hungry. mammal brain has had it with this
shit. i'm going to go get something to eat, and do some paid
work


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 17:01 [#02633888]
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that, ahaha, crap. all my rambling about tiered caching,
that i'm likely correct about that, it's part of the mammal
brain. but also part of the memory hierarchy is the quantum
matrix. and way back, my metaphor about the cache queen to
explain tiered hierarchical caching.

then, also back there, i described a weasel as an API for...
some chunk of my frontal lobe, somewhere. a weasel
represents a generic mammal brain, and, well, it's hard to
train weasels, but you can, etc.

...and now: yes, the quantum matrix is a layer atop the
mammal brain, and its job is to direct neural fire. and it's
beginning to look a lot like consciousness

but you see how, even when i had no fucking clue. no.
fucking. clue -- that it was always in there.

as i kept zooming in, it began to bleed out of the walls.
and i had absolutely no idea

it'd be nice if someone is following. but that is just
charming the heck out of me right now, looking back and
finding all this, oh, scale invariance, i suppose, that...
goddamn, fuck, ahaha, that's great, etc. and it'd be nice if
someone is following but this is really what i'm in it for


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 17:12 [#02633889]
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my metaphor with a serpentine belt, that in an engineering
sense, consciousness is the serpentine belt in a car. it
delivers powers to subsystems as necessary. they pull power
off the belt. you don't think about some patch of skin until
it itches [my ear itches -- fuck off; i'm typing] then you
scratch it, then you forget it again.

in addition to an engineering sense, i now know what
consciousness is in both a physical and mathematical sense.
and yes that's enough for today. and my food is ready. and
i'm going to do some paid work


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 17:24 [#02633890]
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and, right. weasel brain is a quantum matrix atop of mammal
brain, intended to direct the neural fire of mammal brain.
literally quantum, in a hardware sense.

that, trying to figure out what i'm rewriting, i begin to
feel like i'm lost somewhere in a penrose tiling pattern,
because i am. because it theoretically works as an error
correction scheme for quantum computers, and so i'm
essentially putting my computing power into error
correction. but then, in a larger sense, the whole system
itself is a very complicated error correction system

and i may be stuck with my limits on finding things there.
however, this just means it's an ECC scheme using penrose
tiling, and that i am not, overall, trapped within a penrose
tiling. which is a relief


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 17:35 [#02633891]
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and i haven't even touched things like "since it's quantum,
and entanglement" and we get into psychic blah blah e.g.
shared entanglement between people somehow and

all -- absolutely all -- i've got for now is: it's using
quantum mechanics to try every thought at once; pick the
best. but this is one thought at a time. your next thought,
that was the best one it had. but this thought came from
your previous thought. error correcting over and over; who
knows where we started

so there's plenty more to tease apart.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 17:47 [#02633892]
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that, oh, shit, now that i've explained it more
specifically, i've come up with a refinement -- i'm doing
this to myself. if i come up with more i'll be all GO AHEAD
AND GET LOST TRACK OF YOU'LL COME BACK SOONER OR LATER and
get some paid work done

that we're using a quantum computer to try every path at
once [i vaguely remember something about trees, actually,
using that to do something with directing their resources].
this means there is some sort of "path" in that more
discrete sense. that's the classical computer. it analyzes
all possible next moves that the classical computer could
make, and picks the best move [the shortest path]


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 18:42 [#02633893]
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for years, i have very directly known that if i let myself
start going on all this, it will sweep me up and my brain
starts moving faster until i seem like an amphetamine
weasel. that i've got the scent and i'm absolutely bathing
in the thrill of the chase. and it's hard to stop. and i
know all this, and deliberately opt to let it happen or not.
it goes kind of like: i'm busy, not now. or: shit has been
rough and i need a fucking vacation. i don't take
psychedelics anymore, i'll just trip myself out for a while.
then i feel better, then it stops, or i manage to stop it.

but i haven't felt like i've watching this mechanic happen
before my eyes... or, rather, i can feel it, off in a blurry
way. i'm going to leave some stubs for myself of things i
would have let myself keep going on about [and already have
not come back to post] and i'll have more later and we'll
see how the stubs do vs. the rest. because i think i could
get a lot better at some things rapidly -- like, managing my
life things that are useful -- if i clarify what i see

- the path is obviously every previous collapsation of the
waveform. so that's why memories are a discrete snap into a
thing. you remember this, snap, you remember that, snap.
then these are too snapshots you can review

