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I can go on and on about drugs. Why? because I think I'm addicted in the most annoying way. It's just this urge that hangs over me sometimes. And normally I would smoke weed, but that makes me depressed. I could also take DXM, but that you get your hands on up here (in northern Sweden). And i'm against any form of designer-drugs, so that's out out the question. So since two of my friends was in some jackass-style accidents a couple of weeks ago, they have some massive painkillers that they, of course, gladly will sell me some of. So this Wednesday I took the day off at 12, and my friend and I ate 3 of those pills. 1½ hour went by without the strong effect, so we ate one more. The next 1½ hour was somewhat trippy, and of course I added some aphex on a vizualitation to spice things up a bit, but It just didn't have the effect that I wanted. We went home to my friend, and there I decided to eat one more while we where drinking some beers and red bull-like energy-drinks. My friend started tripping massively on the 4 he had consumed, but I still didn't get the effect that I wanted. So that was basically that night. Now on the other hand I have eaten 4, and I'm all alone. I haven't tripped alone before. I have tripped where i was the only one tripping, but never all alone. Why am I still taking drugs? It seems to be this never ending urge/search for that trip. That trip where I'm forgetting everything around me and floating with clouds. But it just doesn't return. |
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The question you need to ask yourself is: Has anything you've done, made your life better? |
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yeah...music |
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I was referring to the Why-am-I-still-taking-drugs? part of your post. |
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drugs got me in to friends, sadly enough. A lot of my friends I have met on the behalf of weed. |
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it's a stage in life, soon (hopefully) you will grow out of it. you will take the knowledge you have acquired about yourself and others, and use it to better your understanding of the world. |
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honesty is a keyword honest to yourself that is :) essential |
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well...I have been in this cycle for 6 years. This is the first time I have a job on the other hand, and it has been three months since I last smoked weed, so it's probably going in the right direction. But maybe i'm asking on behalf on ALL addicted people. Why are we using? |
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I chatted with a 16 year old girl yesterday, that keeps claiming that she loves weed/hash. My interpretition of that is that she is hiding away the fact that she got raped two rimes last year. But there's no way she will admit that to herself. |
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that's obviously a factor - but I won't say that the rape alone is the reason. It could be, but not neccessarily |
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exactly, so the other reason could be something that we all have in common? boredom? low selfopinion? (that's probably me talking) |
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i cant ever take drugs, i'm so brainwashed. |
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could be - the need for external stimulation is just as old as humanity itself, so this may be a sort of primal urge which manifests itself stronger within some individuals. But basically, it pretty much sums up in one word: escape but what the hell do I know anyway, hehe :) that's just my opinion of it.. |
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I mean, even tigers get high from eating a certain weed that helps them cough up the furballs - much like how cats eat grass to do the same, except, the weed that tigers eat, is a highly potent euphoric and hallucinogenic drug. Saw that on TV - they become harmless kitties after a mouthfull of that stuff.. |
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i don't know what to say...i guess just do what ever makes you happy. if that's through drugs than so be it. i've never done a drug nor been drunk in my life, but i'm fucking miserable all the time. sometimes i figure that if i would go out and get drunk everynight i might make some friends and actually have a good time, but is it really worth it? fuck if i know. |
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You wanna switch places? I've done drugs since I was 13 until I was 23 - Still, I'm miserable all the time, eventhough I'm not doing any drugs (nor will I EVER again).. |
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you're looking for freedom from the prison you've created for yourself. until you realize that you are the prisoner and the jailer you will remain in this prison. don't give up your search and realize that there is indeed help all around you, frequently in a form that you cannot recognize. people take drugs for many different reasons, but you've got to look within yourself to find *your* answers. realize that *your power is in the present*, here and now, to choose. the past is gone and the future is not yet written. there is nothing but this expanding moment, now. use this moment to affirm your resolve to find within yourself the emptiness you now try to fill with "the trip": self-obliteration and self-stimulation. you will find that this emptiness does not really exist... do not take a moment for granted any longer. realize that you are already on the path. |
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ok speechmaster |
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the drugs made you chemically unhappy? |
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i don't like drrugs. i don't. |
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i'm using what you wrote in a track if it's ok with you? |
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that does not compute. it made me unhappy, period. |
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i had magic mushrooms for the first time last night, oh my god, they made me think that i'd died and gone to another dimention in a kinda matrix style trip, it was fucked |
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lol but it's, it's so... gay |
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Almost everyone I know these days is through smoking weed - There's nothing else to do round these parts except make music... When I used to go out drinking lots I'd be really sociable, but would just talk about crap with people you wouldn't even want to know. You do have to know when to stop using drugs though, at least using them regularly - I see friends now who still spend all day stoned and takes pills every weekend, and they don't realise it but it just becomes sort of sad after a while, like they're just doing it cos they wouldn't know what else to do with themselves... Stops you progressing in life and that makes you want to get wasted more and more. As soon as I get myself together I'll prolly go back to smoking weed and taking annual acid/mushroom trips I hope. |
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It' hard to appreciate moderation when you're young and dropping out of society though! Getting out of the education system - Those years of conformity and supressing just about everything, it just explodes as soon as you discover drugs & alcohol! |
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i thought it made sense and was good advice,,, then again im insane and have just spent a good long time making up a web site about some gut ive nevr spoken real words to that im madly in lust with... ? so this sia crazy stalker saying that i agree with his speech... -A- |
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Your madly in love with his stomach...that is not enough, you have to love the whole person for what he is or it will never work. |
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i think you're cute :) yeah i think so.. |
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