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yeah i remember how hard it was to get porn, but all that changed when i became the visitor number 1000000 of a random page i clicked. i am the pornstar now, i even have my own geocities website |
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i should begin to keep track of the things i've been right about here, because it is starting to pile up post where it first dawned on me ~ it keeps going, but this was the start. then things like i'm always talking about the weasels running things so my mind can be elsewhere, and that is really about physical movement in the end |
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my typing, yes. freshman year of high school, the state is doing some study on "can students in this state type, and if so, how fast?" and so the class has been hoarded into a computer lab and a program asks you to type this or that. obviously, i thought this was an incredible deal to get out of sitting through english class. i think everyone did then someone says: "let's see how far up EpicMegatrax can make it go" and suddenly people have crowded around me and this amused me. the software let you cheat, really. that you could see what you were supposed to type before you typed it. i didn't want to let everyone down, so i found myself... going off into my head and, like, pre-typing it. queuing up the motions in advance... so when the buzzer went off to type a little blurb -- like two sentences without difficult words -- i promptly clocked something physically impossible like over 200 WPM. then i'm like: there guys, i rinsed it, are you happy? there were. i realized: you know what, i already have been doing that... finger planning... thing already, just planning what to type next while the computer's thinking because i'm just waiting... and let's keep going on this; seems cool pre-visualizing motions in my head, then queuing them up for when the buzzer drops. and now when i record music it's pretty minutes of that queued up in advance. it can take me hours to get that far built up. it's not even exactly visualizing... is more like a control script of what patterns to move my fingers in... or everything, if i'm whipping around running 8 synths but it's a good story about my typing. even at 16 i was a ferocious beast |
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so i've worked out that, it was like drive is better for folders though" [mental screenshot of google drive rectangles, i can only pick out a few names driving on a golf course article on some nutty dutch guy who loved living and building sketchy data centers in underground bunkers. his sister says, "my brother was just always... too much. too much of everything." and i'm still pondering this. it doesn't sound like the 12-stepper "always want more" thing, it sounds more like... gigantic model numbers like Toaster 10000 and maybe this is a separate thing and shit how did i get here i'm in a yoga posture across the room from where this started, and i stack trace back as far as this. but i cannot suss out what made me think of [that bit of that post in that thread]. in the sense that it will help -- just a feeling -- i go back to the room and place myself where the train of thought started. then, yes, i recrossed my feet the other way a bit before that; i do so again. samsonite, right, i think, looking at a suitcase -- another train of thought from that comes back, but it's a few links in the chain before i before i thought if [that bit of that post in that thread] i could have kept fussing with it and gotten more bits back; perhaps actually sorted what the transition was, there. but it's really not that important. once i'd done the decided amount of yoga i gave up mulling it and here we are. |
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no, fuck me, that wasn't the dutch. that was belgium i think. off to argue with myself, if arguing with myself about arguing with myself about whether or not arguing with myself whether or not it the belch or the dutchians, is a waste of time big thx ever so much for that tag tip |
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you're not actually providing a chart with what the things look like. it doesn't matter. i'm not going to use most of these anyways. |
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divide by double-o error |
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<dead_circumflex> <U01B1> : "Ʊ̂" # LATIN CAPITAL LETTER UPSILON WITH CIRCUMFLEX <dead_caron> <U01B1> : "Ʊ̌" # LATIN CAPITAL LETTER UPSILON WITH CARON <dead_macron> <U01B1> : "Ʊ̄" # LATIN CAPITAL LETTER UPSILON WITH MACRON <dead_acute> <dead_tilde> <a> : "ã́" # LATIN SMALL LETTER A WITH TILDE AND ACUTE <dead_grave> <dead_tilde> <a> : "ã̀" # LATIN SMALL LETTER A WITH TILDE AND GRAVE i think "dead grave" is a meta-key in some african country? charmingly batshit. this is at the end under "XCOMM Diacritics used in African languages" i've no idea what XCOMM stands for, nor what the heck diacritics are. but i like the word |
