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i am officially tired of ziggurats. i don't even like them anymore. before 2016 or so, i'd smoke the occasional ziggurat, but it was not a habitual thing. then my life kinda got shit, and they're cheap, and i started smoking regularly. i've tried to quit a few times; managed once or twice and then got back into it. again, really, because i was broke and, like, fuck it, what else do i have to do. i'm staying in some shit cheap apartment with a bunch of cokeheads, a belgian malanois, and a cat. not only is smoking cigarettes social, but they are currency things are a bit better now. i have a proper job. i live alone again, thank god. i hate my commute, i hate the train, and more, but these are all starting to feel less relevant in terms of "why am i still smoking zigs?" but, most directly -- as i openoined, i don't even like them anymore. at work, it's just habit; a good excuse to get away from my desk for a bit. tend to come up with answers w/rt to a bit of work i'm hung up on. so i think i'll need to do something instead; take walks anyways, yes, i don't even like them any more. i've cut way down without much of a problem, but it's very tough to snuff out the last bit. particularly in the morning, after sleeps, and the withdrawal is doing things to me like headache and bowel dysfunction. the morning ziggurat will be a last holdout, but perhaps it can eventually become a late-morning zig the weather is getting warmer. according to the terms of my lease, i'm not supposed to smoking anything, and windows are starting to open. been making myself go out for a drive if i want one, to slow myself down, but, tonight, as i got in my car, things came alive around me. right. time to quit also coronavirus. there's that too wish me luck xlt |
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why dont u just VAPE |
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what the heck is zigurrat |
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i don't even vape these days… |
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A ziggurat (/ˈzɪɡʊˌræt/ ZIG-uu-rat; Akkadian: ziqqurat, D-stem of zaqāru 'to build on a raised area') is a type of massive structure built in ancient Mesopotamia and Iraq. It has the form of a terraced compound of successively receding stories or levels. |
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yes i remember that from back when i read mickey mouse |
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I suggest switching to rollies as a way to get off the zigs. Worked for me. You don't smoke as often because u have to roll it. After a while u don't want the cigs anymore and you're smoking a lot less. From this point, you can try to quit the rollies, which is easier. that said, I still smoke rollies but a lot less. |
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arr aaall the zzigguratts you´lll neeeeeed. muhauhauhua |
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i couldn't give my ziggies up even if i wanted to, they're too nice and it's good for making friends in places like this. i've never met a schizophrenic who didn't smoke, it's actually part of the diagnostic criteria to some docs. first zig in the morning, zig with coffee, zig after food... yeah. mind you i've cut down from when i was drinking, used to be a 40 a day dude. ziggy zig zig. going for one now |
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i want one now but i'ma wait a while |
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made a trip into the danger zone and bought a pack, because yolo |
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this might help |
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u905yklgfh/. dfgjkkdfg. gjgjgj not going to buy another pack. not going to buy another pack. fgjklhkfjlg nothing's open this late anyways and name brand nicorette is actually a thousand times better than cvs brand, alright, ok, fhjgklfg |
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this guy's videos are pretty good (microsagans) ([dfhjgdfgh]) |
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i haven't had any in a few days and today i've felt quite good, just had a bit of the gum but now, suddenly, dfjgkdfgdf i want a zig. my brain is all... maybe i have one in the drawer, under th- no, stop, you don't. they're gone. have some more of the gum, or nothing, shut up |
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still really want a zig |
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it is strange i think i am essentially over the chemical addiction at this point but i rather want a zig for the sake of form right now |
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ssssuccccssssesssccecxcesessecessssssssssss i haven't had a zig in over two weeks but it's only the last few days that i haven't even been thinking about it triggering, the most, is watching tv/movies where people smoke, and a general sense of the intensity of that reducing, specifically. like, thank god, it's starting to feel irrelevant again. like it did for most of my life, spare the last five years. cigarettes? oh, whatever. i could actually get very specific on what it was that flipped the switch. that, for years, i'd occasionally smoke a zig, and never became a zmoker. it was, essentially, a period when i was broke, going through a lot of shit in my life, and, as a consequence of both of these things, forced to live with people who had a social zig culture. combined with continuing to be broke, having to drive for uber, and zigs are a good way to kill the tedium writing this all, actually triggers the urge. i think i think i'll chomp my last bit of nicorette and then fuck off from this thread forever |
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meanwhile we're here buying contraband tobacco from the Bangladeshis up the road. Respect EMT. You will continue to be challenged, so stay strong. In 2017 I quit smoking for 6 months, only to fall off the wagon on a trip to Ukraine. |
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I've said it before and I'll say it again: the longer you go without zigs the easier it gets. When I zmoked I was afraid that if I quit I'd have to live with the craving forever, but it goes away. Have faith. |
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we've also decided to quit. been a while now... more than a week....not sure... it's like that feeling you get after someone dies... a void....a deep sadness....followed by irritability at small things, the odd meltdown. seems silly to feel like that over a little stick of tobacco but there u go |
