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offline marlowe from Antarctica on 2003-07-11 12:26 [#00774507]
Points: 24578 Status: Lurker



hi there - I was informed that some of you thought I was
dead, due to my final few messages - I was suicidal, it is
true, but fortunately I resisted suicide. Ironically, some
of you claim that I am in the USA, when in fact one of the
reasons for my suicidal feelings was that my Visa
Application had disappeared from the Embassy Database, which
means I will probably have to reapply again, if I do not
receive a reply from the US Embassy in London, to whom I
have written - I applied one year ago, so I may be facing
another year of waiting - in which case it will have been
THREE YEARS of waiting to Reside in the USA.

Anyway, much love to you all - I hope you are doing well and
fighting against the tyranny that plagues this planet.

FIGHT THEM


 

offline qrter from the future, and it works (Netherlands, The) on 2003-07-11 12:27 [#00774508]
Points: 47414 Status: Moderator



Paul! :)


 

offline drummond from coffee, ahh, a burger, ahh on 2003-07-11 12:27 [#00774509]
Points: 1021 Status: Addict



david icke speaks the TRUTH! :)


 

offline nacmat on 2003-07-11 12:28 [#00774510]
Points: 31271 Status: Lurker



marlowe I am glad to see you here... and sad to see you
couldnt get what you wanted


 

offline qrter from the future, and it works (Netherlands, The) on 2003-07-11 12:28 [#00774511]
Points: 47414 Status: Moderator



hope things will turn for the better for you. :)


 

offline pachi from yo momma (United States) on 2003-07-11 12:30 [#00774514]
Points: 8984 Status: Lurker



Great to see you again Mr. Savage. =)

we shall oppose tyranny by any means possible.



 

offline BlatantEcho from All over (United States) on 2003-07-11 12:36 [#00774519]
Points: 7210 Status: Lurker



and the crowd rose to their feet, cheering and saluting to
their hero as he galantly returned home.


 

offline pachi from yo momma (United States) on 2003-07-11 12:40 [#00774524]
Points: 8984 Status: Lurker | Followup to BlatantEcho: #00774519



well put


 

offline DJ Xammax from not America on 2003-07-11 12:43 [#00774527]
Points: 11512 Status: Lurker



You came back! :)

*brushes previous marlowe related posts under the carpet*

I always knew you would!


 

offline rockenjohnny from champagne socialism (Australia) on 2003-07-11 12:44 [#00774529]
Points: 7983 Status: Lurker



aww :)



 

offline uzim on 2003-07-11 12:44 [#00774530]
Points: 17716 Status: Lurker



are you still suicidal?

glad to see you back... =)


 

offline uzim on 2003-07-11 12:45 [#00774531]
Points: 17716 Status: Lurker



"oh no i knew! now he's gonna kill himself for sure! nooooo
paul dont do that"


 

offline ecnadniarb on 2003-07-11 12:46 [#00774533]
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I'm suicidal...I always am...I am happy and suicidal...Paul
is like me except we are different if you know what I mean.


 

offline pomme de terre from obscure body in the SK System on 2003-07-11 12:51 [#00774538]
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what a completely LAME an insensitive publicity stunt. You
should feel ashamed you fucking loser.


 

offline Jarworski from The Grove (United Kingdom) on 2003-07-11 12:53 [#00774540]
Points: 10836 Status: Lurker | Followup to pomme de terre: #00774538



Oh be quiet you fucking spud.

Paul, sorry I haven't replied to your mail yet :/


 

offline uzim on 2003-07-11 12:59 [#00774550]
Points: 17716 Status: Lurker



i don't think this was a publicity stunt or whatever, pomme
de terre... i do believe he was serious - it's easy to say
nothing happened to him!! ' _ '

if people don't believe other people's feelings, there is no
hope for communication... i'm not saying trust everyone for
everything, but don't take all of it lightly.

after all he didn't come to the mb for quite a long time!


 

offline Zeus from San Francisco (United States) on 2003-07-11 13:01 [#00774554]
Points: 14042 Status: Lurker | Followup to pomme de terre: #00774538



:-D


 

offline dariusgriffin from cool on 2003-07-11 13:01 [#00774555]
Points: 12392 Status: Regular



Glad to see you back, Paul !


 

offline Jarworski from The Grove (United Kingdom) on 2003-07-11 13:03 [#00774557]
Points: 10836 Status: Lurker | Followup to Zeus: #00774554



Dunno how you can smile with a face like that.