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at first, i was all, "how do i get the windows ALT codes going here" because i actually know a good number of them. very quickly, though, ALT codes and FUCK OFF this is much more coherent. that all the currency is like meta+equals+thingy and e is going to be euro let's try € see there it is. and it's not fucking numbers, ¥ou k... fuck, none of the kroners have a currency symbol? there's no currency k? learning things already and this is why i am stoked about this. it's not that i'll do anything particularly grand with it tonight, but it's all patterns, and this encourages shower thoughts of... i wonder what... that would come out as... and you get some of this with picking numbers, but, now you're directing the chaos someẁḩàţ fucking hell, that order even matters. i don't know what language these characters belong to but already it was pretty casual to just paint a helix around the last four letters of the last paragraph. sicwquidetc |
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so then i thought: how's mac on this? out of curiosity. and ~ Option + 3 = £ (British pound) this fired off a cluster of neurons entrained on me repeatedly doing this by accident on a class mac (LC 550), and, no, i wanted octot#orpe this keyboard is weird where is the the dos prompt and, i could be wrong, here, but... lol? that OSX still uses the fucking "special" character keybindings that date back to, like, the Apple Lisa perhaps? that they're perfectly solid but you're left with a few dozen to my few thousand to explore, with only having to learn simple combos until i feel content to try more. on a mac, you're just stuck with... "click and hold to select the character from a menu with a mouse" ...lol? i do need to use macs as well. if there's something this expressive in OSX, i'll gladly trade lol for knowing how to get to it. meanwhile: lol. this is an area where OSX is not only worse than linux, but it's worse than windows ouch |
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apple's is all: "hold down the key and a menu will pop up, maybe." and then "you can add an icon for the character to your desktop to click it anytime!" and this is where an OS starts to feel like it's trying to make wednesday adams watch a disney movie. (lol) |
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i do have a deep nostalgic fondness for those mac keyboards -- you know, the ones right up until they went iFruit. lab full of them, we called it "the flavor lab" sarcastically, they ran quake III, no complaints except THE MOUSE AND KEYBOARD WERE COMPLETE TURD and i suppose this worked alright back when all mac was actually worth the money for was running aldus pagebaker. that i want to know, and -- okay, it's back to the 90's, the current mac keyboard layout is from mac system 7. The Option key can also provide access to dead key functionality. For example, holding down ⌥ Option while pressing ` will create a highlighted grave accent which will be added to the next letter if possible – so if an e is then pressed, the resultant character is è. If an r is pressed instead, the two characters are not compatible so the result is `r. that okay, this is part of what i wanted to know how/if macs did. that i clicked on dead key and that also answers some of my question from earlier [XCOMM perhaps best left unexplained for now]. you can remap the mac keyboard, so let is drop the labels and just refer to option as "meta". if you give a shit, i've mapped it to the right alt key, which i never fucking use otherwise. so macs will accent to meta+` but i have, like... meta+` meta+~ meta+ _ metā + = meta + cǫmma and honestly i'm just trying this shit. i barely know what any of it is. it feels very similar to getting a new bit of gear can macs "just work" like that |
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i gave up and actually fired up the macbook right next to me answer is: lol, solidly in the lol camp. but not as abysmal as i was first lol'n@. that, fuck me, i actually have a very crisp answer indeed, option+` gives me... shit, i can just do it now! it gives me è. but how do i get ẽ? ę? é? on the mac? and the answer is: you can use the the menu, maybe! you can add an icon to your desktop it is because -- i haven't looked this up; pure feel here -- this layout was designed by some hippie on speed and amphetamines to be "the last keyboard layout ever needed." that it was going to do all languages from one thing forever, no one will ever need another, and it was all compulsively done up while tripping balls, or at least the broadstrokes. then let's go in like a mad squirrel and stuff every character we can in any corners we didn't full in with the general grand plan to cover french, spanish, german, mostly. that, really, for 30 years, that was solid. it was. but something something johnny depp; the things that were cute when he was young are just kind of scary and dysfunctional now that he's older than 30. and this leads us to the crisp part: apple fucking knows this. but they're stuck with this fucking layout; it's part of their DNA. and this layout is like: every cool thing i have, does something lame dating back to 1991. to get é i use [meta+']. when i go over to the mac and try [meta+'] -- or, directly, [option+'] the mac just types æ into the text editor, and cool, what was what you wanted, right? how quaint. this is why apple is going to such huge lengths to suppress any sort of discussion about it. |
