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Hello everybody. I was a close friend to Kill Switch, helped him with the details of his work and website. I've have sad news. He killed himself last saturday over some bitch, taking an overdose of sleeping pills. You can find further details on the website users.skynet.be/Unruhe1901 . In his farewell note to me he asked me too take revenge on the bitch that drove him to suicide. For those who like to that, just mail the bitch with your thougts on e-mail removed by admins. She really fucked him up. Dutch speaking people will catch the whole picture in his farewell letter. Revenge was his last wish I'm gonne miss you mate. |
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that's...horrible. wish i was good at this heartfelt stuff. sorry, guy-o. uhmmmm. yeah. i'm sorry i just really don't know what to say. |
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its a very very mad world |
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this is really sad.. read his last .. it might have been a warning sign. i wish someone could have read that and somehow stopped this tragedy. |
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i just read the whole letter don't know what to say either... stuff like this makes me so sad ... |
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oh my fucking god... so sad :((( |
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this made me look differently at his name 'kill switch' too.. like he had the switch in his hand, and was waiting for a moment to turn it.. |
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This is very sad indeed. I wish him the peace in death that he couldn't find in life. My thoughts are with his family and friends. |
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fuck man, I'm having a lump in my throat. I didn't know the guy but this is.......... shiiiiiiiiiiiiit.......... |
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Wait but until also you in the gaping hands of despair will cases be Then I will laugh and with my scars around your ears hit and say “I have yet as had” But through your tears off You not will me understand. I tried to use an online translator but it gave me gibberish out of his letter. This was the only bit that made sense. |
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that is really too bad... suicide is never the answer, but I do feel for him... I have been in situations where I've considered it, and I've felt like there was no way out of it... I wish you, all of his other friends, and his family all the best... peace to you all!! |
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I'll try to translate that poem Wait until you fall into the gaping hands of despair. Then I will laugh and hit you with my scares and say I was right. But through your tears, you will not be thinking of me. |
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I tried: Just wait until you too.. have fallen into the yawning hands of despair Then I will laugh.. box your ears with my scars and say.. "I was right after all" but through your tears.. you won't hear me. |
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Very very sad...... .....I don't think there is anymore I can say. |
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I dont know what to say... but I am here in my room... and I am feeling very sad...... I dont know... very sad |
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Thanks for translating it for me people. |
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You are welcome |
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Please don't feel guilty. I was really close to him and I never catched any signal of what was going on. I search also for those little signals but it's pretty clear that it is that bitch that actually killed him. He was a master in putting a mask on. I added something on our website to thanks the people here who care. Thx, it means a lot to me. He asked me in his farewell letter to play vietrmx21, 24 hours by Joy Division and Again by Archive to play on his funeral Thursday. I'm never gonne listen to those songs the way I used to do before. |
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Oh my god , thats horrible! =( I feel so sorry for his parents and loved ones. "no parent should have to burry their child" King Theoden LOTR. Sorry i don't know any fancy poems , only lame movie quotes..... I really don't know what to say. How old was he ? What was he like ? I have been reading alot of his posts , he seemed to be so positive in his posts , really friendly and very dedicated to music making. |
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He couldn't stop talking about this place. It was his dream to get something like this board IRL. I knew he had a special place in his heart for Neetta. Music was his life. I think this place helped him a couple of months but the misery with his GF won. |
