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let's not bicker about that... anyway, the track tribute is a great idea, but I also see the point about not flooding the thread with tracks (thought I doubt people would use this thread just to spam their tracks). however, I just had a thought... if everyone could record themselves humming some note, and that could be turned into a melody/song... well.. I may be just ranting, but for some reason it seems very symbolic to me right now... |
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i think that it would be fantastic if the artists here who feel strongly take the time to make art dedicated to him in private. and i would really hope that no one would be so exploitative that they would do what mimi suggested... i just feel that there's something kind of wrong with taking the focus of this thread onto your own projects, as good as your intentions may be... let's just have this thread about the memory of kevin. i'm sorry if i offended you, kado, i'm sure you meant no harm. that's just my point of view, maybe i'm wrong. |
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We shouldnt post works right away if any are made. There should be a window of time for mourning or something. Kind of like a moment of silence. We dont want this thread to be full of spam. That would be horrible. |
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Maybe a seperate thread "tribute to Kevin maty" or something? That way people can do as they see fit and it doesnt interfere with this thread? |
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Although I didn't know k_maty at all, my deepest sympathies go out to everybody who did and is mourning for their loss. Reading this thread has been extremely moving. RIP Kevin |
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I completely understand where you are coming from, looking back it was a mistake for me to post it in here, please believe that my intention was definately not for any personal gain. There have been some good ideas mentioned for tributes and I should have waited until a more appropriate time. *handshake |
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just to clarify, i didn't say that you intended to start a fight. i only reacted to your post with my opinion. i'm not arguing with anyone, only saying that i'm confident that if member offered tributes they would probably be genuine and sincere. |
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I hadnt post in this thread cos I was sure it was some kind of xlt inside joke I am very sad to find out this is no joke... he was a real regular here, and though not really close to me, one of the interesting guys for sure all my best witshes to the family and friends |
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yeah, I think some sort of "project" could be started... I may only be projecting, but I know I would feel good if I knew I inspired music... I don't know how Kevin would feel about it, but... I'm going to say something stupid, so I'm stopping here. |
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I would like to contribute myself. Maybe after a little time. |
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besides the "FOR K_MATY ONLY" i didn't knew him very well. the best wishes to his friends and family RIP |
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This is damn sad. I didn't know Kevin at all but it's very sad to hear that someone very young has committed suicide. |
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:( :( :( :( :( |
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In the years I've been coming here this must be the third or fourth time that someone from the board dies and every time, though I didn't actually know the person, it made me feel uncomfortable. All the best to his remaining friends and family. |
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who else apart from k_maty and cabbog? |
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perhaps there should be some kind of counter at the top of the page, showing how high XLTs bodycount currently is. |
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dark humour... well, I like humour |
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This is a body-blow. At least there are no tasteless Google-sponsored Ads to sully his memory. I spent time talking to him on SLSK and he was a great guy. I really wanted the RIP in the thread-title to be a metaphor for him leaving the Messageboard. What is it like to go to sleep and never wake up? What is it like to wake up after having never been asleep? |
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spot on paul. my (our) only hope is that if anyone else feels similar feeling is to tell someone. please do. |
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in fact, perhaps i must feel it necassary to plead with anyone who posts on here who feels that their life is in similar circumstances to please please realise that they are not alone, and they have genuine friends on here they can talk to. |
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I am confused by the whole thing. Is it that much more intense to keep it to yourself? possibly embarassment or shame for having an illness? I poured myself out to my old psychologist, and I even made some old self-pity rants here, and I'm great now. |
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thankyou for bringing up the so called stigma of what i feel is a society defined illness. i must stress within my own limits that anyone who even feels or is questioning their own mortality or borderline mental illness to contact me personally or at least speak out within the realms of the messageboard. please please. i feel really guilty over this episode, i knew him aswell as anyone i talked to kevin a lot 1 to 1 and i never knew or suspected any problems. i really shouldve known. i really should. i feel shit. but digresing, as i said if anyone here feels the same or thinks they may need other help, please contact me (i have trained experience) or at least speak out. it is really important that you feel as though you are not alone. |
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This is VERY SAD. My thoughts and prayers are with his family at this time. R.I.P. friend. |
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he only mentioned something about his mental state to me once, about 4 months ago - I was saying how I have the tendency to freak out now and then and he said he had been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder for the second time and he hadn't told this doctor about his previous diagnosis, so he believed it to be correct. I asked him to elaborate, but he kind of ignored my question. |
