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offline mohamed on 2017-03-12 12:31 [#02515168]
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talks about synthesis but cant reply in less than 5000
words.


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-12 12:34 [#02515170]
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LAZY_TITLE


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-12 12:39 [#02515171]
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reading his posts when i have the patience is like sifting
through a quarry full of sand to find the occasional nugget
of interest

it would be unfair of me to pick on him as im sure he is
quite fragile like the rest of us in some regard

i like the fact we have such varying personalities on here,
i must admit i have no idea what he is talking about 75% of
the time but they again i have a preponderance to talk
absolute bollocks


 

offline fleetmouse from Gorilla Mind Smooth on 2017-03-12 12:51 [#02515175]
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epic #MAGA tracks

epic he's the good posts guy


 

offline fleetmouse from Gorilla Mind Smooth on 2017-03-12 13:17 [#02515179]
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seriously though don't go in on epic, he's probably the
least malicious person here, and he's thoughest poster (only
xltronic kids will remember thoughest poster)


 

offline mohamed on 2017-03-12 13:49 [#02515180]
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he talks like he had a pronounced forehead.


 

offline fleetmouse from Gorilla Mind Smooth on 2017-03-12 13:53 [#02515182]
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a fivehead, even


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 15:31 [#02515190]
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the beautiful and terrible thing about a situation like this
is you're free to go back to 2011 or 2012 when i drunk,
tripping, and acting like a complete asshole at times. only
at times... i remember i was on xltronic, essentially
liveposting when the boston marathon bombing happened. that
was not one of my asshole days... but, yes, quite a few
were, back then.

at the time, i believed in myself and what i was doing
(hauling ass in the studio) but i was frustrated i wasn't
getting more attention for it. my life was beginning to fall
down around my ears because i'd plowed everything i had into
the studio and let everything else go to shit. letting work
go undone. getting fat. a five-year relationship on the
rocks because we encouraged each others' drinking and i was
getting fat, making less money, and disappearing into the
studio for days on end. yet, during this time, i produced
some of the finest stuff i've ever written. this is not
hindsight; i more or less knew immediately that it was a cut
above what i'd done before. i feel like i could have gone
further had things not fallen apart... so, when they did,
yes, i was pretty angry. by 2013 i had a lot more asshole
days.

2017 ~ the last few years have been horrid, frustrating
shit. a long, slow slog cleaning up the huge mess i've made
for myself. i'm deeply in debt, still... behind on work...
tax season looms; so does an anxiety attack. other peoples'
shit can be even worse than mine: my parents were always
certifiable, but now they're getting old and have become
genuinely terrible.

but i'm not fat anymore. i quit drinking. got laid a couple
times and got over my ex. i'm still pretty angry,
frustrated, and depressed, some days, but now i dance for
two hours instead of being a whiny cunt like AMPI. zang


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 15:34 [#02515191]
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anyways, i have a pretty good memory. having a good memory
means remembering your asshole days in crystal clarity.
that's more or less what keeps me in check these days


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-12 15:42 [#02515192]
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good to hear, hope you manage to get out of debt can be a
massive mill stone around you neck, have you thought about
becoming an internet evangelist, you would probably get out
of debt quite quickly


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-12 15:42 [#02515193]
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like the creflo dollar prick, if he can do it anyone can


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-12 15:46 [#02515194]
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do you have health insurance?

i get depressed quite often, i never get angry for some
reason, i havent been angry for about 15 years its great


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-12 15:49 [#02515195]
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ive come to the conclusion that there is nothing wrong with
the occasional depression, its definitely part of the human
condition, i would worry if i was getting angry, my dad got
angry alot when he drank. i think that needs eliminating
whatever is causing your frustration, it gnaws away at your
health


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 16:03 [#02515196]
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epic thinks he's onstage at TED --fleetmouse

i've said this on here so many times: this is more or less
a form of therapy for me.

it's more or less the same as smoking weed: i'd tell myself,
"goddamn it! stop wasting time on this shit! get your life
together!" and i'd quit one or both for weeks or months and
feel horrid and "relapse."

