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Ophecks
from Nova Scotia on 2002-01-22 23:33 [#00073780]
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Bastards!
I've been on the net for years, but I never had my own personal CPU until the summer. My mom has one, wouldn't let me use it for anything.
So I never really got into the internet until the summer. I was familiar with it and everything.
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The_Funkmaster
from Newfoundland, Canada on 2002-01-22 23:33 [#00073781]
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I wouldn't call myself shy... cause it almost seems like if you're shy, you're really self-conscious and stuff... and I don't feel like that... but I'm definately a quiet person...
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Ophecks
from Nova Scotia on 2002-01-22 23:36 [#00073783]
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I'm VERY self concious, in a way. I don't care how people see me, but I kind of do... hard to explain. I'm happy with myself, but I'm not like everyone else, I guess.
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conacure
on 2002-01-23 00:07 [#00073812]
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I would qualify in this category.
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Lydia
from not from Japan on 2002-01-23 00:12 [#00073820]
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hmm. I myself am quite the quiet and rather shy person. Eh - rather boring actually, I prefer to stay home and read a good book to going out and partying. I think that I am developing a people phobia of some sorts actually - I am finding it harder and harder as the days go by to deal with people in the real world. Largely because they are all a bunch of ignorant fools.
*grumps and grumbles about the state of humanity*
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B3n
from UK on 2002-01-23 00:15 [#00073824]
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I can idle away time quite happily doing very little..
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surrounded by demons
from neverneverland on 2002-01-23 00:27 [#00073830]
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People have been telling me for a long time that I already have a people-phobia lydia... and I guess they're probably right ;-)
I have serious problems about interacting with people in the real world. On the one hand I kinda like the idea of being a loner, someone in the background who just observes... but it can also get kinda lonely. I would like being a loner more if it was actually my own choice. But when I'm around people I'm never able to look them in the eye, and my mind just goes completely blank and I have NOTHING to say. I don't really have any close friends. Only when I'm with my family who I've know all my life I feel I can actually be myself and not hide behind my shyness. But the strange thing is that when I'm on the internet. Chatting or writing E-mails or post on messageboards, I know lots of things to say. Hell, I probably even talk too much when I'm writing :-p
It really amazes me that my brain is obviously able to carry a conversation and make intelligent comments etc., it's just that when I'm with somebody it refuses to do so.
I would love to be more like I'm on the internet in real life too... I would probably still choose to be alone lots of times, but then it'd be because I wanted to be alone, and not because I'm "forced" to be so. Yeah, that'd feel alot better.
And let's not even mention girls :-p I have written with really wonderful girls in the past (I'm still doing it) whom I really get along with and really really really like... but eventually we somehow always deceide we should meet each other, hehe... that's when it usually goes wrong. Crazy... one time I'd been writing to a really wonderful person for 6 months, and we knew EVERYTHING about each other... and yet when we met... I had no idea what to say to her, and just acted like an idiot ;-)
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AMinal
from toronto, canada on 2002-01-23 00:36 [#00073834]
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ophecks.. b3n.. lydia.. surrounded by demons..
same here all u guys (+lydia) sound just like me...
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Ophecks
from Nova Scotia on 2002-01-23 00:38 [#00073836]
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Surrounded by Demons...
My god... you described me to a T!!!!
Right down to the finest detail!!!
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loverboy
on 2002-01-23 00:39 [#00073837]
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its you who is trying to control my mind, through you're posting on this web board you are trying to alter the course of my mind.. i dont want to know how you think i dont want to know..all is what i think is all that matters and you must keep this in mind when watching the Golden Globe Awards?%$
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AMinal
from toronto, canada on 2002-01-23 00:50 [#00073841]
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ooh, i forgot: hevquip too, i know what u mean (or think i do..)
i have a lot of trouble socializing.. but i'd rather be alone a lot of the time anyway... hmm... be at some stupid party where u listen to limp biskit and get drunk..
or stay home and make music/talk to intelligent people on the internet.. read..
the choice is obvious.. most people are so ignorant/stupid u cant talk to them about anything interesting anyway...
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grinningcat
on 2002-01-23 00:54 [#00073843]
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yea i am shy too, although in recent years i have been trying to improve myself to talk to people more and 'socialize'. at the moment my family dont even know the real me.
i dont just wanna fade into the background.
