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In what mental "phase" are you right now? |
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going to work..so guess |
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almost awake. |
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sex |
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Puberty? |
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Some days it's just hard to tell how I am. Lack of expression, words, and general social standards really sets me far off somewhere else in real life situations, in the nervous spotlight. Communication has never been a stronghold of mine (although with a select few I can be quite fluid in the arts of communicable dynamism). What words can I conjure up which do not hold life's phases and issues to describe the awkward non-actions of myself in a public or social gathering/setting? It could very well be a lack of autonomy on my tacit behalf, after all I am a solipsistic individual leaning towards an infirmity of outre emotions and percetions. If something is expected of me, a standard, pre-condition, or social formality, I just cannot do it. It makes me feel like a puppet or pawn (not real). How can it be so easy for all of you! Ignorance is bliss, but if thats not the case, maybe its just easier to have never gone through such potentialities as some have, including me. |
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Make no mistake, I am not depressed, in fact I'm quite a blithe hermit with a creative force for the arts of self expression. It just gets a little dull holding up this transrational ontological intellectualistic theology upon which no one understands. Whats the point of my perpetuate polarity when it is only self-affirmed, am I suppose to feel enlightened? Far from it. Too much time to think alone can drive a person crazy (in terms of introverted deep thought dendrite formations and even those primal urges). What is it with that urge to find someone special, why now at this age of my life (which has not changed a step in terms of finding love and will) do I seek out that ambivalent daimonic eros and coitus ostensible symbiosis. Well the answer is quite simple, I'm 19 lol! Although I never really grew up, so all of this expected 'developed manhood' and 'sexuality' has only been supressed in the most formidable anxiety. If I ever find appurtenanced dichotomy I might just miss out on it due to my damn proclivity's sense of interaction = anxious fear based decision making. My experiential justifications and epiphanies regarding endless subjects (and ones such as these) still provide no closure. |
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Even my paranoid complex won't allow me to reach out in this form, in this sensitive nature, traversing through my egoist excision of inner character and cogency. Having said that, society doesn't even recognize the ramifications of it when its analyzed to this point, and see's this inner dilemma as self centered, overly pretentious angst babble. Such a disgusting hierarchy we live in. Narcissism and hubris are both looked down upon! Is this right? You do the math. |
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if everyone engaged in such self-observation then maybe people would understand each other better. |
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btw my mental phase is also very happy right now. As I've had my album produced by a friend. Not many copies made yet, but they sure do make nice looking demos to send :D |
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can i have one :O |
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yeah, too bad society and media doesn't want to take a turn in that direction. I would feel allot more comfortable socializing with middle-aged psychoanalysts than people my age. |
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when the time comes, I will provide a link upon which you can order a copy ;) It's insane how much money I've spent on the bloody ink and glossy hard paper covers :( |
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I imagine psychoanalysts don't analyse themselves when socializing. It doesn't make for very good conversation y'know. |
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I want to punch you in the balls |
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As my reply/essay to your thread clearly states, I have no balls. |
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i'm sure there are many people who'd wish to do the same to you. |
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i dont know, what mental phases are there? |
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The Seven Ages of Man All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players; They have their exits and their entrances; And one man in his time plays many parts, His acts being seven ages. At first the infant, Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms; Then the whining school-boy, with his satchel And shining morning face, creeping like snail Unwillingly to school. And then the lover, Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier, Full of strange oaths, and bearded like the pard, Jealous in honour, sudden and quick in quarrel, Seeking the bubble reputation Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice, In fair round belly with good capon lin'd, With eyes severe and beard of formal cut, Full of wise saws and modern instances; And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon, With spectacles on nose and pouch on side; His youthful hose, well sav'd, a world too wide For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice, Turning again toward childish treble, pipes And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all, That ends this strange eventful history, Is second childishness and mere oblivion; Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything. |
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gwely, you are cool. |
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frustrated |
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phase 3 with less pathos |
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Can i get one of those off of you??? |
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what a great bump... NOT!!! |
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bumps are funee!!LOL |
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Hahaha! Prick! |
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