- taking a snapshop of examining a snapshot is arguably a
good engineering definition of my "freeze-frame" praxis. a
more understandable way to say it is i've added a lot of
instrumentation to the snapshots i take, based on the
instrumentation i've added to the snapshots i take

- i am not, actually, an instance of myself from 2020 "brb
guys" though this would be wicked. i am just out of another
rabbit hole though, which is tite

- shortest path boils down to "least energy usage" at the
end of the day, which you build up into targets like not
dying, procreation, etc


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 20:58 [#02633902]
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this doesn't count [just -- oh, not that screaming squirming
chunk over there. and let's not start another fire either]

i said something like, "i am neurotic and i have mild
anxiety issues, but my curiosity is terrify" and this
bothered me because i felt i didn't have it quite right.
mild anxiety issues? that's some bullshit waffle; an
incomplete thought. but it would have made the post longer
anyways

instead, i would describe myself as a nervous person. i'm
stressing over this detail and that detail and i've lost my
cellphone somewhere in the house and i know i do this and so
i'm nervous i'll do this and that is one the aforementioned
"this detail and that detail i'm stressing over and i've
lost my cellphone somewhere in the house and CALM DOWN AND
STOP BEING NERVOUS ABOUT BEING NERVOUS it'd be a good first
step innit

so when it comes to, say, social anxiety, i am worrying
about worrying about details and getting lost in thought
about getting lost in thought and just say hello you
jackass. and i manage fine these days. but it's literally
like i drove myself into an infinite loop back when that was
worse, and i'm still like that all over. and i'm nervous
about it all the time

that i have not actually studied anxiety issues at all. i've
looked at my own problems, the dorsal nexus, amygdala, that
sort of fing. and that gets into things like panic attacks
and anxiety issues, when mine is really not-unwarranted
anxiety about disappearing up my own fundament, because it
really fucking has happened over and over and augh. but it's
not, like, an anxiety issue, i kind of figure

and that's why it was bothering me when i wrote it. and it's
magnified and put it back up on the shelf now. i'm neurotic
and nervous but my curiosity is terrifying


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 23:06 [#02633918]
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is it computationally possible to extract the entire plot of
an anime series you have not completely seen from [fragments
of personality you smell off a] jpeg of the artist who
created the series smiling with a singular intensity?

i casually throw this question into a volcano


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-24 14:59 [#02633922]
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as if anyone were keeping track at this point, i managed to
stop the train, but the momentum carried through into a few
other replies. i think i won't even dredge up too much of
that so today can be more useful

that the role of quantum consciousness is to optimize mammal
brain consciousness [or whatever word we use here] and this
stuff turns me into a crack weasel because, like, this is
what it's hear for. it's a quantum layer that evolved on top
of a classical computation layer [which is in and of itself
so complex it can almost do all of this on its own] to
analyze that layer and optimize it and beat other species in
reaction time essentially, due to strategy -- because you've
already maxed out what is theoretically possible in terms of
sheer reaction time. planning, outthinking, is the only way
to react faster

people will say, "oh, i love [subject], it really gets my
blood going." i don't think it's a leap to say that this can
be literal, particularly in my case. writing about this,
studying it, finding the answers, actually sets me on a loop
powered by a slow-drip of adrenaline. it gets my blood
going. my heart rate literally goes up because i am so fired
up, and the blood pumps all over the mammal brain and new
answer fire out and YES I HAVE IT

so not only is it a lot of fun, but it's what that layer of
the brain was freaking designed for, and of course it takes
off a bit

this also explains the human thirst for knowledge. until a
human consciousness figures out what it is, it's always
going to be behind on its work

and now that i've solved the fundamental problem i can
actually calm down and focus on using it more efficiently


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-24 16:50 [#02633927]
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research can be sort of like gardening and you figure
something out that colors all of your previous research and
you can't simply take it in all at once, nor would you want
to. it's more like, "oh let's see what fruit grew on this
one today"

somewhere back in this thread i developed the ability to...
sit in my car's driver seat, engine on, meditating lightly.
then i plan out my intended route. than once or twice, i run
through the whole route in my head, showing myself image
snapshots of every branch point in the correct sequence:
exit 39A, whatever.