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Oh I know, the hollow sense of loss, the looming sense that nothing will ever be right again, and JESUS the MELTDOWNS over NOTHING, it's the most insidious shit. But it fades and disappears. The one week and the two week points are difficult, then it gets easier and you'll never wanna go back and put yourself through that agony again. |
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i thought about quitting cigs and not weed too |
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I'm not crazy about weed but I'd take a hit off a joint sometime again maybe. Cigs, no fucking way. |
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it definitely has gotten more distant -- that feeling of being triggered when someone in a movie lights a cigarette. that feeling that made no sense, since i haven't had one in weeks, three puffs and i'd want to hurl, i would not even enjoy it, but still that feeling has significantly dropped off in the last few weeks. pretty solidly in the clear, i think. meanwhile, weed. i bought a ton of oil cartridges from the dispensaries before everything shut down, and was just starting to run out. rationing myself for the last week, i was increasingly crabby and demotivated. eventually, i caved, and called around and got some flower again, and i'm using a pax 3 to vaporize it. i used to flower vaporizer all the time, and this is the first time in years i've moved back to that as my primary method, and i have to say -- very good headspace. only switched because i've no idea where to get oil carts, but i think i like this better |
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oil can be a little "clean" especially if it's a butane extraction, i used to like a more full-spectrum one from fan-drird alcohol. gives you an almost black oil / tar with more weedy flavour and a fuzzier body high. this is all academic for me though, not smoked oil in years |
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that strange feeling where it's a very particular sort of high and it's like i've gone into my brain's basement and gotten a state of mind off the shelf i haven't used in a good while |
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p. good saturday so far, all told. |
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apparently my vaporizer has bluetooth for calibration and stat tracking you could probably rig it to post to twitter each puff |
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thanks for the words of encouragement, need to hear this kind of thing. |
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weed is a different animal, different kind of addiction. Admittedly I am addicted to it, but don't usually crave it until the evening and then you have one or two throughout the evening... it's the lesser evil in my mind |
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I mean sometimes things get a little carried away and you smoke too much of it, you become especially immobile, not the worst thing that could happen |
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i can get over tobacco more easily than good weed |
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Maybe... in this case weed was chosen over tobacco but wasn’t so much a conscious choice. Not too long ago I thought it would go the other away. |
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*way |
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I would venture to say that weed helps with the tab withdrawal. Must say i like a good spliff so missing true tobacco in the joints. Even my wife, who really inky smokes when she’s feeling festive, has been toking with me in the evenings because it lessens the cravings. Alcohol on the other hand, was tough drinking and not having a cigarette. We smoked more weed to compensate. |
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I never know where to buy it. Is it wrong to ask on the Next door App? |
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i'm not sure weed is right for you. it might trigger some self-reflection |
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he he |
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think we're going to try to cut down on the weed too now. Not my idea. |
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^^ supposed to represent my fuirstartion but just looks looks a crypto wallet address |
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it's fuckin tough respect to people who kick harder drugs |
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you should stick to your own ideas |
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I'll stick to ideas I think are good, regadless of where they come from |
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Portnoy is the crab trying to climb out of the bucket, and Epic is the crab trying to pull him back in. |
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I'll stick to ideas I think are good, regadless of where they come from the way you wrote it, it just sounded like you didn't think it was a good idea Portnoy is the crab trying to climb out of the bucket, and Epic is the crab trying to pull him back in. you're just lonely in the "does whatever the wife says" bucket |
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I do do what the wife says. It’s easier that way. Unless it contravenes some sacred personal law, in that case I stand my ground. Tbh Idk if it is a good idea. Speaking tobacco here, still dipping in the weed. I have come to realise cigarettes are there to fill the void of existence, the nothing, the deep nothing. I’m craving a cigarette, I wonder what I could do instead, something, anything!! And I am doing some things, all kinds of unnecessary things. Is it either a passive smoke filled life or a busy body smoke free existence. Need to find some middle ground or I might turn into something I don’t want to be. |
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Right around now is when the Tobacco Demons start whispering into your ear that it's not normal to never smoke again, it's not good, your life has no axis... what if you could just smoke once in a while, like a good boy? You don't want to turn into an annoying smokeless monster, do you? Look the invisible demons in the eye and pee on their shoes, friend. Those voices are the sound of your addiction dying. |
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