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offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-21 06:04 [#02637100]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



family thrown me under the bus
i wasn't kidding about the swat team -- fucking neighbors
i'm rather fucked

here is that irc server

discordogs.com:6667

i stream or something evengtyyt


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-21 06:06 [#02637101]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



discordogs.com #discordogs hellop


 

offline ijonspeches from 109P/Swift-Tuttle on 2024-07-21 09:18 [#02637103]
Points: 7796 Status: Regular | Show recordbag



we all scream for irc stream


 

offline mermaidman on 2024-07-21 09:55 [#02637105]
Points: 8288 Status: Regular



why did they send a swat team though


 

offline mermaidman on 2024-07-21 09:56 [#02637106]
Points: 8288 Status: Regular



because you couldn't stop pooping?


 

offline ijonspeches from 109P/Swift-Tuttle on 2024-07-21 10:51 [#02637108]
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they probably suspected he lived near a drug lab.
and by that i mean a dog on prescription.
next thing you know ai reads your messages and boom,
there you have it.



 

online recycle from Where is Phobiazero (Lincoln) (United States) on 2024-07-21 16:02 [#02637111]
Points: 39931 Status: Addict



Be up a hello durgsf, hope
U R Well.
And we die.


 

offline dariusgriffin from cool on 2024-07-21 17:53 [#02637115]
Points: 12366 Status: Regular



Succinctly, what's happening to you exactly?


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-21 19:58 [#02637118]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



the neighbors called the cops
i told them to go away
i got in the shower
i got out of the shower, cops in my house
dragged me out naked and screaming, injected me with
ketamine
three day hold that lasted a week because of holidays and
weekends
a shit dothead indian doctor who didn't listen to a word
here is something for your anxiety. motherfucker. did not
say the word. i am FURIOUS.
played ball got myself out of there in min time. now i am
about to be homeless. people tell me to sue. amazon is still
messed up from the crowdstrike fail, stuff overnight
delivery last week still not here. when amazon can't get its
shit together... then the courts? i'm surrounded by people
with lots of money, that will take years, i may not win, and
meanwhile i'm going to live where?

what EXACTLY is happening, well, some of it is me reacting
to dealing with unreal pressure i don't deserve, shit that
ain't my fault. but much of it is larger than i am and
people are just unwilling to see outside of very narrow
lines because they're in denial. panic about their own shit.
my best friend from high school is suddenly not worried
about me anymore, i can tell he's arguing with his wife, his
house is "falling apart" and now i'm annoying shit instead
of his former best friend from high school. and this is over
trying to get him on the phone for a few fucking minutes
after him blowing me off for days

exactly? exactly what's happening would take more time than
i have. probably more time than this country has. perhaps
the planet


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-21 20:06 [#02637119]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



i want an extraction
get me the fuck out of america

i was actually looking to launch a business building
hardened setups seeing the wake of the crowdstrike/microsoft
meltdown. so when i say i have useful skills. i mean that
very much. it's absurd nothing's working here for me in
america, so... yeah.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-21 20:25 [#02637120]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



i did set up an irc server. discordogs.com:6667 #discordogs

the tls certficiate is self-signed because i'm not sure
there's a chain of trust worth a shit anymore anyways. at
least everything that's said doesn't go into a central
server like discord


 

offline dariusgriffin from cool on 2024-07-22 00:42 [#02637122]
Points: 12366 Status: Regular



... I'm sorry, why did your neighbours call the cops? Why
did they drag you out screaming? I gather you've had some
sort of breakdown? What's really happening here?


 

online recycle from Where is Phobiazero (Lincoln) (United States) on 2024-07-22 03:31 [#02637123]
Points: 39931 Status: Addict



madness remix


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 04:48 [#02637126]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



i told you what happened. they stormed in because i told
them to get lost and went to take a shower. i was having
digestive problems because of FECALITH as i have mentioned
here. the hospital did help with that. the neighbors called
the cops because i was briefly outside without any clothes.
because i was fucking livid, angry. because all my clothes
were literally covered in SHIT. i burned some junkmail in
the purported privacy of my backyard. the cops show up. i
tell them to fuck off. i assumed they'd left, so then i got
in the shower. by the time i'm out of the shower the cops
are in my house and they won't take any answer except
dragging me out in handcuffs. as i scream help, i'm being
kidnapped