then i can be lost in thought for a whole six-hour drive and
not miss any turns. i used to be incapable of not
zoning out and missing highway exits by up to, like, 45
minutes, and now it's simply handled for me. and this,
effectively, is the fruit that GPS weasel bore. thirty
seconds of mental gymnastics and i've a better self-driving
car than tesla could ever manage. this leverages other
weasels involved in determining when i need to drop out of
[alpha wave, whatever] and focus my full resources
now and when someone changed lanes into me at 80mph
this very likely saved my life. because i had finely honed
the ability to switch in and out, i clicked right in and was
all business instead of shitting my pants. and i kept the
spinning car in my lane rather than spinning around three
other lanes of highway traffic. and i walked away without a
scratch. and why the fuck aren't airbags transparent? it
probably has something to do with physics and airbag dust,
i'm guessing, so it can expand properly, a kind of
lubricant, then you can't have it anything that... well,
melts onto skin, and...

anyways. now i'm thinking of GPS weasel, and, oh, hmmm, how
was that actually working in this context? because i've had
a certain degree of success in applying this to other things
in my life [daily agenda etc] but i'd like more please


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-24 17:26 [#02633930]
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when someone changed lanes into me at 80mph this very
likely saved my life. because i had finely honed the ability
to switch in and out, i clicked right in and was all
business instead of shitting my pants. and i kept the
spinning car in my lane rather than spinning around three
other lanes of highway traffic. and i walked away without a
scratch. and why the fuck aren't airbags transparent?


that, as i've written before, i literally began wondering
about why airbags weren't transparent as my car was still in
a skid

but only now do i realize: my brain had solved for the the
question of [everything i can do in terms of manipulating my
car in order to not die] and had gotten stuck on a design
problem of the car that was impeding my brain's ability to
solve the problem any further. so with whatever i have left
after figuring that out and continuing to control the car,
i'm chewing on the part that kept me from getting further

if i should ever be so unfortunate to be in that situation
again, i suspect the only difference would be that i
wouldn't wander off into airbag design. because something in
me would know why i decided that was the right course of
thought at that juncture last time, and the only reason we
decided that is because we hadn't fully explained to
ourselves who we are and what we're doing yet. and now we'll
know even that is a trap and simply leave those resources
free for any further unexpected car events that could have
happened [e.g. someone else actually hitting me a third
time]

but oh, yes, i'm asking myself about GPS weasel because of
all the location-based index stuff and this has something to
do with why it works for programming my driving itinerary
but it doesn't do as well as a day planner. i need to more
strongly focus on location and most of the things i've tried
this on have not been as strongly location-based as
turn-by-turn directions


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-24 17:28 [#02633931]
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"the training just takes over" the police officer will say.
and, actually, that was exactly it. when some genuinely bad
shit happened, the training took over, and you behave in a
proper manner instead of losing your head and getting dead.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-24 17:30 [#02633932]
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that would also make it obvious i can't just walk up to
drift racing like a savant. i don't have the reflex training
for that and i'd more be terrified of crashing


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-24 18:48 [#02633933]
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it's also nice to finally understand what the point of all
this was. that i couldn't treat it as the meditative
distraction i inherently felt it was without understanding
why.

that i had run all physical solutions to the situation i was
in after karen got distracted by her phone and changed lanes
into me. that i remember time dilating and i see everything
going on and i am moving my foot from the gas to the break
but i do not physically have the time to move my foot over,
and i'm already somewhat dealing with this by the time i
actually hit her, and then it's a lot of geometry about my
last memory of where cars were, the forces involved, and all
my previous experience driving; that doing donuts in a mall
parking lot for a laugh once actually saved me here a bit
too, just getting some praxis feeling the car shuffle around
vs. pure visual orientation

then i've run all physical solutions and my body is
implementing them reliably and my brain is left over enough
to say: i could figure this further if i could see out the
windshield. why are airbags not transparent? and i'm lost in
trying to solve that, hilariously, because i've already done
everything else.

that i've made the best calculations i possibly could, i've
maxed out the timing i can squeeze out of my mammal brain
neural network, and that didn't tap it out. instead i'm on
to trying to find a larger solution as my body follows the
script for the best i've come up with so far.

then you see what i mean about reaction time; how quantum
evolved to analyze the mammal brain, that once the physical
possibilities for reaction time are tapped out you have
nothing left but strategy and there we have it, that was so
fast my body was being used to the absolute possible
capacity and my brain is going crazy trying to beat on what
is stopping it from coming up with an even better answer

but that's a distraction from the path. should have kept in
the here and now; computed what could happen next. and now i
will


