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"disability is lit" would you trust the advice of someone that tells you this? i'm not so certain. sorry, whoever it was that said that -- i don't mean to put you on blast. because whoever it was got very emotional and upset about my problems and now i've destroyed yet another relationship simply by letting someone know this situation is, actually, a thing. my motherfucking shituation. i have received multiple sets of conflicting advice. the system has just fucked me over good and proper, and most of the advice constitutes running into the arms of the system, and, well, no? people get so. upset. more than i am. because i've gotten upset already, then i calmed down and... no, i have no idea how to deal with this shit. halp. but i'm not freaking out because that's exactly what got me into trouble in the first place. and now the other person is freaking out. i'm an asshole tldr: yelling at me to get a storage locker to protect the gear is ~lol~ when i do not have the cash for a storage locker, and where am i going to live, etc. and this shit happened so quickly i'm having trouble processing, frankly. but it does seem to make sense to sell most of the cash to raise the gear because i haven't don't any. SO! for CASH. LOCAL. NOW. etc because what am i to do, uber this to fedex friendly store? leave it for landlord to sell himself? [good, boxes, manuals, etc. ++++ unless otherwise blathered] - moog grandmother - behringer model d - yellow behringer 303 [with all the mods] - red behringer sh-1 with keygrip all fings - korg wavestation EX with aftermarket sample loader computer card widget ($300 new, i had a difficult time getting it to work) - korg x5d [just keyboard and a replacement supply] - arturia beatstep - arturia keystep - boss dd3, dd8, metal master - bug miff pi - arturia microfreak [some contacts played out] - elektron digitakt - i'm running out of post characterz |
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- paia fatman with bunch of mods - roland xp-10 with DATA BEND patchpoints - drum jam casio - magic casio [with dodgy glitch special wall wart friend] - goblin box painted etc - tricked out scanner [broken SQUELCH] - oscilloscope - one of those sony, um... the good trinitron tv studio monitors there's more |
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nektar pacer custom spring reverv ghetto modular [nice linear supply... hell, i have another two good linear supplies. the ghetto modular uses a power one. i have... hp test equipment so beautiful and hermetic, shit you want if you want to calibrate... oh, nevermind landlord can toss it or whatev |
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got any cds or tapes |
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fine you can go live in the wood and worry about squirrels being cameras if that's what you really want |
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this is not what i want? i just want to work on my thingks all day. very hard. work out a lot. stay away from other people's nonsense. i have CDs, tapes, oh yes, a vinyl collection it will probably go into the dumpster or be sold into lardlord's pocket so speak up fast |
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people upset; why won't i get a storage locker to save the gear?! i talk with music people on the internet and go figure they care about the fate of my equipment more than my person |
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i'm going to take a nap and fuss with my dope streaming setup more could i have the job of the elektron guy that died? no? fair enough no one ever gives me anything sorry for asking |
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today my bowel is starting to lock down again because i am out of bananas. i could walk 3 miles, the heat, the humidity, people looking at me weird, maybe another truck will wait and try to reverse into me? and do i have enough money for bananas? fuck it. nap |
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it was advised to save the stuff you love to spend your life with, at some other place or person you know. a storage was just one of a few ideas. to me it sounds like you´re focusing on things to rule out. furthermore it seems like a pattern i´ve seen too often with other people and also with myself. the last person i know who thought hes all chilled and he rather does without the system, which has wronged him for example by demanding a small fee to prolong his personal id is now homeless in a tent. hes not well at all and wont accept psychiatric help either. i dont know you very good, nor your situation, but other people do. if bascically the majority give the same advice, which you keep ignoring, maybe its worth thinking it over. its not up for vote, i know, but its basic logic to rethink your options. ill be leaving the country tomorrow and wont be reading for some time. i sincerely wish you good luck with your current situation and that things turn out well for you whatever paths you choose. |
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Mmmmm nap bananas 🍌 and who cares if they look at me weird I’ll never see them again and they can look at mw weird like I look T them weird |
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well that's too bad because that's where you'll end up because you're too up your own arse being a manic golden god |
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hey some guy around here does gardening in his latex sm gear, i dont give a fuck about that but more importantly he certainly doesnt. |
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Wierdo |
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I. Can I get a discount if I buy all your gear that your shredding go? Can I trust you to pack it well and ship it to me, my correct address? Bubble pop and pop corn shipping. |
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And what if I move in the meantime, it probably won’t ship to the correct address. Or what if I choose to live in a tent somewhere? Well that would suck, the temps the next few days are supposed to be in the upper 90s to 100 degrees |
