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Take him to "cottage country" with middle aged dull normals. I cannot tolerate low information density environments. Let me go kayaking and it's not so bad. But put me in an air-conditioned luxury Jeep for three hours, driving around looking at cows and making small talk, and the urge to kill rises. Also play music in the air conditioned luxury Jeep if you want to make fleetmouse kill. Make the music be Chris Rea, which is like the worst aspects of Robert Cray, Leonard Cohen and an over-rehearsed blues rock bar band. Snap your fingers along to Chris Rea if you really, really want to make fleetmouse kill. I'll never be a proper grown-up. I can't make small talk about where you buy blueberries and how much they cost and how much the blueberries cost last year. It makes fleetmouse kill. I have never needed to listen to Autechre so badly in my life. I could write more about it but my eyelid is twitching because I must kill. |
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i hear about blueberries all the time in northern ontario. |
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Haven't you lived long enough to never ever let yourself in such situations? I guess sometimes you have to do it.. sometimes I delusion myself that I need it like some sort of medicine, that it is good and I don't understand, then after I don't take it I shun it blissfully for years again.. I almost always have pen and paper with me. In certain moods in helps, but unfortunately there is no panacea |
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I guess sometimes you have to do it.. sometimes I delusion myself that I need it like some sort of medicine, that it is good and I don't understand, then after I don't take it I shun it blissfully for years again.. Yes yes! It's like I think something is wrong with me that I can't enjoy it and I need to condition myself to have those interests. And I always learn the same lesson: they are wrong and must die. |
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I constantly feel like I've lost something. For instance: going to parties and watching movies in the theater; these two social acts make no sense to me. Why would I want to be around all those people? Why do I want to hear you talk about that? What does person A think they get from person B? It's perplexing when I'm totally I make no sense as the activities of normal people strike me as utterly inexplicable. I don't think of myself at a utilitarian, but I don't like doing things for which the fundamental inquiry 'why' has no answer. Oh yeah I made a bad typo: I meant to say "then after I take it I shun it blissfully for years again'; I actually feel a clock.. it's been so and so many months since I've gone to a party, and I have so and so many months remaining. |
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Smalltalk for intervals longer than about 30 minutes really gets to me.. because by that time, the person you're talking to has already heard your inventory of fillers like 'oh man!' or 'that's riduculous!' or 'that's fantastic!' and it becomes very obviously shallow and grating. |
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30 minutes? I almost panic hearing that. I confusedly salute your immense patience. I think being impatient is good, actually. Our time is limited! |
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you'd fucking love in in england. |
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I think being impatient is good, actually. Our time is limited! Yes. My three hours in that jeep, it's like they were drinking my blood. I would have preferred to do that actually. "Here's three pints of blood. I'm going to sit under that tree and read a technical manual on my palm pilot. Pick me up on the way back". |
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Why? Do you all hate and avoid each other? Or are you being sarcastic and is it like living in an episode of Coronation Street with everyone hobnobbing down at Rovers? Blah blah blah, let's eat Deirdre's intestines, blah blah blah |
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Hah, well thanks.. but I think you're right, it's partially a sign of weakness that I can't either A) be honest and tear myself away or B) change the conversation to something that matters, regardless of etiquette. It really can get old, and I always feel rotten afterwards because I am such a faker sometimes.. and put up such a facade to some people. It's damn near an identity crisis. But anyway. Let's all move to England. |
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But after being tortured socially, don't you appreciate Lentic Catachresis in whole new ways and more than you ever imagined possible? I sure do. |
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Speaking of drinking blood, here's a weird phenomenon: people who call and have nothing to say. The last time this happened to me I got the distinct feeling that the person's life was so miserable that they called me for no reason other than to generate some perception of meaning. They just sat there waiting for me to say things. Mind you I'm not saying I'm worthwhile to talk to on the phone--precisely the opposite. Sucking my fucking blood. |
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Isn't lentic catachresis the most satisfying track name in the history of the universe? Fuck alien music. I know what you mean. I feel awful being rude to people, and do it all the time, and keep feeling awful... checklist: [x] have to put up with them [x] derive guilt from being rude [x] feeling weird not enjoying it |
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You're so nasty and antisocial! :: hugs sneakattack, then jumps back and glares suspiciously :: I like communicating on messageboards because it's so direct, like Kang and Kodos exchanging long protein strings. If voice and video chat becomes more common, it will devolve into retards making fart noises. Sort of like one big cheap flash animation. |
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But after being tortured socially, don't you appreciate Lentic Catachresis in whole new ways and more than you ever imagined possible? I sure do. Haha, wow. I can relate to this feeling, I know it exactly. This example is a little bit different, but the idea is the same. I started working at this local AM radio station, and have to play this crappy country music in between news and talk shows.. After ther first day I came back home, layed down on my bed, and put on some Underworld. It was like candy. The same goes for Autechre and other stressful social situations. |
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I think communication methods which are less time-sensitive (message boards, news groups, email) are infinitely more polite than telephones, physical visits, chat, etc., because you are never demanding the person make your response their present concern and respond. Phone calls are usually made when the caller can do it, regardless of the receiver's whim. fuckers. |
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Words / feelings that apply to xltronic user JAroen: dull normals. low information density environments [...] and making small talk Also play music ... Snap your fingers along I'll never [grow up properly]. I can't make small talk about ... I have never needed to listen to Autechre so badly in my life. this is a good thread |
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indeed, i can relate on many levels to this thread. |
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Hm maybe you should daydream or something... I have automated responses that I give to people, then when they are satisfied and go away, I immediately go back into an alternate world in my head. I've been doing that forever. Occasionally I wake up to listen to a conversation and they always seem to be identical, so I just go back into my other places. I'm never rude though, and I enjoy being nice to people, being polite, and saying hi, it feels good, but about 70 percent of my day is spent daydreaming. |
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