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..pretty much all the time. just sitting, staring, thinking, for hours, until you fall asleep, and you're aware of the fact that you're not getting anywhere, yet you remain still and think it all over again. why am i doing this, and what do i have to do to make it stop? and yeah maybe i need professional help, but you guys usually give rock solid advice to everyone about so many things. i wont bother you all with a list of things that make me feel like this, because i wouldnt know where to begin. i wouldnt usually complain like this, but i think my hangover got me in this mood. sorry. |
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yes... when i think about how i was when i was younger, and that the memories are still here in my head and in other people's heads too, not to mention the fact that i haven't changed that much probably, i want to slap and punch myself in the face. but most of the time fortunately i imagine other fancied lives for me in another reality with me in another body and personality in another world etc... where it's all much better, with peace, love, beauty, no problems and all. i'm daydreaming all the time. and i like it. fuck reality. hey, now i really feel like banging my head against a door or a wall, but not because i'm thinking of my past - just because i feel a bit weird and... haha i'm starting to laugh for no reason now |
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try this www.deathclock.com |
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bah =) deathclock doesn't make me feel anything at all. it isn't sad, it isn't funny, it is nothing... just a bare estimation, you can get one by yourself, and it is just an estimation you could die much younger (or older)... |
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what would be maybe more disturbing is something like..... you'd send pictures of yourself... and then they'd make a photo of yourself dead, in a scene like you'd been shot or something, a reconstitution of your own death! that'd be weird! =) seeing a photo of a dead person who'd look exactly as you. |
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i've been to that site before, but like uzim said, it doesnt really do anything to me. i dont really care about death. it has nothing to do with how my life is now. and fuck. this whole thread seems pointless to me already. today feels like a sunday. |
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without the lows, how are we expected to appreciate the highs? |
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good point. but the highs seem out of reach if you know what i mean. last night i went to a fucking excellent jungle party and i danced my ass off because i love the music and the venue, and the beer. but thats only a moment of happiness. its 4:30 pm now and i already feel like drinkin a beer again. *sob* |
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and no i'm not an alcoholic. and jezus i'm starting to sound really pathetic. blergh. close topic please before i feel like talking some more |
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take up smoking |
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...cigarettes.... weed is a temporary solution but will just make you more depressed in the end it's good to talk some more, get it off your chest, please spill your guts |
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"without the lows, how are we expected to appreciate the highs?" > not being able to appreciate the highs if you don't get lows is a low too... as long as we're in a total hypothetic mode without caring about reality, we could have highs and appreciate them without any lows. |
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i think what you're doing now is good... just drink away your problems... i don't have all that many... ok i have tons, and i drink them away... and when i'm not drunk, i'm asleep, or doing something i love. what are your problems, if you don't mind me asking, and thy're not too personal... maybe if people knew your problems they could give you advice... but i'm sure mine would be drinking to whatever it is... |
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ok, if you insist.. here goes.. -i'm seriously fucking up school (academy for visual arts) because i cant get myself to do something and i dont know why because i really want to. this will be the 3rd time i mess something up as i've tried 2 different studies before. i'm 23 now and i reckon its about time i start something and finish it, if not for myself, then for my dad who pays for nearly everything. - i feel alone. i want to be alone, and i dont. i love being alone. but i need a girl. and that girl is on the other side of the planet in canada and it could be years before i see her. those are the 2 main things i guess. i would do something i love (other than drinking or going to jungle parties), if i could find the energy for it. i'm always tired, i cant make decisions, i feel guilty etc.. its all pretty typical i suppose. i suppose all this is a form of depression. tho i wouldnt say that i'm unhappy in general. yeah i think i'll go get a beer. music is my friend at the moment. cheers |
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its not accurate...it gave me the exact same date for smoker and non-smoker |
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no no.. its ok to moan at times if you just discuss your problems w/ some people and find a way to change your life in the direction you want. start with small things. if yer really depressed just goin out and buying a record could help ya.. it wont go away in a week, but the only one that can help you is you i think oh and drinking does NOT solve your problems __ grandpa jaroens 2 cents |
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"oh and drinking does NOT solve your problems" That's the TRUTH. All I can say is don't let drugs and alcohol take over your life. It's not solving anything. |