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i thought the worst was over for him, i thought he was mad at me and that was why he wasnt talking to me i love kelvin, i put a note in the mailbox to send to his brother, i hope it says the right things |
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Seems like nobody ever sees these things coming, no fault of yours or anyone's. Maybe there were some signs but hindsight is 20/20. |
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that's nice, mimi. |
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there is a stigma that goes along with mental illness. People treat you differently. You are percieved as weak or untrustworthy. It's not cool. |
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you're right of course. but someone with more experience and someone who regulary talked to him one on one i really shouldve spotted it. which makes me feel physically sick. but i have to repeat this everytime i answer this, please anyone who feels in similar situation to please get in contact with me straight away. suicide is not the answer. pls get in touch. |
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i must state i have qualifications in clinical psychology, anyone here with any problems within their own domain who needs or seeks further help pls get in touch with me via email, obviously it goes w/o saiyng any correspondance is completely confindential, and i have the authority to confer you to a specialist or a gp. please if you feel similar, get in touch. this mean anyone who posts here. |
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I just played the first movement of Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata on my piano, for k_maty only, and a thought occurred to me near the end - that he is already reborn and has started a new journey of life that I hope will be fulfilling for him. I'm still in shock over this, I really am. It's very distressing :*( |
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are you like a fully qualified shrink then? or a counsellor or? |
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It's good to have those skills, I sort of assimilated them from a standpoint when I was recieving help in groups and with doctors. When my friend got his streak of depression I told him all the things I knew and it grounded him. Ofcourse, I'm not qualified, but the eros is just as powerful as the thanatos and we need to know that on a daily basis regardless of our mood swings. |
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If he truely was schizo-effective, I know the feeling. We just acted on it's symptoms differently. I wish he told us this, I would have talked to him about it. :( When something psychotic happens, like a distorted visual reality or voices and even pain that isn't truely there, some people could become overwhelmed. It's like a loss of control and a loss of self, and you're straight in the center of it. I wonder if he was medicated.. I helped me to an extent but I went off the meds when i realized that I could beat this with a happier train of thought patterns. |
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it's not something you like to tell people, because, let's face it - most people don't like to hear about it ("..oh.. right.. he's that guy.."). it's sad that it's like that, but it is. |
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rip |
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this is HORRIBLE news!!! he seemed like a really good person... All my thoughts to him and his familly. this week is for him... im going to pay tribute to him in the only way i can. (music)..... REST IN PEACE K_MATY!!!!!! (you wont be forgotten) *W M W .... you are a fucking dickhead man!!! Think twice before posting you SHIT!!!!* |
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im sure wmw didnt mean anything bad and he's nice |
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(posted in tribute thread) ok you can have some too. pictures kevin took back in february. not sure where he was at the time, i did not know him personally, but they were such beautiful landscapes that i could not pass up the opportunity to collect them onto my hard drive. thanks kevin. enjoy. |
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the photos he took are of new zealand and antarctica. i didn't click on the ones you uploaded but i assume they're the same as the ones i have. you can definitely say he was well traveled! |
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Yes, positive thought is what can save you. What turns you on? Follow that. It sounds like K_Matey might have suffered from acute paranoia or voices in his head, etc... The psych docs are complete shit. They read into everything too much. There are usually idiots. The drugs are doled out way too much. Find in yourself what can keep you going and your brain might fix itself. Has for me. Drugs can be good for getting out of a hole, but not a lifestyle. Not for me. No thanks. Fuck the pushers. I hate them |
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i have schizotypal/schizoaffective personality disorder. before medication i was usually at the mercy of the faulty wiring in my brain. no amount of wishful thinking can change that. the brain is a chemical radio, so to say. the chemicals determine what station your brain is receiving. the proper doctor-prescribed medication changed my whole outlook. |
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Great pics. I looked through them and saved a bunch forevermore but it never occured to me that any of them were Antfreakinarctica. |
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I love that special ops guy Crocomire. I agree with you that drugs can really help people with serious problems, but psych doctors tend to go over board when diagnosing and they love to get you on a drug. If you are suffering from something and usually are pretty ok I say try getting on without drugs and get through it with your rationale. |
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yeah, it's oddly shocking when things like this happen on message boarrds. none of us arre rreal people |
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RIP Fuck, this moved me, I didn't really know him, but...fuck. Very sad news. |
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for a lot of people with a mental disorder finding a way to use rationale is exactly what is very hard to do. |
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Everyone is unique, I guess. Truelly tragic. So, so young. |
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some of those are some really great pictures. where were those taken by the way? |
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