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we are still men zeus, we are still men... *hugs zeus, and starts crying* *stops crying* now it's your turn... |
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i miss physical contact i feel very alone at college sometimes i just really want a hug. my family is very close, we hug all the time, and being at college, the most i touch other people is like a hand shake. touching is good... i think i have an unhealthy lack of it... id like to just fall asleep with a girl in my arms. not sex or anything. just want to hold someone close, caringly... you know? wow, this topic depressed the fuck out of me |
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umh yeah I understand...kinda of... what college do you go to? |
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Berklee College Of Music its in boston |
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cool, what are you studying? |
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i bet he studies music. |
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duel major in Synthesis and Film Scoring but Im gonna try to work it out so i can also take all the Composition classes (film scoring and composition have alot of required classes in common, so it would only be like 6 extra classes to fufill the Comp requirements...) we shall see... |
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*gives zeus a big hug* :*) |
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hey! hands above the waist! |
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We truly are brothers. |
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Every time I walk across a bridge I have to fight the urge to jump off. It's not because of suicidal thoughts though... It's not because of the rush either. I just really....really....want to jump...off...bridge. help. |
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*removes his hands from Zeus' buttOCKS* |
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I dont really think about killing people or having to deal with people in my thoughts when I have to deal with them in reality. I honestly think about what if something happened to me, who would really care? who would come to see me? As if once something horrible happens is when people break down and tell you things-confess. Why do I need something dramatic to get the feelings out, why does everyone have to be drunk--As people we need love-affection and everything that comes along with it...People just think about sex..sex and sex...how about someone who can stimulate you,simple conversations and innocent sex...No, its about what ifs, well I've realized that I tell people how I feel, I may analyze..or be blunt...but everyone is thinking something different. |
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you don't wanna know the shit ive thougth of really. first of all i wouldnt say it on a place where i didnt totally know everyone and also i'd probably get banned for saying it etc or somethgin. |
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it must be a male thing i have _never_ had an urge to kill anyone but myself |
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i wouldnt necessarely say an urge to kill or anything violent, but supposedly males and females have, to some point, these kinds of thoughts. it can range to something crazy and insane like pushing someone in front of moving cars, to, let's say, just walking in your neibourghood (sp?) at night and thinking about running to a house and ringing the doorbell... it's something you know you wouldnt do, but just wonder what would happen if you actual did. |
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"cause boys......dont......crrrrryyyyyy" |
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i know what you mean, but no, i don't have these thoughts. |
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maybe you do have these thoughts, but they create such great conflicts in you that they are immediately repressed. it just keeps adding up, and one day, who knows what will happen???? very unlikely, yes! ;) |
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now i'm scared :) |
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lol |
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When I was a little kiddie poo, I used to think about all kinds of awfull things and such... but now.... I am such a non violent person. I have my moments where I can be intimidating and put on the "tough guy" clothes... like when someone is trying to start something... but thats really rare. But being totally non violent has its down sides... anger turned inwards is depression. And that is never fun. "Allways look at the briiiiiight side of life....." |
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theyre like waking dreams i have them from time to time usually when ive got too much on my mind im fascinated by the ideas of subconscious contents and their relation to dreams especially recurring dreams. i have 2 or 3 i can remember off the top of my head the implications are not the sort of thing i can get my head around too easily but then i dont believe theyre there to be easily sussed out still that sort of thing does for me suggest the possibility of phenomenas such as reincarnation transpersonal stuff, kicks my ass! here, i feel like posting one dream in particular now, its was so vivid, and i woke up feeling really energised and fresh. |
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There was a bit in a book I just read about this kind of thing... it also applies to social situations, y know like a compulsion to shout something really offensive in a restraunt or something. |
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me too, i always think of how i could die, be killed or commit suicide... very often :) when i cross the road, when i'm coming back home, when i'm in the bathroom (you know, having a bath with a hair dryer for example! it's easy!), when i'm in my bed (i have a knife on my bedside)... there are easy ways to do it :) i even heard somewhere you'd die if you ate a complete nutmeg _ not sure whether it's true or not, or whether it is possible or not to eat it ;) ...is it a male thing? i don't know... in general, males tend to keep their sorrow/problems for themselves... i don't think i'm acting like that ^^ maybe it's an adolescent thing too, all these adolescents thinking of suicide... |