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roger just can't option+' anymore |
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and for the record i did spend a good fifteen minutes trying every esoteric combo i could think of and the mac is just shitting out a ≤ before i'm trying to glue an additional key onto the combo. there are no combos. layout was cask of amontillado'd right good from the start. i figure you could somehow tell OSX to ignore this and do what linux does? oh, right, maybe in the terminal or some shit, but apple is god everywhere else, and option+3 is £ forever. hidden shame as they charge forward crusading against... headphone jacks... standardized power bricks... oh, we're so forward; we're all about ditching the past. no problem with using macs. OSX is fine. but hell, out of everything, this is like... for once, apple has a worse legacy problem than windows. lol |
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so, hi, i'm just here because jhdfgldfg OSX. nothing to do with the keyboard rant, except OSX, so i thought i'd put it here. please look at i'm just trying to pick out a binary in /opt/homebrew/bin here, dude. and i can't find my way to the root filesystem because ... ? it took me a moment to figure i need to "Go" menu at the top and the "Home" to dodge the drool-proof nonsense. but for the life of me, i can't get this one. i am inclined to say: perhaps i need this app from the command line as root, and perhaps then it will stop dicking me around in this asinine sandbox. in any case, i thought i'd just try clion to see if it was any better, and no, this is pretty stab-worthy so far. back to the other thing that sort of works. |
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I confess that this screed reflects my own experience. For the past decade, being a finance professor meant being asked about crypto or about novel valuation methods for unprofitable companies — and being smiled at (and ignored) when I would counter with traditional instincts. Every business problem, I am told, can be solved in radically new and effective ways by applying artificial intelligence to ever-increasing amounts of data with a dash of design thinking. Many graduates coming of age in this period of financial giddiness and widening corporate ambition have been taught to chase these glittery objects with their human and financial capital instead of investing in sustainable paths — a habit that will be harder to instill at later ages. ~ for, well, sounding a lot like me. particularly bold'd part |
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have i complained about microsoft in a while? no. i've been good. i've earned one i booted up my studio PC just now, and... right before my very eyes, a "Microsoft Edge" icon appears on my desktop, out of thin air. shitheads, i think, as i shift-delete it |
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oh, look. a microsoft edge icon appeared on my desktop again. this clearly makes me eager to use instead of upgrading from merely not giving a shit, to wanting to object rape your web browser with a very dry tree branch |
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that i got suspended -- effectively banned, since my account was old enough that i'd never had to enter a fone # and since i'm not giving them one microsoft got me banned -- for saying, effectively, "i hope whoever made this decision dies in a fire, slowly" and perhaps "slowly" was pushing it, but this wasn't a direct threat, this was an angry nerd, ok? not ok. microsoft reports it as "threatening" or something and that's last i used twitter, could have been two years ago almost. me venting at microsoft's horseshit and they report me like a fucking karen and dear microsoft: i want to object rape microsoft edge with a very dry tree branch. if you care at all about the well-being of its anus, keep it far the fuck away from me. bitch |
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i feel better. thanks xltronic, for existing. that i can post that somewhere. it's not that i need everyone to hear it or anything, just... get a bit pent up if there's nowhere i can say anything proper and have people hear it |
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[from twitter] [...i was actually quite ahead of the curve there] |