And one day i thought, if i died 2morrow, how many people wud come to my funeral? not many. so im trying to diminish my shyness, and be a happy go lucky person, the center of the party. at the same time i wanna be the person evey1 loves, but have my personal space. is that to much to ask? im practising making stupid jokes, faces and impression like the 'happy' people do, practising to laugh out loud in public, which i find incredibly hard. i even hate my mobile going off in shops coz every1 turns to look. how can i not be this shy and be centre of attention a bit more??? i dont wanna live my life a quiet guy who know one noticed was even there; whereas my friend's personalities all overshadow mine in social situations. hmmm??? HELP ME!!!!!!!
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loverboy
on 2002-01-23 00:56 [#00073844]
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take drugs, that will make you cool like me
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Baron Von Picklefoot
from From my "special" place on 2002-01-23 00:57 [#00073846]
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I simply can't imagin living on the moon I hope I can find my way back to dreamland pretty soon.I don't wanna play no more I just wanna get to sleep cuz most likely sleep will let me forget about the other people that havent been able to make me stop feeling that the demons are hiding behind the walls and in the celings........I've been poked by so many fingers that being poked by fingers don't bother me no more !!!!!!THE BARON HAS SPOKEN!!!!!
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surrounded by demons
from neverneverland on 2002-01-23 01:00 [#00073849]
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Wow, it's really amazing to see that so many people here feel just like me. It actually makes me feel a little better, maybe I'm not the shyest person in the world after all, just one of the the shyest ;-)
Ophecks, I can't believe you recognized so much in my previous post... but it's really nice to read, thank you. It's wonderful to somehow have this feeling of being understood perhaps.
And this theory about introverted people being drawn towords IDM is the most interesting thing I've heard in a long time (at last! Finally I've found something where it has paid off to be introverted ;-)) Who knows what I would have been listening to if I was more outgoing (actually I should lose that word "more", lmao). That almost makes it worthwhile to be shy ;-)
But it still bugs me... if I would meet anyone from this board in real life... even though I know now how much we'd have in common, I still wouldn't be able to talk to them properly and let them know how I feel.
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grinningcat
on 2002-01-23 01:03 [#00073850]
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but do u think being quiet and listening to this music is really such a blessing?
wudnt we all just be happier if we were born happy people, lived in ignorance like the rest of THEM, listened t cheap house/garage music and died happy...
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Baron Von Picklefoot
from From my "special" place on 2002-01-23 01:16 [#00073859]
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I get what I want but I have no one to share it with a feeling in my chest and nothing to compaire it with !!!!THE BARON HAS SPOKEN!!!!!!
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loverboy
on 2002-01-23 01:19 [#00073861]
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will you kick me in the face?
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surrounded by demons
from neverneverland on 2002-01-23 01:19 [#00073862]
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grinningcat, i'm probably the worst person to give you advice on this subject. But at least I wanna say how amazing it is that you have been trying to change, and obviously had some succes already. I got a letter today from one of my ehr... "internet-friend", that said I should not try to change myself. Instead I should just accept that I was shy and present myself that way (but I don't hardly know how to present myself at all...). But I like the thought of excepting the fact that I'm shy and let people make up their own minds if they like me or not, instead of trying to change and in a way pretending to be someone that I'm not.
I was really moved by your post, up till the part where you wrote: im practising making stupid jokes, faces and impression like the 'happy' people do, practising to laugh out loud in public, which i find incredibly hard.
Maybe I'm wrong (infact: probably), but this seems to me to be not the right way. You shouldn't try to be like someone else, I think you'd be much happier if you would just be yourself. Laughing out loud about jokes that you don't even really like... I can imagine that it would work to make contact with people, but won't these people be attracted to a side of you that doesn't really exist? or? Well... I don't know... just my thoughts.
I don't have a mobile phone. I actually love the fact that when I'm out of the house, I don't have to worry about the telephone, haha! I hate phone's ;-) It's even more stupid when you've got nothing to say when the other person can't see you staring nervously at the ground.
"how can i not be this shy and be centre of attention a bit more??? i dont wanna live my life a quiet guy who know one noticed was even there;"
I have thought about that too... I think lots of times about what music I'd want to be played at my funeral, but I'm also worried about who would actually be there to listen to it. But I'm sorry... I don't really know how to anwser your question. Reading it just made me realize I have that exact same question.
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loverboy
on 2002-01-23 01:21 [#00073864]
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grinningcat: what types are funny faces do you make? do you have a webcam?