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-24 19:05 [#02633934]
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that, again, should i ever be so unlucky -- when my brain
computes every possible answer, these discrete points, where
i've collapsed the waveform over and over stewing on it all,
will also be instantaneously considered along with
everything else, and instead i will [know chasing after the
design of airbags is a trap and not pursue that train of
thought, or any other train of thought involving solutions
not possible in my current timeframe].

this, too, is what it's for. i''ve analyzed the whole thing;
that analysis is now a snapshot that can be instantly
accounted for in a moment like that, as my brain furiously
runs quantum simulation after quantum simulation trying to
think its way out of the hole and keep me alive. then this
expands into similar situations where this is all incredibly
relevant, without any urging from me -- but then there will,
perhaps, be some other trap slightly down the line i'll need
to have been through, thought over later, and stewed on how
i could do better

when i was training myself to drop out of space and handle
driving NOW, that was slow and messy at first. that it
started as a fog that took perhaps two seconds to clear [or
more] and at a certain point i really began to feel:
everyone zones out when driving sometimes; it's impossible
to avoid that. while i had more of a problem with it than
everyone before, i'm now probably better than 95% of people
on the road. driving past a certain amount of alcohol
terrifies me because i can watch exactly what that does to
the process. but between you and me, a small, moderate bit
of weed actually speeds things up. for the sake of a
controlled experiment, i'm relieved to say i was entirely
sober when that accident happened. i had the downward spiral
playing and i remember the CD is somehow still playing after
my car is smouldering in the middle of the fast lane. i'm
still nervous about putting that album on in a car


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-24 19:11 [#02633935]
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the way i improved the process is very much covered. that i
would find myself yanked out of writing a post in my head
[i've written a lot of this in the car, walking, etc. and
then i just come back to the computer and dfjhgdfg and that
is what's going on when "how the fuck did you write all that
in 4 minutes?" i didn't. i'm just transcribing what i've
already written]

that i would be yanked out of writing a post in my head
driving, and i don't immediately know why. and i see a dog
and a person with a car and the back of the car is open. and
they're not in the street, the dog is just standing there,
but i know the dog is being loaded into the car, and dogs
can just run out into the street, and if the dog is being
loaded into the car, the end of the car is right on the
street and it won't take the dog straying much to create a
situation. and i've realized all this and that's why i woke
myself up and clicked back in and my focus is now lasered on
this person and their dog. who did not run out into the
street -- but easily could have. this specific one is more
thoroughly written up in a post many pages ago. i also talk
of evaluating my reaction to deer, and lots of talk about
reacting to other humans' behavior and handling that just
like the dog situation

subconsciously. as i studied this consciously, reviewing
what'd just happen over and over, it started to become a
refined architecture of tradeoffs and decisions and suddenly
i begin to feel like i'm setting up interrupts in a computer
-- like, alright, if this happens, we're just going to
switch it off, because after a think that's what's safest.
and that didn't just happen at first, but now it does


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-24 19:36 [#02633936]
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one that still gives me a hoot -- cars now, sometimes, have
the ability to not only cruise control, but automatically
maintain a certain distance from the car in front, as a
driver assistance mechanism to make long drives less fucking
exhausting

and i had this weasel in 2017, perhaps, and that development
was actually incredibly important. i noticed that how much i
tailgated someone [or not] while zoning out was absolutely
unarguably based on my last conscious decision about how
close to follow someone, and that i need to just take a
moment and consciously set this. like, if i am tailgating as
i start to zone out, i'll maintain that distance. that works
better automatically these days than it used to, but i'm
still always having to say "wait, shit, i left that set
following too close" because i'm human and massively
impatient and slowpokes hogging the fast lane still drive me
up the wall.

that i wrote, at the time, the brain is like god got a bulk
discount on billions of cruise control units and built the
brain out of this because he's a cheapass. i did kind of
understand this was about evolution and minimum energy usage
though

...and, yes. it still gives me a giggle. i've had "maintain
distance via self-driving level 4" or whatever since 2017.
but that one's a lot more prone than others to wandering off
and being naughty because i'm still humans and slowpokes in
the fast lane drive me up the wall

then what becomes hard is not turning it all into a giant
sudoku on long drives. that i will literally maneuver my way
to a certain way into the clog and slam on the brakes to get
the right person to change lanes and dissolve this fucking
inefficient pile of human dullards. it's satisfying but i
really shouldn't let this get the best of me, even though i
can see how to... if i just nudged that one person over a
lane... it would all collapse and dissolve... and i'm no
longer.....


 


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