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...I start to nervously rub my big toe against my second biggest toe, repititiously starting the big toe exactly on the top of the 2nd biggest and then rubbing across its circumference exactly to the side in its normal position. I probably do it subconsciously at first, similar to how one nervously "jingles" their leg while sitting in a chair. Eventually I become aware of the motions though and they overtake my mind... each repetition covers exactly one quarter of the circumference of the second toe, so far at least... I think.. from top to side. The system is so simple and perfect; so beautiful. But... oh no... The last motion felt like it was slightly less than 25 percent... it was an accident... I didn't start directly on top, but rather (I think) missed the first 1 or 2 percent. Ok, calm down. I hope I can fix it (I always hope I can fix it)... This time I start my big to directly on the top and try to move it ONLY the very tiny ammount I missed last time, maybe 1 or 2 percent and no more to make up for the part I missed last time. I continue the neurotic toe motions, clenching my teeth, that last flaw in the symmetry felt like it created some sort of black light in my head that can't escape. Many more repetitions pass, but I am not satisfied with their perfection in orderly symmetry. Some motions took longer than others! My inability to fix it just makes my want to masochistically injure my nuts. Now I have to worry about perfect repetitious symmetry in speed AND circumference. The toes on the other foot start the motions too so now I have to worry about THEM! I'm trying so hard... but there are eventually so many assymetric flaws in so many characteristics that I'm overwhelmed in my ability to keep track of or fix them by creating an equal but opposite assymetric flaw. If one motion is too fast for example, I then have to make the next one equally too slow... but... then I'm stuck with have a slow and THEN fast sequence in the otherwise perfect re |
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petitions... now I have to add a fast and THEN SLOW! The frustration makes me writhe and clench my teeth. I feel miserably hot and I have difficulty breathing.. I clench my fingers... I want to kill... I want to kill qrter... I squint my eyes and clench my head with my hand.. Argh! All my muscles want to explode. |
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I feel miserably hot and I have difficulty breathing.. - drukqs ? or druqks ? |
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I rub those 2 toes together too! And I always play with my feet =o) |
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haha i was rubbing my toes together when i clicked on this thread, and stopped when i realised you were talking about it. creepy! |
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ok ive started doing it again |
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FUCKING DIE! |
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i just cannot read this much right now. |
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I want to kill... I want to kill qrter THAT'S creepy ! |
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then you better read this : Sometimes Only sometimes A question everything And I'm the first to admit If you catch me in a mood like this I can be tiring Even embarassing But you must Feel the same When you look around You can't tell me honestly You're happy with what you see Oh sometimes You must be... You must be... As embarassing as me Sometimes |
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thanks, that was much easier to read through. |
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and those are lyrics from the song..............by...............................- ? |
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im still waiting to find out who that girl was in your avatar, three avatars ago :( |
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Sometimes, Depeche Mode |
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