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Ophecks
from Nova Scotia on 2002-01-23 01:26 [#00073866]
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I'm fine with the way I am, I'm not lonely for most people... but I had a really great girl until recently, the only one I ever gave a shit about, so I'm lonely for live. *Cue the violins... :-D I miss her. :-(
As for the internet, it's much easier to get your ideas across, good for shy fuckers, I guess. As for ''internet friends'', I know what you mean, Demon... it's different when you communicate in a different context. I've talked to someone I met off the internet by phone (all the time now, in fact... we don't live TOO far away, both college students, so we'll meet eventually) and it was awkward at first. Amazingly, I can talk to her like it's nothing, now. Probably the only girl (other than my ex) that I can say that about. Grr, I hate the internet! :-/ I wish there were some people I could be interested in talking to where I live, but they're all so boring...
It really IS interesting how IDM fans are so alike in this regard... we're all pretty shy, heh.
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The_Funkmaster
from Newfoundland, Canada on 2002-01-23 01:27 [#00073867]
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personally I just think shyness is a self confidence thing... it doesn't have to be who you are... you just need to look at who you are, and learn to be confident in who you are, and what you have to offer... I used to be so shy... and I did that... I started to think like who really cares what other people think of me... and it got to the point where I was angry at everyone... that's not good... but now I'm pretty confident in myself... I realize that there's a big world out there besides the world I grew up in... and there are lots of people who will accept me for me... you don't need to compromise who you are, but shyness as far as I'm concerned is not who you are... you just need to be sure of yourself, and what you have to offer... and everyone has something to offer the world...
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The_Funkmaster
from Newfoundland, Canada on 2002-01-23 01:28 [#00073869]
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the society that the human race has created is such an evil thing... people grow up in schools where they are judged for being different, when they should be praised for their differences... look, this is something I heard somewhere... the popular people in high school and stuff, a lot of them, had their peak in high school... I choose to look at my life such that my peak is yet to come... which is a good thing, cause I have my whole life ahead of me...
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surrounded by demons
from neverneverland on 2002-01-23 01:29 [#00073870]
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Yes, we probably would be alot happier if we would be just like them... living in ignorance.
However it's kinda hard to imagine... I can't stand many people out there because they are so shallow and never seem to think about anything at all... and looking from where I am now, I wouldn't want to be like that.
But if I would have been born like that... I would have been alot happier for sure :-)
I definitly do not think being like this is a blessing. But atleast there are some upsides to it... I should probably try to make the most of it. I'm only 23 years old, I have a long life ahead of me... it's probably better to focus on the positive sides. At least I am more emotional and thoughtfull (and dare I say intelligent) than most guys, and at least I have formed my own opinions etc.
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The_Funkmaster
from Newfoundland, Canada on 2002-01-23 01:33 [#00073875]
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just listen to some Don't Give Up by Peter Gabriel... that'll do some good... :)
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Baron Von Picklefoot
from From my "special" place on 2002-01-23 01:33 [#00073876]
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I tell my little sister shut her eyes think about the butterflies and don't say bad words or utter lies !!!!!!!THE BARON HAS SPOKEN!!!!!
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loverboy
on 2002-01-23 01:34 [#00073877]
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you'll eat your hat for that Baron my boy
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Ophecks
from Nova Scotia on 2002-01-23 01:35 [#00073878]
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I'm fine with being shy, but the WORLD isn't fine with me being shy, that's the problem.
Baron... I'm going to write that quote down, I swear that is just gold!!! :-D
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Baron Von Picklefoot
from From my "special" place on 2002-01-23 01:37 [#00073882]
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Keep your mind open keep your ears open and keep your eyes wide open!!!!THE BARON HAS SPOKEN!!!!!
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loverboy
on 2002-01-23 01:39 [#00073884]
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Opecks is a cocksucker..
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Ophecks
from Nova Scotia on 2002-01-23 01:44 [#00073888]
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You're not very funny, clever, or offensive, you could learn some lessons from some of the trolls we had here before.
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loverboy
on 2002-01-23 01:45 [#00073889]
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i know.. i think you should just ignore me. or else ill never go away
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surrounded by demons
from neverneverland on 2002-01-23 01:45 [#00073891]
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"As for the internet, it's much easier to get your ideas across, good for shy fuckers, I guess."
YES! ;-) It was so amazing when I first discovered E-mail... I never knew I had so much to say before that.