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heh. thanks kid ;) yeah buying a cd helps somewhat (last week found rollercoaster part 3 for 5 euros (drum&bass mix cd mixed by drum origins) between the usual shit that they have at the dance section, yay). and yea alcohol doesnt help, but this beer just tastes good p.s: omfg k_maty is in this thread. wtf |
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I always feel like that and contemplate life at work, where boredom dominates. At home with my music, I'm A-OK. ALKEEHAWL IS BAD 2 |
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you need Sex n Drugs n Rock n Roll in that order, then see how you feel |
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i stole this from someone If we could shrink the earth's population to a village of precisely 100 people, with all the existing human ratios remaining the same, it would look something like the following: There would be: 57 Asians 21 Europeans 14 from the Western Hemisphere, both north and south 8 Africans 52 would be female 48 would be male 70 would be non-white 30 would be white 70 would be non-Christian 30 would be Christian 89 would be heterosexual 11 would be homosexual 6 people would possess 59% of the ntire world's wealth and all 6 would be from the United States. 80 would live in substandard housing 70 would be unable to read 50 would suffer from malnutrition 1 would be near death; 1 would be near birth 1 (yes, only 1) would have a college education 1 would own a computer When one considers our world from such a compressed perspective, the need for acceptance, understanding and education becomes glaringly apparent. If you woke up this morning with more health than illness...you are more blessed than the million who will not survive this week. If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation...you are ahead of 500 million people in the world. If you can attend a church meeting without fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or death...you are more blessed than three billion people in the world. If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep...you are richer than 75% of this world. If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace ... you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy. If your parents are still alive and still married... you are very rare, even in the United States and Canada. If you can read this message, you just received a double blessing in that someone was thinking of you, and furthermore, you are more blessed than over two billion people in the worl |
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d that cannot read at all. |
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thats shocking. talk about a westernised perspective? what a load of bullshit. |
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bullshit? how come? j198, what helps for me is focussing on the good parts by writing a diary or livejournal. it puts your lif in another perspective and allows you to cope with all the bad stuff. i bet that writing in this thread made you feel better already |
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yeah seriously -- "christian" and "non-christian", hah! |
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our planet is populated by ghosts of apes scuttling through empty early-morn streets with inexpressible longings & desires. there is no well-being, no education to take seriously, just contingency & irony |
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so what it was made by christians and isnt completely accurate. at least you arent a starving african child. prick |
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would i be "white" or "non-white"? |
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unsurprisingly as a god fearing arsebeak with blinkers on you completely missed the point. do you know me? i don't think you do. feel better now you've made a judgement? feel safe in your own little world? |
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whoa dude you just totally whooped my ass |
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move on from the girl who is in canada (if you haven't). a long distance relationship is not a good idea for anyone. apart from that, sounds like you have depression. go get help, you can get free help most likely, even free medication if you're lucky. i'm getting free medication for depression. the clinic i go to gives free samples indefinatly, all that is required is checkups a couple times a year. you can't do art things? when i started taking meds for depression i made more art in the first few months than the past few years. |
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seriously, a good dose of Sex Drugs n RocknRoll never hurt anybody |
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..and keith richards is the exception that proves the rule. it was keith richards that finally persuaded me to believe in re-incarnation because he seems to have died and come back as himself |
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1. no girl, no sex 2. drugs, fun for the moment 3. rock n roll, well, no thanks.. oh and about that canadian girl: i cant let her go because i'm in love with her so yeah everything has to be difficult like that and i'm too stubborn to realize that its nearly impossible. |
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come to canada! trade citizenships with me |
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1. My point exactly rock n roll is an emotion, not a genre |
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we all do it. death is all that waits forr us i think that's why. |
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listen to bjork- all is full of love, and drink some bud light, aqnd ignore everyonbe around you... oh thats what i'm doing. |
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what good is being in love with someone hundreds of miles away? you could probably wait for her, but would she wait for you? she's in ANOTHER COUNTRY. if she was truly in love with you she would still be with you. it's time to move on. |
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