eventually i realized that a bit of both each day is
super-critical to my well-being (along with lots of
exercise) and i've stopped beating myself up over it. i just
let go and spew whatever comes to mind. you're free to read
it or not. i obviously appreciate it when people plow
through the mess. heck, it surpises me anyone does

there are fringe benefits i never anticipated: i can google
my thoughts from 2011, link them in threads, weave
everything together a little better...

if i were imagining myself speaking at TED, it'd be
more like this


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 16:22 [#02515197]
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ive come to the conclusion that there is nothing wrong
with the occasional depression, its definitely part of the
human condition, i would worry if i was getting angry, my
dad got angry alot when he drank. i think that needs
eliminating whatever is causing your frustration, it gnaws
away at your health


both drink and depression are complicated matters, and
interwoven.

if your best mate buys it in a plane crash... well, shit, if
you're not depressed, you probably have deep
psychological issues. this is normal. it's unpleasant, but
it's not a problem.

it is a problem if you take it out on others, though
-- if you get mad instead of depressed and decide the
airline is to blame for your friends death; start harassing
them... well, that's being an asshole to deal with your
grief, and it's not fair to other people.

alcohol will stave off the misery at the expense of doubling
it when the booze wears off, as drains your brain of happy
chemicals. alcohol in and of itself never made me angry, but
it did cause a cycle that resulted in me being more angry in
general

thank god my parents don't drink; never have. if they were
alky i'd probably have wound up a smackhead or something


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-12 16:27 [#02515198]
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yes my dad was quite a bad alcoholic, think the post war
british drinking culture didnt help


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-12 16:30 [#02515200]
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bit of a jekyll and hyde persona, when he was drunk his
frustrations would come out, put me off booze for life


 

offline mohamed on 2017-03-12 16:33 [#02515201]
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jesus christ


 

offline mohamed on 2017-03-12 16:35 [#02515204]
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im gonna take a deep breath and try to read that


 

offline mohamed on 2017-03-12 16:40 [#02515206]
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it was a good read actually, except the usual self pompous
shit about the music you have never shown.


 

offline AMPI MAX from United Kingdom on 2017-03-12 17:37 [#02515243]
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LAZY_TITLE


 

offline SignedUpToLOL from London (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-12 17:56 [#02515252]
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I don't like the cunt. The fact that he's fat, in debt and
can't get a shag just makes it funnier. Oh but, sure, he can
be meta about synth manuals, that'll keep you warm at night.



 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-12 18:08 [#02515255]
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this is all a bit like schoolyard bullying, you can deny it
all you want but just reflects that you might be sociopaths
or something so your the real cunts


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-12 18:09 [#02515256]
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i must be mad to post on here fucking hell how old are you
lot


 

offline AMPI MAX from United Kingdom on 2017-03-12 18:13 [#02515258]
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change ur avatar or i give you a dead leg


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 19:02 [#02515268]
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"of course i'm going to get some shit for writing that up,"
i thought. "of course ampi will not appreciate it; that will
take a few years."

then i saw SignedInToLoL had SignedInToLoL and i was
stroking my chin: how is he going to react? we had quite a
few spats in those days... i figure he understands better
than ampi does, though, so i didn't expect anything too
harsh.

now that i've read it, i'm just wondering: did he skip the
second half of my post, or did he read it and then pretend
he didn't? am i supposed to come back and insist: no, it's
just the debt, the other two issues mentioned (fat, unlaid)
have been taken care-of


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 19:03 [#02515269]
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change ur avatar or i give you a dead leg

your puppy teef won't get through my socks. they're put on
too properly for that


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 19:07 [#02515273]
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last night, one of my roommates suggested i put some of my
cardboard art up for sale on etsy. i shit you not

(remember? i'm too high-velocity? or something like that)


 

offline RussellDust on 2017-03-12 19:08 [#02515275]
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I would like it too if you could change avatar. I really
hate it.


 

offline RussellDust on 2017-03-12 19:09 [#02515276]
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I never imagined you as having roommates right now. Is it a
sitcom life?