I'm sure (well I think i am... well at least I hope so) that I would probably get "better" at talking to someone when I get to know them (or her, haha, I'd really want a girlfriend) better. I just need to find someone who will allow me some time to become a little more... comfortable and confident. I tend to loosen up around people that know me a little better. But of course really opening up and "letting someone in" is a whole different story... but I'll keep trying anyway. It's a shame that for a lot of people "you never get a second chance to make a first impression" and such... people's first impression of me can't be that good ;-)
But I think it's great that you have this girl you can actually talk to ophecks :-) (sorry to hear your relationship is over also :-(). It's quite inspiring. I hope to meet people like that to... and I still feel like the internet was almost especially made for people like me :-) Already I've met so many people on there. I've met more people in the last 2 years then in all my life before that... and I'm loving it :-)
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loverboy
on 2002-01-23 01:45 [#00073892]
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you are provoking me
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surrounded by demons
from neverneverland on 2002-01-23 01:49 [#00073894]
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you should be publishing this stuff Baron. I think it's great. At first I thought you didn't make any sense. But actually now I think some of your posts make a lot of sense, in a strange subconcious way that I cannot describe :-)
If you published a book with stuff like that, I would buy it.
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Baron Von Picklefoot
from From my "special" place on 2002-01-23 01:52 [#00073895]
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We need new inventions to reveal peoples true intentions a portable pride protector an affordable lie detector!!!!!THE BARON HAS SPOKEN!!!!!!
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loverboy
on 2002-01-23 01:52 [#00073897]
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you and every other fool on this web board
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Baron Von Picklefoot
from From my "special" place on 2002-01-23 01:54 [#00073898]
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Magical mustard sandwhich is a wonderful way to fly. only my talking egg sandwhich, is the only way to die!!!!!!!THE BARON HAS SPOKEN!!!!!!!!
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Ophecks
from Nova Scotia on 2002-01-23 01:55 [#00073899]
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He is a fountain of knowledge, that Baron!
Oh yeah, I agree, the internet was MADE for introverts like me! This time last year, I'd probably be wasting my time watching hockey or something. Now I can waste my time watching hockey AND chatting on the net, yippee!!! :-D
It may be only communicating on a screen, but it's still valuable. You can get your point across just fine in this context.
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surrounded by demons
from neverneverland on 2002-01-23 01:57 [#00073900]
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"but shyness as far as I'm concerned is not who you are... you just need to be sure of yourself"
I never really looked at it like that funkmaster... but I think you're probably right. Lord knows I don't have that much confidence in myself. And now that I'm starting to think about it... the fact that I'm shy probably has alot to do with the fact that I'm not that happy about myself... hm... it's an interesting thought. I'm not really sure how I could get more self-confidence, but it somehow seems less impossible than becoming less shy...
Thanks man :-) I'll try to find that Peter Gabriel song and listen to it.
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dancing with demons
on 2002-01-23 02:00 [#00073901]
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Actually, I think the "Baron" is full of shit. Sorry, just my opinion. ;)
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Baron Von Picklefoot
from From my "special" place on 2002-01-23 02:00 [#00073902]
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Grrrrrrrr clone are bad!!!!!I don't like clones !!!THE BARON HAS SPOKEN!!!!!
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Monoid
on 2002-01-23 02:01 [#00073903]
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Man shyness is a CURSE, I cant express my real personality.....
Im very unsatisfied with myself, I dont hate anyone, But I need to change. MY SHYNESS is stoping me from ACTIVITES Id like to do.......and thiz BOTHERS me......!
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dancing with demons
on 2002-01-23 02:01 [#00073904]
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are you a spaz?
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Baron Von Picklefoot
from From my "special" place on 2002-01-23 02:02 [#00073905]
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My words are my world beleave it or not they mean alot to some can't say I'm ahead of my time I fear that my time will never come !!!!THE BARON HAS SPOKEN!!!!!!
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dancing with demons
on 2002-01-23 02:02 [#00073906]
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baron?
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Baron Von Picklefoot
on 2002-01-23 02:03 [#00073907]
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clones!!brrr.. get back you foul beast!!!!!THE BARON HAS SPOKEN!!!!!!
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Baron Von Picklefoot
from From my "special" place on 2002-01-23 02:04 [#00073908]
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CLONE!!!!!THE BARON HAS SPOKEN!!!!!!!
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Baron Von Picklefoot
from From my "special" place on 2002-01-23 02:04 [#00073909]
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Ok I'm done for the evening this is pissing me off good day all!!!!!!THE BARON HAS SPOKEN!!!!!!!P.S. PLEASE STOP CLONING ME !!!!!!
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Monoid
on 2002-01-23 02:04 [#00073910]
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I want sex.....
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