 

offline Zeus from San Francisco (United States) on 2003-07-11 13:05 [#00774561]
Points: 14042 Status: Lurker | Followup to Jarworski: #00774557



aw, my heart has been broken


 

offline roygbivcore from Joyrex.com, of course! on 2003-07-11 13:06 [#00774563]
Points: 22557 Status: Lurker



everybody is a fuck but me!


 

offline Jarworski from The Grove (United Kingdom) on 2003-07-11 13:06 [#00774564]
Points: 10836 Status: Lurker | Followup to Zeus: #00774561



And probably all your mirrors too!

:-D


 

offline ecnadniarb on 2003-07-11 13:06 [#00774566]
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As I said in the other thread...at what stage did Paul say
he was leaving to commit suicide? All I read it as was that
he was leaving the board...it was you lot who read into it
that he was about to snuff it.


 

offline Zeus from San Francisco (United States) on 2003-07-11 13:07 [#00774567]
Points: 14042 Status: Lurker | Followup to Jarworski: #00774564



oh damn, now im just lost in a deep state of depression.

please spare me oh witty one


 

offline recycle from Where is Phobiazero (Lincoln) (United States) on 2003-07-11 13:08 [#00774568]
Points: 39976 Status: Regular



great to see ya !!


 

offline JAroen from the pineal gland on 2003-07-11 13:08 [#00774570]
Points: 16065 Status: Regular



welcome back!

and jarworski, you made me laught out loud :)


 

offline Zeus from San Francisco (United States) on 2003-07-11 13:10 [#00774572]
Points: 14042 Status: Lurker | Followup to JAroen: #00774570



yeah, ANYthing Jar says, makes me laugh out loud


 

offline marlowe from Antarctica on 2003-07-11 13:13 [#00774576]
Points: 24578 Status: Lurker



It's a shame that Pomme de Terre reacted the way he did, but
I guess since he doesn't know me at all, then it's
unsurprising - some people think in those kind of terms
unfortunately. It's a shame that things to them are reduced
to such a fatuous degree.

I found it humourous to see Usnick's first post in response
to Pomme de Terre. Humourous yet mundanely predictable.

Thanks to all the rest - I'm not back or anything, but since
some people told me what some of you thought, I thought
myself duty-bound to clarify the things. When I did leave, I
was still hovering, and didn't know what I was going to do.
Thankfully, my wife is coming back to live with me in less
than 3 weeks, after six months apart, so with her with me,
life will be much better, and the wait a lot more bearable.


 

offline Netlon Sentinel from eDe (Netherlands, The) on 2003-07-11 13:14 [#00774578]
Points: 4736 Status: Lurker



hi paul! don't let the world get you man. there's plenty
other stuff to (not) worry about


 

offline Zeus from San Francisco (United States) on 2003-07-11 13:15 [#00774580]
Points: 14042 Status: Lurker



why, because Pomme is actually an intellegent guy, worth
talking to, who sees past the BS?



 

offline qrter from the future, and it works (Netherlands, The) on 2003-07-11 13:17 [#00774586]
Points: 47414 Status: Moderator



FIGHT FIGHT FIGS FIGHT


 

offline Jarworski from The Grove (United Kingdom) on 2003-07-11 13:18 [#00774588]
Points: 10836 Status: Lurker | Followup to Zeus: #00774572



Your spelling makes me laugh out loud. And you go to
college?


 

offline Zeus from San Francisco (United States) on 2003-07-11 13:19 [#00774590]
Points: 14042 Status: Lurker



haha

making fun of peoples typing mistakes.

truely a valid way of judging a person.


 

offline drummond from coffee, ahh, a burger, ahh on 2003-07-11 13:19 [#00774591]
Points: 1021 Status: Addict



lastest music talent scores just coming in....

tubular bells 5 confield 0



 

offline marlowe from Antarctica on 2003-07-11 13:20 [#00774595]
Points: 24578 Status: Lurker | Followup to Zeus: #00774580



IF I was bullshitting, then I might agree with you - but you
and Pomme are just being presumptious - BIG difference
between presumption and truth.


 

offline dariusgriffin from cool on 2003-07-11 13:21 [#00774599]
Points: 12392 Status: Regular | Followup to qrter: #00774586



Yeah, fight figs, those are evil fruits.


 

offline Zeus from San Francisco (United States) on 2003-07-11 13:22 [#00774602]
Points: 14042 Status: Lurker



oh, Im not saying you are BSing about the suicide etc...

but it doesnt mean that you werent trying to get some
attention.