the cops showed up with, i shit you not, a fucking armored
tank. a sniper. now everyone treats me like i'm a fucking
leper

i had digestive problems because i was not able to get
proper nutrition leading up to that, not enough money to
take care of myself. and i can't stop shitting myself and
yes, i had a moment, i burned some fucking junk mail in my
backyard, some asshole calls the cops, then no further
questions they send a fucking swat team. i had no weapons,
had no threats, there's no physical damage to anything
except some of those fucking value pack coupons and a milk
jug. everyone just writes whatever they want on their
fucking forms to cover their ass and now i may have problems
for life over this.

it was probably my landlords who called the cops because
they're fucking backstabbing shits who only care about money
and they're worried i wouldn't actually move. which i was
FUCKING TRYING TO

donald trump for president we're all going to die in his
nazi uprising anyways.

ANYWAYS. fucking help. HELP!
but you're just being sarcastic and flip so i gather none of
you care. fuck you too


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 04:50 [#02637127]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



i even posted on here before all that

talking about my digestive problems
asking for someone to send me money for food

and still you think... i'm making this up?!
what kind of asshole are you?


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 05:07 [#02637128]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



who am i kidding asking for help on here anyways? what do i
get in response? shit from thad smoyer, the asshole that
finally got me to quit music. and the sarcastic gender
police nazi


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 05:19 [#02637129]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



what is your intended result from harassing me at this
point? that i commit suicide? fuck you.

to any decent human reading -- don't worry. i'm on the phone
trying to get legal counsel tomorrow. but there's probably
enough time to stop me being out on the street. and i'm
surrounded by people with lots of $$ and court takes years
and i might not win and meanwhile i'm still out on the
street.

so, wait, actually, yes -- worry very much about me. but not
about me killing myself. that will never happen. at this
point i'm more figuring i'll die of heatstroke trying to
survive on the street, or police brutality trying to survive
on the street


 

offline hevquip from megagram dusk sect (United States) on 2024-07-22 05:44 [#02637130]
Points: 3374 Status: Regular



i was hanging out with a buddy once when he got swatted.
having about a dozen guns pointed at me was more
entertaining than anything else, but then again, i wasn't
the one in trouble. thought it was pretty gay that some of
their guns were even labeled "non-lethal ammunition"...lol
guns are for shooting & killing people, not incapacitating
them; the state/establishment has gone soft & too
politically correct. went to jail bare-footed and talked to
some detectives. kinda weird how they literally did the
whole "good cop, bad cop" thing. i seriously thought "do
they think we're in a fucking movie or something?" i don't
particularly believe in authority however, mostly immune to
it, so the interrogation went pretty well for me. those
funny fuckers asked about my buddy's gun...but only if i saw
it in his hands. yes, i saw a gun. on the table. yes, the
gun disappeared at some point. but at no point did i see it
in his hands. so i told them "no i never saw a gun (in his
hands)"; it was like they were too dumb to realize their
semantic mistake by asking too specific of a question that i
could easily use to keep from implementing my buddy over
anything. i didn't lie after all: i never saw it *in his
hands* like they asked. eventually they returned me to where
i was picked up from several hours later and put my flip
flops back on and then went home. even made the paper
(fucking cocksucker journalist tried to sensationalize the
story by saying it was originally reported as a hostage
situation...that turned out to not be a hostage situation
obviously). oh but my buddy got kinda fucked and like,
literally kicked out of our state and had to move back to
the other side of the country.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 06:30 [#02637133]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



here, instead, i'm pretty sure it's my piece of fucking fat
shit landlady who called the cops because i'm not sure who
else could have seen me in the backyard. and even she didn't
expected a fucking armed assault team and they're playing
dumb saying it was one of the neighbors. i can't live around
here anymore because everyone just crosses the street when
they see me now, i stop at a bar and they ask me to leave
before they call the police. AND I DID NOT EVEN DO ANYTHING
ILLEGAL OR EVEN DANGEROUS. i did not fucking threaten
anyone. i've said repeatedly to anyone who'd listen i'm just
trying to survive. and i don't have the resources to move
anywhere, let alone the other side of the country. and i
absolutely don't want to die, which leaves me with my
prediction of either dying of heatstroke living on the
street, or beat to shit by the cops for living on the street