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Roughly translated by www.worldlingo.com This the letter is which I in fact never wild write you. You this saw arriving already of far, the indicators which I have not given you products wrong to understand. You have listened to my indicators and feelings, well well-considered and with your decisions my deathly sentence signed. is of course easy from the your viewpoint contemplate me as ' crazily ', it removes a lot of your responsibility and debt but forget you freedom-half by what and especially by he who I have rightly come in this situation. Fortunately there were people around me who persuaded me of it that I was not crazy, except then for the fact that I continued cling itself halsstarig to you whereas them me had tried previous year already since august make me clear that you my border in what I manage, had exceeded. I did not listen because I continued hoping believe in us, naive that the day would have come ever which we our already since the early beginning as our aim stalks. I weet still exact when you said that you would go really for me. 24 December 2001, the train between leuven and Brussels, you near against me to said you me: ' I choose for you '. Something what I in fact already knew of our first trip outside football for, beginning December, then you in our tea maisonnette said that you wanted my children. Our love would give you strength to come through you here rapid and consequently. Some months tolerated, more was not expected of me. I it had easily managed I had not seen that the this scenario would not be. There, my first knauw in my faith has wrongly run. Meanwhile continued you me humiliate on football by ignoring me because people think could something sometimes whereas you if we were only together overloaded me with your love. It was all what confusing. As from then the all bergaf have gone. My frustration and anger by the pain and humiliations became larger and I sailed in an obvious rebellie. You would not do with me what you wanted, itself conservation because my self-im |
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had been degraded heavily meanwhile already and then but kinder well bad than bad good. For this reason that your ' your will is not helped ' also not really fair and is appropriate also at home in the row gewetensussers. I everything have not unthinkingly swallowed what I served up got, I against all recommendation for our have continued fight. But such as haste with everything we have continued hold obstinately to our impressions, each our truth in tenant farming. With all escalations vandien. I told you concerning my impressions and begged you hurry myself wipe away them. But you did only you best reinforce them. With the same stubborness with which you brushed aside my rechtzettingen of your impressions. Your weet that I at this moment there complete doorzit, in each respect krachtloos. I wanted venture still a attempt after a year and a half of the kastje to the wall to be sent, filled with all kinds of medicatie, a test animal of the farmaceutica become, totally unforeseeable and completely doped. Some what I wanted your support as my girlfriend, something where you as long as for had fought but that had been asked apparently surplus. There is even no greintje term for the fact that you can courage and the confidence in psychiatry lose if you there needs after a year and a half more badly than formerly. Simplest is of course then conclude that I do not want become better. Your debt feeling totally roll off. |
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Leave me you nevertheless clear couples that I am not crazy, you have simply floated me to the extrême with your false promises, your humiliations, the fears which you provided me, the pain which you me did and especially the fact that you left everything on its course whereas you had to the key in hands solve everything. But that key weighed apparently surplus so that you have gambled a year and a half on two horses and he the those eerse crack, slims. I'm sorry, but this is the best I could do.... :( |
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I ve been reading his last 200 posts or so... and I found out a conversation between him and me about football in the "post your hometown" thread... most of his post were in threads related to music making he never had a bad word towards anybody here rest in peace |
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I'm not a religous person myself, but this was read at a recent fueneral I attended....quite fitting "The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever." Rest in peace our friend |
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rest in peace... |
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WOW... oh my God, he e-mailed a while ago wanting to change his username because it may be offensive to some because it had the word ''Kill'' in it. ''Hello Ophecks, I wondered if it was possible to change my nick to K switch or something. Reading the thread about this guy who lost a close friend recently made me think that the Kill could be sometimes offensive. A thing you don't think about when you name yourself after your favorite X file episode. ;) Cheers Peter (aka Kill Switch)'' |
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this whole thing seems kind of bizzare |
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Thats so sad--I dont even know the guy but thats sad. Ive tried to kill myself once... its a horrible thing. :( |
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christ... i was thinking about it today - and was even considering it... poor guy... i pray that you sleep in forever silence, burdened not by the memories that have caused you to slumber, but roused by the ones that have made you wish you could wake |
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I might pretend to kill myself when I get really bored of this nick name to. Not one bit of this whole thing seems genuine to me, not one...attention seeking gone mad is all it is. |
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damn, my thoughts on this are a little too powerful to be able to find a single real english word for them.... though i didn't know him, i dun doubt there'll be some kind of xlt tribute playlist, if so....count me in, i got plenty of songs that definitely deal with massive loss (seein as it's my world) if it was possible, i'd move for a moment of slience on the board |