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personal note: people have been ignoring me in some thread. i've shitposted my way to the last post on the page; posted a bit of the OP as the first on the next as a bit of sampler looping; off for a smoke. then, wait, did i misread the original premise of the thread in a churning haste? that might explain it. indeed, i had, lol. now that i read it properly, i have a very succinct answer. to a very long post that began by referencing my very long posts. and now that i review it, there's actually a very nice musical progression to the texture of this thread, to me interrupting it, then, yes, hell, here's the central pickle, that's tough to even say aloud, whoops, sorry i misread the OP the whole first page. or not really, i think the weasels did it to me because they knew it would be fortuitous gardening that if i free-run on, say, "what's the best process for manually compiling Qt from source on OSX" that could be the end of me for a week or two, and, no, it's not worth it. instead, the above. much more bite-sized |
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that i will just continue 127511#02625942 here probably one of the more wonderful gifts i could give anyone would be to say: things weren't always like this, i noticed it going on by accident one day, then i started going at it deliberately... then we're at a place where we know we have something, down the road, but we still don't know what it is quite yet that i know some authors write books, where... they just let things happen... and this is delightful in the same way, in that, you're along with the audience, somewhat; you're not sure where it will go yourself, and that makes it exciting. this is different. this is more like smelling something delicious and i can't wait to have a bit of that, i just have to track down where that smell is coming from ...except, have to abandon my metaphor there; tack from smell to "a feeling like aphasia, but more granular." ohhh, that word, what is it, it's on the tip of my tongue. except, i'm sure i have something here, and ohh, what is it, it's on the tip of my consciousness, what is that |
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then, finally, i sort it: in retrospect, you can see it condensing like beads of water on a toilet: this shit is too much for snoop. it's a battle. it's a history thing... ..and yes, you can see it, there's a pattern: all of these are conservative totems, arguably: vietnam. watergate. finally i get to "gettysburg" and again, just running my mouth "aaaugh i am so close" that i still don't have it, i can just... like when you're really sure someone's staring at you, i'm sure i'm a hair away. and, of course: custard's last stand. snoop's last stand. because it knocks him the fuck ova and the only reason i'm continuing here is to make this point ~ at the end of the day, it was a pun off of "custard's last stand" and because it knocks dogg ova, yo. but what i'm getting is "snoop's vietnam" and no that's just kind of ugly and then "snoop's watergate" and i genuinely thought that was just my subconscious goofing off but the dark cluster of neurons missing from the equation was custard's last stand. that i could tell something fit, somewhere over there.. where other neural clusters like "vietnam" and "watergate" were lighting up and then i get to "gettysberg" and i am saying "aaaugh i am so close" after saying "it's historical, it's a battle" and turns out the one i wanted happened, i dunno, 15-20 years after gettysberg, definitely closer than vietnam or watergate but none of that had anything the fuck to do with snoop, or the stand/knock da fuck ova joke. that was just the answer to the equation, and what i got was a series of breadcrumbs leading me up to the thing i know i have, but don't know what is, like a james cameron movie recommend developing this as a skill |
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very much like dreams, really. it's a verbal pun based on "stand" and i have to backhack my way through reams of conservative nonsense |
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pure nerd rant; it had to go somewhere i find myself saying "...wow. the internet kinda sucks now" and then "wow, then internet sucks now" that i found out a load of search engines are actually powered by bing and, like, DuckDuckGo? you're seeing bing results they are sewage. that, about had it when, last night, a full 90% of the output is spam: outright rankings spam sites [quora and worse], but also arguably legitimate sites that write "reviews" to earn money through affiliate links [engadget etc]. and reddit links. all of this on an endless fucking salad toss, with an occasional nugget of actual use mixed in. your stupid algoriddims can't tell you're looping the crap spam over and over? can't you simply link them once and then put all the ones that... aren't repeats... in? that the reddit links are the only ones with any useful info. i get it now; the useful internet has been enslaved on the plantation that is reddit. the internet sucks now i try google, and it's largely identical, except the density of looping spam is slightly less. ...oh, hell, there are other search engines, right? and what doesn't use bing for the backend? and i wound up using dogpile and it's better than google, ddg, bing... dogpile is older-than-altavista old; it's utterly charming they're here to start anew, like they did back when... before the internet has washed away its best stuff with the tides i tried to set it as my default search engine in firefox only to find i'm no longer... allowed to do that? i have to install a fucking extension to add a search engine? the internet really sucks now then what's useful is actually on freaking reddit, and i see now -- it's lke |