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it would be easy to kill someone, and myself. i have drreams sometimes that i am hanging myself frrom my cupboarrd but change my mind half way thrrough and can't stop it. i could neverr kill someone though because its not just a body, its a mind, its a past and a futurre that you arre killing. |
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and that btw is why i and otherrs arre not dead now as a rresult of me. |
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It's said that one can not die in his dreams. I think it's true because I sometimes dream that I falling from a great hight and just when I should hit the ground I wake up wery suddenly (and usually bump my head in the window ledge). |
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i've already dreamed of my own corpse being eaten by rats, in a cell, but i was watching myself from outside my body so maybe it wasn't really death. of course if you're dead, really dead, without any "afterlife" or whatever, you cannot know it _ so you would just stop dreaming. |
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i drreamed i trried to shoot myself in the head, which would have killed me, but as i pulled the trriggerr i pointed down and shot my jaw off. so maybe it's trrue, you can't die in yourr own drreams. |
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It's also been proofed that you can not dream in colors... I don't think that's true because I see colors in my dreams that I can not see in real life (I'm colorblind). |
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I drream in colourr. and how the hell can they prove that? (that angerr was to them not you Alliat) |
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i dream in colors too. |
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Actually it's above my understanding how we can dream in colors because of how our color vision is constructed... Inside your eyes are tiny little cones that detect what color the reflection of light that reaches your eye is, some detect blue, others read etc (There are a few missing in my eyes wich result in my colorblindness... They need light to detect those colors but of course most people sleap with their eyes shut so no light can penitrate. So it should not be posible to dream in colors... But somehow it is. Phew, what a lecture! :) |
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I've been shot to death in my dream once. I immediatly felt paralyzed and couldn't breathe. It felt horrible, but I wouldn't call it a nightmare. I felt actually quite peaceful afterwards. |
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That might have been a real near-death experience... "You should reconsidder your values in life and seec peace in nature!" :) |
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Yeah, I bet that it was only my brother trying to choke me with my pillow :-) |
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Hehe! :) |
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this topic reminds me of that Discovery commercial.....whatever. |
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I once dreamt that I was shot with a powerfull gun right in the temple... And I survived. spent the rest of the dream trying to patch the hole. :) |
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I often dream to be killed...and as it happened to Alliat I wake up in that moment.... ummhhh....Actually once I was shot in the head, and I stayed there without breathing or moving untill I woke up and I realized what I was doing.... The fact of colors being in dreams is strange since I usually dream in black and white, but sometimes I remember some details like the color of the eyes of a person, or the color of the sky....mmmmhh |
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It's as i said... Not scientiffically possible, but some of us can... It's like some people use their brain to generate the colors when their eyes are shut instead of using those color-cones i talked about earlyer. B&W vision is not all that bad... you can see in the dark f.x. |
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"They need light to detect those colors but of course most people sleap with their eyes shut so no light can penitrate" but light is needed to see white. white is a rreflection of all colourrs. so therrforre how can we see anything it all. the rreason is, we arre not seeing, we arre drreaming... its imagination. |
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i mean if u drream you arre in a carr orr looking at a carr, its not like you arre in orr looking at it arre you. yourr eyes arrent in use. |
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So alliat you don`t see any colors in real life? |
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I can say ive never killed anyone in my dreams but loads of people have tried to kill me . Have you ever had that dream when you think you are falling and it wakes you up ? normaly happens when you just start to drift off. |
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Theese are the arguments i've heard but from what i have experienced myself, dreaming is 50/50 split of mental and phisical states... And yes, your eyes are in use while dreaming... It's called REM (Rapid Eye Movement) sleap, then your eyes are moving arround under your eyelids as if you're looking at someting... They even focus on close and distant imaginary objects. |
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Yes, but not half as many as most people do... I see bright colors correctly but i see darker colors like violet as black, they all look the same to me. Because of this i may not be a pilot, captain on a ship or a train err... controller. |
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"Not scientiffically possible, but some of us can" > ...this kind of things makes me happy. knowing that what we think is true because it's been "scientifically proved" may be totally wrong. who knows, maybe things like magic could really exist... :) |
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I saw a program on tv a while ago where they were testing on people when thy were asleep. This one guy had a fine mist of water sprayed on his face and when he woke he said he was dreaming about being on a boat in a storm and getting wet from the sea spray... cool! |
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