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damn, that's selfish soundin post ain't it? shit, i didn't mean it to be that way, i've just....damn, i dunno, my brain's all scrambled readin through this, the only way i can thinkof to rightly express meself is musically. "i can see you, i can feel you inside....can you feel my pain where you are?"--etched |
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That's a rather stupid thing to say, wouldn't you agree? :-\ |
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oh my god ... i am actually crying.. he was a great person. we sent numerous emails and i have them all saved.. i didn't understand the pain he was going trhough was that much peter was always so nice, understood the world a bit like me. i'm feeling really sad now. i hope that wherever he is now he is happy and living in the world he dreamed about. :(( |
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i agree, i wanted to say something about it either, but thought it may lead to arguments, which we shouldn't have in this thread ecnadniarb please don't react on this, let's not start a discussion about whether you should or shouldn't have said that do it in some other thread otherwise |
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... i could have helped him :( |
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i find it bizare too... well, we'll see... R.I.P fellow belgian music-lover if it's true... |
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It just goes to show that you should never assume that people are doing great, people are good at wearing masks. My heart goes out to his friends and family, and all that will miss him |
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I wasn't great mates with him, but I talked to him on SS a few times a couple of weeks ago and he seemed in high spirits then, it is tragic how someone's mood can be turned around so quickly. Please pass our condolences to his family and friends. We feel for your loss too Dr Falken. |
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i'm really sorry for him. but i'm more terribly sorry to say that i can't believe he's dead. i'm really sorry but, i don't know there are so much strange things on this board i can't seperate the real from the fake one. but maybe i'm not right, then i'm terribly sorry |
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don't say such things neetta he obviously hided it very good since even the people closer to him didn't know he felt this way, and you yourself said you didn't understand the pain he was going through was that much so it's nonsense to blame yourself in any way |
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Have you no respect? *sighs* |
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There was nothing you could have done Neetta....don't feel that way! |
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shit man, this is so sad... may those that knew him well find comfort in their happy memories of him, and those that did not, myself included, wish that he finds peace atleast in the world hereafter. shit man, :( this so blows *hugs* |
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Have I no respect? Does it not strike you as strange that a new person signs up, tells everyone his two favourite Ae tracks (which coincidently where the same as Kill Switch's) and then a whole 24hr's later posts about his so called friends dimise? Also how did he have access to his friends web site account to put all the suicide letter etc. up? Nothing in any of Kill Switch's posts, nor in his apperences on Soulseek gave any impression at all of a person with suicidal tendencies. This to me reaks of being someone who was bored, had just been dumped and wanted to get revenge on his girlfriend. Also why would you make a site saying R.I.P. Kill Switch? Surely if it was a tribute to a friend you would give some details of who they were as a person etc. but no, in this case it is all focused to try and get people to send hate mail to some woman who works for the belgian justice department. I stand by my original comment that this is a whole heap of steaming bullshit. |
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Also the specific mention of neeta is very very strange. And if a friend of mine had died there is no way I would single out one person to mention as someone they felt very close to, because I wouldn't want them to feel the same guilt I would feel. The only person I could see doing this is someone who isn't actually moarning the passing of anyone. |
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A lot of my "real world" friends know I post here, but they don't actually come to the site. If I died I'm pretty sure that at least one of them would sign up to mention it. Isn't it possible that the tracks to pbe played were in the suicide note as he claims? Perhaps they both had access to that webiste if they collaborated on it musically? Some people hide depression and/or suicidal tendencies very well... I can accept that you don't believe this, but please don't belittle the people who choose to as if they are mentally defficient. |
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If he is dead, I neither knew him, nor have any recollection of his posts so to be perfectly honest I can't feel as upset as some of you are acting...particularly that wierd Jedi Chris. I think I should take another break from the board which I am sure you will all agree would be a good idea (most of you would probably prefer if I didn't come back). Anyway Goodnight. |
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