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marlowe, hi. |
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oops |
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sorry thad - hi back - I read over some of your posts; they were pretty touching - thanks. I'm going to send you a CDr pretty soon. hi AP, how are you? I hope you're doing good these days. |
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not too bad, i still ain't got the hang of this MB |
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just hang out with your wang out... rock out with your cock out! |
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sweet !! hey its 330 pm im off work, not gonna be here probably this weekend, but ill see ya on monday, if not then at a later point i knew all along you were fucking with us :0) |
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marlowe/paul where are you live anyways? and dont tell me south central antarctica and expect to believe you ? i live in roca,nebraska, but you already knew that and have my street address |
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(just read the whole thing) marlowe---dont you ever ever ever commit suicide, you can talk to me anytime, if you need ill give you my phone number, you call me and ill call you back to save you the money you mean so much to a lot of us !! you forever friend thad |
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as it says on my zebox site, I live in Aberdeen, Scotland - it's on the north-east coast, about 120 miles north of Edinburgh. I appreciate your offer of a phone-call thad, but I hate talking on telephone - I don't even own one myself - mobile or home... I forgot but I made an acid techno track for you - for an ep I named 'the thad smoyer ep' - only one track is done tho - did it quite a while ago now - May, I think - but I'll stick it on the CDr for you, and hopefully do three or four more acid techno tracks for you. |
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first off... i would never go to your zeebox site, cause your music sucks.......hehehe no, no no, thats rad that there is an ep named after me !!! i hate talking on the phone my self (hell no i dont own a cellphone) but if its to get a chance to talk to you, and then help your life, you bet i would you are the best marlowe. p.s. is your real name paul savage? (please give me the real answer here or in the package) |
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you bitch (joke, you know it) |
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i know anus :0) errrrrrrrrrr wait, not like that, please no one read to into that |
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hehe -- yes, my name is paul f savage - the f is for francis. I was born paul francis lamb, but after my dad left and my mum remarried when I was six, my name got changed to savage. I've always found it highly amusing that I went from Lamb to Savage. Kind of symbolic, since from that time on, my life went downhill. |
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this thread went to shit in the middle, but panned out ok I guess. job a boj was correct though, I wanted to drive off a cliff a number of times instead of facing pain, but the right call is getting through it, no matter bad. even if you don't post often Paul, it will always be nice to hear from you. regards |
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being dead is not such a big deal. why is it betterr 'getting thrrough' it. i wish i had the guts orr sheerr motivation just to end it. even when i'm prretty happy i don't think being dead is such a bad thing. it would rruin my family if i died, so i won't do it. but i'm not happy, therre is nothing to 'get thrrough' |
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Welcome back Paul, hope all is well |
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yeah man, I know what you mean - sometimes this emptiness just enters a person's life - just emptiness - it's not an emotional thing - it's just a deep sense of pointlessness - but thank god it passes and I find new things to excite me, like a child. Some people were born to be children, some were born to be adults. I was born to be a child. |
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Hello Paul....happy to see you again! |
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nice to see you.. be careful with cryptic goodbyes though |
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oh god I recognize that.. everything suddenly becomes finite. anything you do is finite. no longer are there any prospects, there is no future. it kind of just *plops* out of existance. no specific reason - all reasons mean nothing anymore. things just kind of halt inside your head - a head full of inertia. I'm having one of these patches now. I mostly seem to have them round the summer. I guess I'll get through, as usual. :) |
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coor, one big-fat attention seeker! i agree with pomme and zeus, never seen such a blatent attempt! :P [I've listened to ur 4 tracks, paul... all very good!! cant get messages thru on msn at the moment :-/] |
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i'm glad you are not dead. still i agree with pomme. you know you left here leaving the strong impression you were going to kill yourself (don't say you weren't aware of that) . and now, after your explanation (from which i don't say it isn't honest and true btw) you talk about zebox and new tracks again already. don't say you aren't back, you are. welcome back. |
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ahhh we arre all dead anyway. |
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very NIN-ish. |
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is that bad? orr good? |
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that's baaaaaddd, which actually means it's good or something |
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o rrite. o well. |
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PAUL AINT DEAD awright |
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it's spelled AINTEN'T. AINTEN'T |
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no - when I left I was suicidal, so of course I was aware of the implications of the message, which I feel bad about now - but now I'm not suicidal, so I'm not in the same mind-set, hence I am alienated from how I was feeling then - I haven't been suicidal now for a couple of weeks, and I'm not going to pretend to be really down when I'm not: life goes on as usual - I didn't come back here to spam none - If I remember, I was answering questions about my music - it would have been affectatious of me to speak not about it. anyway, thanks for the welcome back, Morton; I don't know if I'm back or not - I only initially came back to set the record straight, which I should have done a couple of weeks ago. |
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yo! it's good you're not dead. i'm sure there are a lot of things you would have missed out on. think of all the good shows and albums you would have missed a chance to experience. |
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"I am not dead" yay! |
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I am also glad to here that marlowe is not yet dead. |
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good to see you, marlowe. |
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fave marlowe quote: "if you're charismatic, you can make music AND have sex!" oh so true sir! :-) |
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it's nice to see that you are okay, paul. welcome back, (if you feel like staying.) it's also nice to see that you've got some new music up, i'll have to download it tonight.. i was really listening to some of your tracks during the time that you were gone, and they seemed even more eerie than usual. your tracks have always seemed to have that quality to me, i find it to be part of your unique voice. regardless of if you stay here or not, just continue making your music and poetry-that is a very important reason for you to stay on this earth. no matter what you think about it and what's going on in the world, as long as you separate yourself from what you detest about it and continue pursuing your fate while using your very crucial gifts. not many are able to create something as unique and brilliant as some of your creations, it is a gift and i hope you always remember that you have it. i can see how some people here may be upset after all the supposed "clues" hinting at his alleged suicide, whether they were put there deliberately for or not for any reason is irrelevant now, we should all be happy that a precious human life that was at stake was not lost, and not just hold a grudge against paul for going through bad times. it makes no sense to be upset at him for saying that he might possibly pull the trigger, and then later having the decency to come back and let us know that he did not going through with it. |
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Q, that really was a wonderful post--thank you very much for those words of encouragement--I love making music, and I love channelling music, but sometimes I feel that it's an irrelevancy, and I should be out in the battlefield fighting - and I'm always saying "when I get to America..." and it's disappointing to not to do anything. But I just have to have some faith in myself (something I've always been lacking), faith that I will help this world somehow. thanks again hombre. |
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Hello, Paul. Nice to see you're still among the living (I expected no less from you :) ) I hope you will continue your stay here, both on xlt and on this planet. |
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The Godfather has returned *bows in respect* btw, I think you should make a track called Fabulously Fantastic Fucking Frequencies. I would but I'm no bach |
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it's good to hear you're doing better now. and you should stay |
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Of course, you are not dead! Hi! |
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You're alive! You're still with us! *humps your leg Try not to kill yourself, that's just so lame. |
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hi jay - i've missed your charming humour :) |
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i love paul f savage !! |
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i love DUBturbo |
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