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to hate people. to tell them they should fucking kill themselves, because some people are walking piles of sledge. all the crooked shits robbing me now, thinking of u there. i'm half joking about it the whole time, but brass tacks, i haven't had a proper blowjob in years. all this dancing around the matter and the stars have never quite aligned. and now, you know what? fuck off. keep it. i hate everyone. i'm not fucking any of you meatsacks you can all burn in hell |
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...and, right. no, i'm not going to fuck christmas up. i only comment because i made some dark comment about it around halloween and no i'll just be trying to survive, thanks. to take care of myself and stretch and eat granola, if is perfectly alright with you fucking fucks |
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or will this clown system randomly decide, oh, yes, we're locking you back up again destroy your physical conditioning keep you in a shit boring room for 22 hours a day except in leg irons no granola just food that makes for messy poops and meanwhile you've decided it's perfectly fine to not offer underwear for over two weeks and tell me you'll get socks and never get socks. but we will knock your skull in and yes, this spot in my abdomen, it fucking sucks. it hurts every day. like someone punched me in the gut. and now i need to get a lawyer and go to court and defend myself against... well, how dare i get beat to shit by a bunch of violent pieces of shit that should fucking kill themselves clearly i'm the unstable one and i need to be evaluated or some shit which means some asshole gets to rob masshealth as a mechanism to juice me more. and kill yourself. you meatsacks. you parasites |
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what i want for christmas is for a very long naughty list of people to fucking kill themselves. i'm praying for it |
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and i'm allowed to think all this and say all this in my corner, fuck you. i'm just talking here. in a moment i'll close the laptop and lock it in the safe so you niggers can't bogart that too and jesus shit it would be nice to simply go somewhere, where there are no people at all so i can actually be myself rather than subjected to everyone's fucking hangups |
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I think the best Autechre track is "De-Orbit" from their album "Ginger" |
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i'm sore everywhere my muscles atrophied sitting in that shit cell in dirty underwear for two weeks and fucking kill yourself i hate everyone |
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i'm in the mood for DRS right now. dancerush stardom soundtrack. songs from arcade machines written to be these 2min in-and-out crack hits so you'll put another quarter in the machine. the rhythms provide a basis for thought and movement and getting fings done i don't really have time to go run some autechre science experiment now but if that's where you're at cool god bless it is nice to just study something sean grew in the lab and have a good think |
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in fact, don't kill yourself roger wilco, you're running some autechre music software in your brain vastly better than what most of these meatsacks do with theirs i think people get so in a kerfuffle about KILL URSELF because deep down some people kind of acknowledge that yes, they actually are the shit, the problem. too close to home as it were |
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no one gives a shit if you burn in hell |
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i didn't say that. in fact, lots of people tell me that sort of thing -- that no one cares about me -- but i don't believe in that any more than i do in hell. it's a metaphor for infrared waste heat you dolts i am just having a real crisis here. over and over, i've even had... people that care about me very much vastly screwing my life up because they have some tiny brain-dead misconception of what's actually going on and they think they have the right to.. whatever. i've also been banned repeatedly for casually firing off "kill yourself" and i was coming back to such a moment to say -- that was just something i said off the cuff. now that i think of it, not everyone i said that to really deserved to die. but you know what? some of the people have fucked me over like this really are nothing but parasites i was horribly depressed on thanksgiving because FUCKING ALONE ON THANKSGIVING AGAIN it has to be at least ten times now and it was funny at first getting to the store and not realizing why it was closed at first but now i just feel like humanity is a fucking piece of shit how do you expect me to behave. and after what i've just been through. they kept me in jail a week after bail was posted because... they messed up paperwork? after beating me up so bad i needed to go to the hospital to get my scalp stapled together? and this was after i'd been in jail a day, it wasn't the arrest. and having to wear the same underwear and socks for two weeks as mice crawled in and out of my cell with nothing sometimes not even a book sometimes for two days straight i feel loneliness like anyone else and it is agonizing how alone i feel. but i am looking forward to christmas alone because it's much safer than being around other people |
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well said man, ill be alone as well, loneliness can be also safety and the least of your problems now, sorry for all the fuck ups |
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