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 06:34 [#02637134]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



if they'd sort me out with a house a wife i'd even be happy
to learn russian and put my computer talent to work for
putin at this point. but it's a laugh to think anyone even
notices my existence, and its likeliness to end soon


 

offline ijonspeches from 109P/Swift-Tuttle on 2024-07-22 09:09 [#02637135]
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im sorry to hear that, it does sound pretty bad.
heres a few ideas to improve your situation.
whats your current welfare status?
do you receive any funds?
can you apply for any funds?
maybe you can apply for extra funding
for clothing or medical assistance.
do you know about soup kitchens in your neighbourhood?
are there any other food sharing projects around?
the web usually has a few answers to that.
calling or visiting a local social worker might help too,
they know a lot and know how to advance things with the
gov.



 

offline ijonspeches from 109P/Swift-Tuttle on 2024-07-22 09:10 [#02637136]
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still hoping this is a joke and someone hacked your account


 

offline mermaidman on 2024-07-22 09:44 [#02637137]
Points: 8288 Status: Regular



sorry to hear epic can you go to your mom’s house until
you get back on your feet again


 

offline dariusgriffin from cool on 2024-07-22 10:20 [#02637138]
Points: 12366 Status: Regular | Followup to EpicMegatrax: #02637126



I'm not being sarcastic, I'm concerned and trying to
understand your situation. I'm sorry this is happening to
you.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 10:31 [#02637139]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



it's not a joke. a medical problem, no clean clothes, as
described, and yes, i did something childish and stupid, i
essentially threw a tantrum. in my backyard. not at anyone.
the cops. fuck off. go inside. shower. torn out of the house
naked by a fucking swat team. i cannot describe how mad i
was, especially when they stabbed me in both shoulders with
needles at once. while i am handcuffed to a gurney. no one
ever asked if there was a reasonable explanation for
anything. the cops write some shit on forms. the ER writes
some shit on forms. the psych doc talks to me for a grand
total of 20min over a week and writes some shit on some
forms and i'm out. and now this could smear me for life. i
certainly can't live in this area ever again now.

a fucking soup kitchen? a social counselor? this is
non-help. this is the sort of "help" people offer to make
themselves feel better for not actually doing anything; it's
cruel because all it does is waste my time. and then give
the person a reason to get upset and flip out on me because
why won't i social counselor? and now you're adding to my
situation. fucking people. you idiots. you goddamn idiots.

i am going to take a stab with a lawyer and all but given
the situation i don't have very high hopes.

important: i can describe everything that happened in
detail, quote things said by me and teh cops verbatim, at no
point did i lose contact with reality, and throughout all
this i was totally sober. i'd just woken up. covered in
poop. and i shower. and i try to find... fucking. underwear?
anywhere? too late i have to poop again.... and you see how
this led me to being FUCKFufdghjkdfghjkdfjghkjdf for a
minute or two, and after that the plan was to calm down;
another shower. do laundry

but instead, teh cops
my mom is spending $5k/mo on a ritzy old people place and
that's where she is in all this. the cunt.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 10:38 [#02637140]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



obviously i'd like to sell off my gear at this point, cash,
local, quick. i'll have a list together soon


 

offline mermaidman on 2024-07-22 10:39 [#02637141]
Points: 8288 Status: Regular



if you can't afford food right now then how is a soup
kitchen non-help?


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 10:41 [#02637142]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



it wasn't until a wise soul i've been chatting with pointed
it out to me last night, using the word -- shock, i've been
in shock, basically, since getting out. i farted around my
house a bit and hacked unix, sorted/packed my stuff, now
it's like... okay, business hours monday, i'm fully myself
again, let's go. and try to get out of this alive


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 10:45 [#02637143]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular | Followup to mermaidman: #02637141



if you can't afford food right now then how is a soup
kitchen non-help?


you're trolling [entirely fair] but i do feel this is worth
clearing up

i asked once or twice briefly for money here not very hard
figuring no one would and no one did. i wanted to buy stuff
for my bowel, because i was in a situation where my bowel
was running my life, and now maybe it's ruined my life. and
i have food now. and i want to sell off my gear. but at the
time, it was like, i can't sell off my gear to buy bananas
in time for it to matter halp dollers plz. and i have
bananas now. for the moment. for a week and change


 

offline dariusgriffin from cool on 2024-07-22 10:56 [#02637144]
Points: 12366 Status: Regular



Are you getting evicted? I don't understand why you can't
stay.