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 19:15 [#02515278]
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mohamed's doing it to me too: am i supposed to come back and
insist: i've posted lots of my music. 3/5 of the best stuff
from 2011-13 is here and here. i meant
to release the other 2/5 but my life went to shit and i
haven't had time to arrange it into albums. i've posted a
bunch of the unreleased fings here

or does he know that already


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 19:17 [#02515280]
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track 4 ~ hey you guys! hey you guys! listen2metalk!
isigneduptolol! a mix of fondness and sadness in that one,
which is one of my favorites.

the whole of "dorsal nexas" is rather depressed and
stewkeying in its own autistic farts but beautiful cage
seemed tolerable to people anyways


 

offline mohamed on 2017-03-12 19:24 [#02515284]
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yeah i know that, i dont like your attitude with music as
you seem to speak like you were actually squarepusher but
nm, its my conviction that should be humble


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 19:25 [#02515285]
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I never imagined you as having roommates right now. Is it
a sitcom life?


more like a psych ward. we even joke about it...

both of 'em are my friends; not strange moroccan ladies.
we're splitting it up purely for financial reasons. known
one for two years and the other for three. all three of us
have mental health issues. a paranoid schizophrenic and a
pair of ADD/depression cases. we're quite the team. everyone
pitches in for the dishes and they never pile up. one day
someone just decides to clean the bathroom because it needs
cleaning... then, other days, we're all having flareups and
it's like a page out of jung's red book

i definitely prefer to live alone but you can't argue with
the economics


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 19:27 [#02515287]
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yeah i know that, i dont like your attitude with music as
you seem to speak like you were actually squarepusher but
nm, its my conviction that should be humble


this is another kanish situation. it's an ungettable
reference. it's a joke. the joke is this:

1) squarepusher is the joke
2) i am squarepusher
3) i am the joke

i'm not actually squarepusher. i can't play bass for shit.
just, you know all the jokes about squarepusher that people
post on the internet? the bulk of them tend to apply to me
just as well as him


 

offline mohamed on 2017-03-12 19:31 [#02515290]
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is there a post of yours that isnt actually a joke?


 

offline RussellDust on 2017-03-12 19:31 [#02515291]
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I knew I had found the one when I first walked into my
shrink's office and saw a rather lovely edition of the Red
Book more or less on display. It's massive!


 

offline RussellDust on 2017-03-12 19:32 [#02515292]
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Easy now!


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 19:34 [#02515293]
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here is the full joke and here is an arguably more
"gettable" squarepusher joke



 

offline AMPI MAX from United Kingdom on 2017-03-12 19:36 [#02515294]
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im gonna listen 2 ur spam now epic wait a sec


 

offline mohamed on 2017-03-12 19:49 [#02515298]
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yeah, i will listen to them later as well


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 20:06 [#02515300]
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the cover art is photos i took of cardboard bits around the
house collaged together in photoshop. zilty was very much on
my mind throughout that album.

so was this


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2017-03-12 20:12 [#02515302]
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russel's already heard dorsal nexus, i vaguely remember.
he's off the hook for my feigned ampi max histrionics when
you guys get back to reply after a listen


 

offline mohamed on 2017-03-12 20:29 [#02515309]
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hatahathat passed my humbleness test, he can pass on to the
next xltronic level


 

offline RussellDust on 2017-03-12 20:48 [#02515313]
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Yes I remember it all well, and talking of remembering: I
will always smile when I think of the title Ebeneezer Bees.


 

offline mohamed on 2017-03-12 22:48 [#02515322]
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quite a music library. nice cover art. i downloaded 'dorsal
nexus' as you mentioned it, will check track 4 quickly
before going to bed


 

offline mohamed on 2017-03-12 22:52 [#02515323]
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sounds about right.


 

offline Portnoy on 2017-03-13 10:51 [#02515337]
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why is everyone converging on epic all of a sudden?

he doesn't bother me. I've gotten used to scrolling past his
walls of text.

He's a little self serving, but then who isnt?

If posting here helps you get through your shit I'm all for
it. Even if it does indirectly hurt people's feelings.


 

offline SignedUpToLOL from London (United Kingdom) on 2017-03-13 17:24 [#02515343]
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I guess it's some kind of millennial thing where people
attempt to overcompensate for that that they don't possess
(being unemployed, fat, unfuckable, witless, having done
nothing and are unlikable), so they just post obfuscation
and verbose dissemblance in a bid to disguise they have
little or nothing to say. Cute, but dull.


 

offline mohamed on 2017-03-13 18:43 [#02515345]
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it was epic to tingle ampi first. thats why i felt the right
to check if he was one of those passive aggressive assholes.


 


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