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wired trying their hand at writing an engadget affiliate revenue farm article. it's like if RDJ started doing tracks to shill some dodgy cryptocurrency -- this is still wired; you can feel it being a shelf above engadget forever. doggedly ...but they're still doing it. the other stuff the article's author has done there The Best Earplugs for Concerts, Bedtime, and Anytime The Best Noise-Canceling Headphones to Escape Reality 13 Great Deals on TVs, Headphones, and Office Gear The Best Wireless Earbuds for Everyone Our Favorite Audiophile-Grade Gear for Serious Listening The Best Vinyl Accessories to Jazz Up Your Analog Audio whatever the fuck a "Focal Bathys" is they are clearly an $$$$ affiliate get hey, wired. i remember your physical magazine. i was actually thinking about subscribing when i have some money because you do still put out but i already have wireless headphones -- two sets, in fact, buds and cans -- and even the plebs are wising up to "13 Great Deals on..." but, hell. as long as they still put out good stuff, who cares if they've started a crap farm off to the side i guess it's more, "you see what i mean? about what the internet is like now? that even wired is sucked into this. that they're doing it their way, but, holy fuck, ow, the internet sux now" |
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lol, the link to the vaccum tube article has enough tracking crap in the url params to -- what was it tom said? -- choke a dozen donkeys archive.ph ~ archive.ph, tracking spam removed ~ i am also about ready to buy a brick phone. not to replace my fondleslab entirely. two numbers. then mostly take the brick when i go out and leave the fondleslab at home, off. i'll also need a hardware mp3/flac/wav player that doesn't run android or have wifi or a web browser of any sort. ideally it will be incapable of playing video, have bluetooth, and a headphone jack |
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"oh, that's perfect," i thought. knots and sore spots in my shoulders and upper back and i leaned over onto my hand, good, but something says keep going so i leave that hand where it is, but keep moving. gravity carries my shoulder into the wall, then my other shoulder into the other wall. when i relax my neck a bit, my head finds a comfy resting place on the windowsill. the end result is i've somehow precisely nailed the corner of the room such that i do not have to use a single muscle to stay in the position... and it solves all my back and shoulder geometry problems. obviously, i stayed there for a while. i contemplated my own choice of phrasing -- perfect perfect is a flexible word. when donald trump says "perfect call," he's whining because "hey, i used all the right doublespeak, no fair pulling my pud over this call" then one could say, "oh, perfect" and utterly marinate the word in crabby sarcasm. like, the car shat a tire. we're out changing it. a few raindrops start to fall. "oh, perfect" there is no "perfect" solution to... a body riddle? hello clark still suspended there, i examine the angles of.. my shoulders, the walls, the floor, my feet, and... this is actually quite elegant and complex. there's some deep geometry, here but there are probably any number of equivalent solutions. so, after a bit more thot, i decided what i meant was, "perfectly suited for my current needs" and never mind any sort of mathematical perfection; this works for me |
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probably no one's keeping track; that's kind of why this is here. just a note to myself /ˌɒnəˌmætəˈpiːə, -ˌmɑːt-/ (listen);[1][2] from the Greek ὀνοματοποιία;[3] ὄνομα for "name"[4] and ποιέω for "I make",[5] adjectival form: "onomatopoeic" or "onomatopoetic"; also onomatopœia that whoa, wow. that "nevenen" is a middle english verb, "to say, tell, express [esp. the truth], to give a name to" and when i found this word on the internet in high school i was nodding already, but, to name something, is almost to create it, i thought. perhaps it is creating it. because without the word there is no concept then i'm goofing with words and "onomatopedia" hurr and mostly i know -pedia (as in "encyclopedia" and you've got what it does) and what is -poeia again? and it means making/creating then, oh, "ono" is