 

offline dariusgriffin from cool on 2024-07-22 11:02 [#02637145]
Points: 12366 Status: Regular



Also is the joke that discord + discogs = discordogs? Cos I
like it.


 

offline Tony Danza from NAFO Suicide Hotline on 2024-07-22 15:16 [#02637150]
Points: 3622 Status: Regular



epic can you go on disability? because of your bowel and...
other conditions


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 19:33 [#02637153]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



apparently i am actually being charged with shit. i have to
appear in court two weeks after i am out on the street.
you'll have to understand if i need another moment to
collect myself after finally opening up one piece of the
mail. there might be thousands of dollars in debt in
hospital bills too. essentially my life is over, i suppose
i'll document and stream it. but, worry not, i'm not going
to do any crazy shit. i may have to walk out of the house
with just a backpack, but that's what i'll do. i really
can't process further beyond that at the moment. i'm going
to have a smoke and work out until the gripping panic
subsides.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 19:34 [#02637154]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



not evicted. the lease is up. the motherfuckers have like
$3k in a deposit too i'm sure they aim to keep. my credit in
the shitter, my family threw me under the bus. i was
planning to sort it out as best i can, crash some couches
etc. but now, eesh.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-22 19:36 [#02637155]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



they are not owed any moneys. the property is fine. they are
greedy pigs who tried to convert me to christianty like...
the hospital misaddressed some mail, and this woman's fancy
cursive handwriting is all WRONG ADDRESS RETURN TO SENDER NO
MORE MAIL etc and the postman, bless him, simply moved it to
my mailbox rather than doing that. essentially trying to
sabotage any chance i had left even still, that was a few
days ago.


 

offline Wolfslice from Bay Area, CA (United States) on 2024-07-23 01:15 [#02637156]
Points: 4855 Status: Regular



you need a game plan. Dont like mine? make your own.

Use the swat thing to your advantage. Check yourself into a
different hospital. Saying this because you didnt like that
indian psychologist, right?

Explain everything, explain that you were just involuntarily
committed. TALK to your psychologist this time. Get your
diagnosis for Bipolar 1.

Take that to a social worker, explain everything that's
happening to you. They should qualify you for disability on
account of your manic state and inability to ever work again
in said state. And believe me, you are disabled, everything
you have said is a massive red flag.

Get disability checks until perhaps medication is able to
help you enough to work again. You're not there yet, not
even close, it's obvious to every single person in your life
whether you can see it or not.

Oh, and if you have ANY place, a friend maybe (maybe if you
can afford storage for a month), put everything you care
about in storage because you're clearly about to lose your
residence. Do it now, while you can.

You're a complete fucking asshole epic, you're a piece of
shit to everyone who ever tries to help you and I genuinely
dislike you. But I'd rather you land on your feet
regardless.


 

offline earthleakage from tell the world you're winning on 2024-07-23 03:09 [#02637159]
Points: 27787 Status: Regular



happy to say hello but not reading that


 

offline Tony Danza from NAFO Suicide Hotline on 2024-07-23 03:21 [#02637161]
Points: 3622 Status: Regular



listen to the wolfman


 

offline hevquip from megagram dusk sect (United States) on 2024-07-23 05:31 [#02637163]
Points: 3374 Status: Regular



i dunno, i'm encouraged to tell you to start gaming the
system i.e. take advantage of whatever "mental health"
services & financial resources you can, but i also believe
most "psychology" is just post-modern bullshit that also
opens you up to some sort of quack writing you off even more
and just making your situation worse. i mean it sounds like
they've already shot you up with a bunch of chemical
lobotomy bullshit once or twice before and you don't want to
get relegated to a life of that.