 

offline Job a boj from Land of the Lost Timezone! (Canada) on 2003-07-11 13:22 [#00774603]
Points: 498 Status: Regular



Suicide is for quitters. I pondered it often in the past,
but i realized that living in a shitty situation is better
then no situation at all.


 

offline ecnadniarb on 2003-07-11 13:23 [#00774605]
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See you two do have something in common :D


 

offline marlowe from Antarctica on 2003-07-11 13:32 [#00774630]
Points: 24578 Status: Lurker | Followup to Zeus: #00774602



Attention? I came here to set the record straight. If I
wanted attention I'd run through the local high street
naked. It's awful rash to say I'm attention-seeking just
because I'm posting to this messageboard. I mean, what about
everyone else? Are they attention-seekers, or is it just
limited to me?

And wasn't Pomme de Terre seeking attention when he made a
thread saying he made $80.000 in the real-estate business?
Were you not seeking attention when you started a thread
advertising kcinsu.com? I don't see why this was singled
out, not at all.

(Job a boj, I don't think we can say suicides were better
off staying alive - each case is separate, and I think it's
misplaced to apply a general rule to them.)


 

offline virginpusher from County Clare on 2003-07-11 13:36 [#00774640]
Points: 27325 Status: Lurker



Fuck yeah Marlowe! Good to see you back man! I can't wait to
hear new tracks similar to the "Drug induced rampage" one.

(note: not actual name but i always refered to it as)


 

offline Job a boj from Land of the Lost Timezone! (Canada) on 2003-07-11 13:37 [#00774641]
Points: 498 Status: Regular



I agree. I hate when people try to compare their shitty
situations..... but to be alive is such a wonderful thing in
itself, why would you ever want to take that away?Bobby
Mcferrin - Dont worry be happy. Thats wut u need to listen
to.


 

offline epohs from )C: on 2003-07-11 13:38 [#00774644]
Points: 17620 Status: Lurker | Followup to marlowe: #00774630



dude, don't kill yourself. hang out here and talk about
stuff.

but, still, it's hard to argue that making a bunch of
dramatic posts, then making a dramatic thread about how you
are leaving us forever, bye bye loved ones, and then
switching your avvy to some sort of an angel isn't attention
seeking.


 

offline marlowe from Antarctica on 2003-07-11 13:38 [#00774645]
Points: 24578 Status: Lurker | Followup to virginpusher: #00774640



I put three new tracks up on zebox - I've been working quite
hard on making music - eMail me your address and I'll send
you a CD of my latest stuff, along with eBooks and some
software.


 

offline marlowe from Antarctica on 2003-07-11 13:43 [#00774652]
Points: 24578 Status: Lurker | Followup to epohs: #00774644



To explain the avatar change - I didn't want to leave behind
some nazi avatar - even in the state I was in, little things
fussed me - I did some research at the time to try to think
my way out of the way I was thinking - it talked about
suicides paying attention to little details, straightening
things out - kinda freaked me out to read it discussing
that.

But my final post wasn't intended to be some kind of suicide
note; it was just to let those people know that I cared for
them and respected them. I didn't really expect the thread
to be so mammoth, to be honest.

But anyway, who cares, I'm just glad that I didn't do
anything rash and terminal; I'm just happy that I sweated it
out, even though the mental and physical pain were tortuous.
Being called an attention-seeker or a fucking loser are
totally insignificant. I'm just glad I'm alive and that I
have some real good friends who mean a lot to me.


 

offline Job a boj from Land of the Lost Timezone! (Canada) on 2003-07-11 13:53 [#00774658]
Points: 498 Status: Regular



soo.... your not dead right?


 

offline marlowe from Antarctica on 2003-07-11 13:58 [#00774660]
Points: 24578 Status: Lurker | Followup to Job a boj: #00774658



No, but I was suicidal, so I was displaying suicidal
tendancies, one of which being that which I previously
detailed as way of an explaination.


 

offline recycle from Where is Phobiazero (Lincoln) (United States) on 2003-07-11 14:05 [#00774668]
Points: 39976 Status: Regular



dammit i said hi to you paul, say it back !!


 

offline Anus_Presley on 2003-07-11 14:08 [#00774673]
Points: 23472 Status: Lurker



marlowe, hi.


 

offline Anus_Presley on 2003-07-11 14:09 [#00774677]
Points: 23472 Status: Lurker



marlowe, hi.


 


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