the japanese word for axe and i just referenced the equalizer quote, "you have the axe, use it" that, as i see the word now... it's very close to nevenen, in a way the o.g. a.g. (OG Ancient Greek) means "i make name" and this is our word for when we say a bee goes buzz because saying that is like going bzzz with your lips i suppose, basis of language... you start off with directly imitating the thing... buzzing like a bee yourself... because that triggers the other person to react like a bee is buzzing... and i've made you feel like that, this is a component of my message, let's move on to the next part but then that takes quite a while and let's compress it into words that aren't all raw pantomimes of the sensory input we're attempting to reference |
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after a rambling mention of my pirated copy of altered carbon, oh, hey, maybe i'll put that on again. and, oh, wow, the opening, i never thought about... i am actually struck by the way they've used computer graphics to convey how tak is kind of... feeling the praetorians through the wall? it's very very pretty and very much a lift from the deus ex video games (human revolution etc) but done up with far more expensive graphics than a game can afford. which is why i kind of missed it that i feel through walls all the time, actually. i can't remember when i didn't do this. i think a lot of people would know... you're in bed as a kid but the adults are still up, not asleep yet, lying there listening to the sounds, and you start to get this sense of floating in a void and watching the house in... not 3D, in a complete sense, but it's like "noclip" mode in doom or whatnot. and, oh, my dad is walking up the stairs, my mum has just gone down the hall into the kitchen. and i kind of very fleetingly visualize all of this. if dad stubs his toe on a step i hear it and see it accordingly right now, i can hear... a fucking lot. cars come down the street, i have a hazy image of them, how far away they are, which direction, what sort of car. there's an eastbound train i can hear about 3/4 of a mile away. someone is using a leaf blower in a zone somewhere three blocks west and one north. i see it relative to how i'm facing, but i'm translating all this into compass direction for consistency ...and, yes, the bit about lying in bed when the adults were still awake, i think most everyone would get this. how that CG rendering of it in the opening of altered carbon is... totally not how it actually is, but that sense of shimmering things bleeding off into the void like an ink painting isn't far off but it definitely is a skill and i think where i've left most people behind is i kept going with it after the adults started going to bed earlier than i did |
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"There is no limit to the amount of good you can do if you don't care who gets the credit." --Ronald Raygun that, fuck me, never thought i'd find anything this guy said even remotely clever. equally as strange of the image of Richard Milhouse Nixon, who apparently wore suits even if it was over 100 degrees, loved roaring fires, so it's August in the white house before air conditioning and he's getting wasted in front of a roaring fire and soaking a puddle into the carpet... fucking. biz. arre and you know what raygun really saying here, kind of more like: you can wield a lot of power whispering clever ideas in the right ears and then simply stepping away |
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did anything much happen when nixon died? was there a particular reaction, anywhere, other than a news segment? i was alive but too young to know that giant nose just a half glance at wikipedia, and Richard Nixon's jowly, beard-shadowed face, the ski-jump nose and the widow's peak, the arms upstretched in the V-sign, had been so often pictured and caricatured, his presence had become such a familiar one in the land, he had been so often in the heat of controversy, that it was hard to realize the nation really would not "have Nixon to kick around anymore" it's an odd thought, but there will be a similar mourning amongst the left once trump finally dies on the toilet. |
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that i feel through walls all the time, actually. i can't remember when i didn't do this. i think a lot of people would know... you're in bed as a kid but the adults are still up, not asleep yet, lying there listening to the sounds, and you start to get this sense of floating in a void and watching the house in... not 3D, in a complete sense, but it's like "noclip" mode in doom or whatnot. and, oh, my dad is walking up the stairs, my mum has just gone down the hall into the kitchen. ok, no, it's not seeing through walls. or feeling. it's visualizing. simulating. the cartoon thing where a snowflake rolls into a boulder the size of a house, and the snow is accumulated, correlated information. lying in bed, not yet asleep, just kind of listening