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HOLY FUCK! MY LIFE IS SO SHIT! most important is that i'm moving to vegas on the 9th. i'm moving there with a friend because once again i have no place to live and he offered to help me out. that is very cool of him. the person i was living with for about 3 1/2 months was renting his house and the owners sold it so he had to move and was like you owe me $600. all i have is $400 i would like to compensate him somehow but i can't. he said if i didn't pay him he would hunt me down and kill me, seriously. the reason i can't afford to pay him is i just started a job only for a month now and because of him i can't work there anymore becuase i have no car or savings that i can stay in the area to work. that's why i move to vegas with my friend kirk who got me the job in the first place. i'm so behind because i was in a car accident after my dad kicked me out last year for taking a job with less pay just so i could keep my piercings. i had just gotten out of debt and didn't have any car insurance so i went to jail over the summer and i couldn't get a fucking job on my own becuase of my new criminal record. now i found out that i have to either pay $400 to the orange county sheriffs for a fix it ticket from two years ago that i thought had already fixed itself or go to jail again because i now have a warrant out for my arrest. besides that the other night i met two way fucking cool grrlz one of wich was in the porn industry we got drunk and high together and i still couldn't seal the deal. so i cried, alot. everything just kinda built up inside me and because of the alcohol and downers i couldn't hold it together any longer and just let it all pour out. mainly i was so sad because myself wanted to kill me and i didn't care anymore. |
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sorry to hear that man. I hope things get better for ya. |
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wow i'm sorry to hear of your troubles evol :( |
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i'm in the same fixes...over 2k inthe hole...and had the same shit happen to me...but once you hit bottom...there's no lower you can go...and it's all in the mind...serously...it's all in the mind... you might want to look into the military...if you can do jail...the military is cakewalk... |
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just let it all out man |
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thanks all. every time i hit bottom, the bottom drops out, again and again. it's all def a fucking mind trip. no one can tell any of this about me when they meet me i hold it in and push it back. i'm good at blocking bullshit out but it's not healthy. |
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get away and start over. things will calm down. |
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Oh man, hope you get it together. Hopefully things'll improve with time, it can't stay bad forever... |
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thanks again. it's almost as i foresaw all this coming, when i graduated i wanted to move to australia before any of this shit went down. that is still my ultimate goal. vegas should be chill to save up and take care of everything untill i can leave. i looked into the military but i can't get in because of probation for another 3 years. this too shall pass but then what is there to look forward to? i don't wanna live my life just going through the motions. if i look at my dads life it never ends but then those are all the choices we make in our own lives. he just told me that he found out he has cancer of the liver for a couple of months now. he's only 42. he didn't take care of his body and now this might kill him. hopefully they spotted it early and can beat it, but that wont be the end he'll get something else somewhere else and eventually he wont be able to keep beating it everytime. i realize that is life i just don't kow if i want to go throught all the shit and go out like that or just fuckin' see it through and be glad when i'm gone. |
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I'm sorry to hear this.... I hope things will be getting better.... |
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thank you kind sir! |
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