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so i have to... box it up i guess... uber to a place that ships it? which costs money? or am i carrying a boxed up moog grandmother 2 miles in 90 degree heat? then i had a health situation because i have to walk 3 miles for bananas if i can afford them i don't think my ego is the problem, here. i've just been thrown in the economic trash compactor because i can't pop out babbies for the upcoming world war |
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just a very mean vibe from all of you. i've been having to have conversations with myself like: well, hmm. this is a felony offense. i don't think i'll kill myself over parole, but me in jail? yes i think i'd kill myself at that point and who are you to stop me? what sort of life did i have to look forward to before this anyways? and i didn't complain. i just tried as hard as i could until i'm out of money and having a health problem and society's answer is to traumatize me with a swat team as i'm out of the shower. and, i'm sorry -- that's not mental health, or bipolar, or whatever. this is really economic |
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it's just so overwhelming being in an intractable situation doesn't make me mentally ill but ill be leaving the country tomorrow and wont be reading for some time. i sincerely wish you good luck with your current situation and that things turn out well for you whatever paths you choose. i'll probably be dead have fun going wheverthefuck yourre goin |
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Social_model_of_disability |
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tl;dr disability is only ever a socioeconomic problem, but by all means feel free to die an idiot's death if you're too proud to slum it with the dirty cripples |
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let me guess you haven't even tried for food stamps either have you |
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A sign that one is irredeemably mentally ill is expecting anything of Xltronic. |
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I expect your posts to always…normally make me chuckle a bit. |
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thank you, darius, for basically explaining that even you know this is fucking horseshit. and i'm here after my abusive family has made it clear they aren't doing anything, and the system has just completely fucking railroaded me. and run back to... what was it? a different hospital? and tell the bullshit story you were saying to tell them? you've already actively, directly, maliciously... etc. and hope you're happy. i certainly can't do crap except ask for help as best i can and ask certain people to look themselves in the mirror right now. |
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I'm sorry I honestly have no idea what it is you're trying to say here. |
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i believe i said i needed someone to buy my gear locally. i don't have a car; shipping that sort of crap is impossible. then the fees for everything for ebay to money transfer. i had health problems because i live in a fucking food desert and combined with financial problems... well, i'm going to go off and walk three miles for bananas now because the last thing i need is fecalith again amidst all this. i can already tell i'm starting to get jammed up now who wants to buy some perfectly good gear or the landlard gets it |
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so it's 1.5mi round, looked it up. i have bananas. now i'm going to [google] a 2 mile round trip for a jug of water at a cheaper store i don't know what to say other than i'm probably too earnest, honest, whatever for my own good. i'm looking up the mileages and correcting myself bbiab. i'll stream later. but it'll be another chillout session and no whining, tune in |
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i'm streaming myself eating a banana and scanning some recipts. i'll reiterate i'm recovering from a physical health problem that could come back [see hospital for documentation] and essentially just trying to take care of myself admist all this. i need to scan some documents soon, a lot actually, since that'll be too much to physically take with me. because ultimately, i'm not going to cause a scene. i'm just going to walk and do the best i can |
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Food stamps and SSI are means-tested but they pretty much only look at money so you should keep your gear. Have you applied yet? |
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You should apply for the aphex twins, there’s only one person in the band and a twin means there needs to be a second person : hense apply. |
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it's called aphex twin bro not the aphex twins |
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well yeah because he hasn't hired epic yet |
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juju randy joined thediscord even epic joined the discord it's your and russell's turn |
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don't be little cry babies and make me angry |
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we're getting the band back together |
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juju if you rejoin I promise not to hatecrime you (e.g. by saying that the venn diagram of you and donald rumsfeld is a circle) |
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the band |
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you what's actually lit? ...OBS on OSX |
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sorry people need to be arguing more about whether i should worry about the criminal trial vs. homelessness and there's two weeks in between |
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if you can hear it |
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this is the most american way to deal with a crisis isn’t there anybody in the physical world you can talk to? any buddy? call em. maybe an old school mate? you still seem to have net |
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talking to humans is sooooo 2019 |
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and dying home alone is the new black |
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someone told me to keep the digitakt privately i had thot the same thing in an insane world... |
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