 

offline ijonspeches from 109P/Swift-Tuttle on 2024-07-23 09:53 [#02637164]
Points: 7796 Status: Regular | Show recordbag



first i live in another time zone, im glad you ate. now,
from what i know the only way out of this is to get your
local assistance rolling, like wolf said. you do have rights
and options. being partially disabled myself and receiving
additional funds to working is a good way to live and
setting your record straight will only work with your
doctors and social services. dont hesitate to get what you
can. and please do save your gear.



 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-23 10:08 [#02637165]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



you're calling me a complete asshole etc etc so i didn't
read any of your motherfucking advice. bitch


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-23 10:12 [#02637166]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



it's really annoying how anyone i tell about this shit
reacts by SFHjgKHJFGHKJDFHGkjdfghj YONBWKRndfjgj now now now
do this specific plan, drop everything

and three people have done this to me already about the plan
and they don't have any patience to listen when i try to
explain, and america had a computer meltdown friday, i'm due
in court two weeks after i'm due to be homeless, and in
between i'm running for president.

i've constructed a crack autism nook which at the moment is
only producing bespoke ambient hum. excuse me --
premium bespoke ambient hum

farm fresh [bitch]


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-23 10:14 [#02637167]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



i'm not autistic and i'm tired of you people accusing me for
years of being autistic, over and over, but now you want me
to pull some schtick in a hospital to get myself branded
bipolar, hmmm.... okay i'll just play along with the people
who think i'm autistic

please reprogram your motherfucking advice. bitch


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-23 10:19 [#02637169]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



am i allowed to take the six different sets of screaming
advice [but only wolfslice was actually insulting] and set
up a conference call and let you go thunderdrome on how i
should handle my life? because that's not the sort of
president i am, all your advice things


 

offline mermaidman on 2024-07-23 10:20 [#02637170]
Points: 8288 Status: Regular



no one said you're autistic they said bipolar


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-23 10:22 [#02637171]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



what if we split the difference between wolfy and i? i'll go
to the hospital and tell them other people are very upset
about my problems. they'll label me autistic and whatever
because all of these labels are complete horseshit, attached
to very serious life whatevers, i don't know. vote for me


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-23 10:25 [#02637172]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



have you ever actually looked at the source code of icecast,
and then told yourself, you idiot, there's a court thing
impending, we should have googled if someone has a modern
thing that does the stuff instead of going right into the
video codec part and... hmmm... well probably... YOU FOOL!
google it. time. money. all that. there's a thing called
liquidsoap and that seems to be the thing my stupid
go-overboard needs. because wants can't always b gottin

i think i'm going to rebuild my exim server next


 

offline RussellDust on 2024-07-23 10:34 [#02637173]
Points: 16047 Status: Regular



I’m on health benefits and this month is hard, or I’d
wire you something. You’re always welcome to come live
with me for a while.

I’m sorry for the tough times. Don’t be mad at
wolfslice, he’s trying to be practical. It’s clear from
reading this thread that some people care.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-23 10:42 [#02637175]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



it's very simple, really. FECALITH. i like that it is one
word

the other, better indian doctor who spoke with me about my
bowel before the other doctor who actually prescribed my
bowel and then i was allowed to do my own suppository, and
that was mana from heaven. it dissolved my dragonball of
poop and pooped and pooped and then miralax constantly and
finally after two days in the psych ward i don't need to
wear diapers anymore. it beat shitting myself in the ER
repeatedly overnight, with the fat cop security gourd
yelling at me why don't i have any clothes? i called him a
fucking faggot.

the first cops asked me if i had any clothes. this
struck me as an absurd question. of course i do -- they're
simply elsewhere. they're inside... but combined with the
fact that they're cops, and they're saying this to me like
i'm a child, and... nevermind.

i didn't have any clothes because i was in intense pain and
poop pooop plap on the floor the stairs no clean clothes
amidst a nightmare scenario enough already, broke not
getting good nutrition, and you know what? I WAS FUCKING
lPISSED OFF. i had simply fucking had it. you motherfuckers.
i am so sick of this shit

and i would have been wearing clothes while doing all that
otherwise, and it wouldn't have gone as badly


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-07-23 10:44 [#02637176]
Points: 25264 Status: Regular



vote for me. i'll fix this shithole right up. because i'm
pissed off about how america be right now. motherfucking
pissed. off


 


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