to your parents about the house [that i can hear the tv and mum might be in the tv room. then i hear her in the kitchen, and no, she's gotten up for a moment. i know reasons she might go to the kitchen and when i hear crackers on the plate i can correlate that with the sound of the fridge closing from earlier. she slices the cheese using a handheld slicer widget] and at this point i'm starting to feel a sense of "presence" in the VR sense of the word. and it's because i'm half asleep, in bed, hypnagogic, perhaps, and my body has drifted off on me and i am totally still and focused so, next leap, learn to meditate as an adult, start to feel like an orb floating around the neighborhood sometimes same as sleep paralysis, really. if i hadn't been told about that before it happened, i might have thot i was being abducted by aliens too. similarly... no, i'm not leaving my body. don't even try and tell me i am |
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lord help me, this thread has generated some parenting advice, if you'll accept it from such a vector same as sleep paralysis, really. if i hadn't been told about that before it happened, i might have thot i was being abducted by aliens too tell your kids about sleep paralysis: merely that it exists, and "if it happens, it might be upsetting, but it's absolutely harmless and don't worry. in fact, try and explore it" no one gave it to me that deliberately. it was more dad had explained it to me for one reason or another because... well, he wasn't much better than me. paid better though |
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i think maybe i should make a thread to just be a graveyard of my stupid daydream ideas that... well, this is not really something i should stop and do, but, oh, that's not quite stupid enough to throw out entirely in 2011, i had more time, and i chased such an idea to completion: i had been watching Gary Busey's "Bulletproof" -- probably one of the worst, stupidest movies ever -- and i'm noticing how all the scenes inside the tank and outside the tank are just... clearly not even filmed in the same state, let alone the same day. it's the sort of thing movies do all the time and it's only when they really cock it up that you start to notice. i thot: you could totally replace all the external scenes outside the tank with scenes from another movie. and "avatar" had come out recently. it is perfect, it is everything i wanted out of the idea. it's even better than i actually thought it would come out. it has 213 views and if it ever gains popularity, it will probably get pulled for copyright similarly: a very deep gut feeling just told me you could mash up House, episode 1x05, "Damned If You Don't" with the CSI Vegas episode 7x05 "Double Cross" and it's the same as Gary's Tank: i'm really not sure how this will turn out. there's simply a very urgent little voice in the back of my hed saying: this. will. work. that i don't know how it will pan out is part of the fun, actually. i'm quite curious myself. so if someone else feels like taking care of it, it'll be one of those things where it kind of takes off and writes itself once you get slightly into it thank u for reading my post(s) |
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that i was just thinking. about playing "Crusin' USA" on N64 and how the supports for the overhead bridges in the Detroit level are just the most absolutely miserable stretch of that game. Is real Detroit that bad? then i start trying to analyze why i'm even thinking of this in the first place -- i could figure it out; there's no doubt in my mind because i will compulsively unearth why i thought of such a thing, if i let myself -- and, no, fuck it, there's a reason i thought of this, but it's not worth chasing down |
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shit, no, maybe it was chicago, actually. neither a place i've ever been. but worst traffic in the entire game either way |
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In the Garbage of Eden, hungry for that thing that i know Something Awful egregious kitty Bonasi come and i go |
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*Bonsai |
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🤗🤗🤗group hug🤗🤗🤗 |
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I like this salmon 🍣 tuna 🍣 avocado 🥑 Sushi 🍣 thing last night |
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I think his password forgot him |
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That reminds me, I was pretty hard on this girl I know last night for doing things I've done myself. It doesn't make it hurt any less that's just human nature. I had a side motive tho, and if she thinks about it she'll probably get it. I was listening to some Merzbow this morning while I had my coffee thinking it over. |
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Someone read every word in this thread and summarize it for me |
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