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offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-12 05:45 [#02633397]
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i'm trying to pin down exactly when i realized this was
actually "confusion" by new order.

one running theory about how memory works is that people
with exceptional memories actually spend a lot of time
reviewing and filing things, and this is partly why. a
famous one is a habit of, end of every day, sitting there
for five or ten minutes and itemizing everything that
happened that day. i keep meaning to try this, but i never
remember

when i ask my brain the question, what comes back is that
lovely iridescent cover to power, corruption, and lies --
or, no, it was a remix album, not that depressing hitler
flower pot painting

so i cave and google it. no, that's wrong. it's actually
"technique" and my brain is giving the answer as thus: we
first learned this wasn't aphex within a few minutes of
first seeing this album cover. and we're having trouble
determining if this was 2007 when we were on a brief
hardcore new order kick, or if it was 2008-10 during a
what.cd freeleech period

but i certainly thought it was aphex when i slipped it to
the DJ on a high school dance night as a troll and friend
and i having a right giggle the whole two or three minutes
until it dawns on the DJ that this shit will just keep going
forever and he cuts it

but it was definitely during the 2008-10 period i'm
listening to this on acid, and i had... what is real
synaesthesia? we'll spare that tangent

but it i saw it as concentric tree rings. in each of which
was glowing gold middle earth tolkien glyphs matching the
pattern of the sounds. that, for some reason, i perceived
the rings in my whole field of vision, but the glowing gold
readout was only in my bottom third field of view

2022 i was speaking about this song to someone, how this is
a meditative mantra in musical form, and... shit, why am i
getting this strong image of tree rings and... took until
later that day for me to realize it was synaesthesia from an
acid trip in 2009 or something


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-12 06:26 [#02633398]
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what is hppd? what is a flashback?

perhaps my second or third time on mushrooms, i had "black
milk" by massive attack on my playlist, and i'm seeing it as
the famous windows XP desktop background, the green field
and blue sky, with cows singing the lyrics. eat me, in
space

i'm pretty sure that was the same one where mushrooms taught
me how to draw, or draw their way, at least. which is to
focus on the image you're seeing [in the scribbles, in the
clouds (pareidolia)] and to allow the pen to simply move
like your hand is possessed. as you focus on this or that
detail of what you already have, then pen fills it in
further. it's actually reminiscent of loading an image on
dialup modem, where it's all pixelated blobs and gradually
comes into proper focus

a few years later, i'm merely stoned. but i have "black
milk" on and i'm drawing how mushrooms showed me. and for a
few minutes, i swear to god i felt like i was tripping. then
something snapped me out of it, and i realized what i'd
drawn: myself, in a room, with my gear, drawing. then my
boyfriend is through the door in the other room playing
video games. and holy shit this isn't even what i was seeing
when i drew this. and the detail is stunning. except it's
all stretched and warped around; it's not a fixed
perspective

i still have that drawing somewhere; i should find it. i
can't remember it at all, but i know i'll recognize it
IMMEDIATELY if i do find it.

i only lost track of it because i promptly realized: the
brain is a state playback machine of sorts. i've experienced
that state of mind before... and, so, with firm enough
guidance, i can get there again. without mushrooms. this
must be horribly confusing if you start doing it by accident
and don't understand what is happen


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-12 07:00 [#02633399]
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that i should wish to clarify "firm guidance." that
accidental one was soon after the initial event, during a
phase when i still actually did psychedelics

somewhere in some thred telling me to shut up is me
excitedly writing up how i got the crispest sense of time
dilation i've ever experienced since [well, it'd be within a
few weeks of kula shaker reforming in early 2006]

that i meditate daily, it's a srs discipline. and i'm
listening to the first track off [halo 16?] things falling
apart, "slipping away." and when the acid line hits i'm
exploding into white triangles and... how long is this song?
it feels like this song has to be at least fifteen minutes
long but i already know this is incorrect and...

well, i fucking worked for that moment. daily meditation, a
little weed, some mild stimulants. and one day i have that,
randomly. i can see how this would be more of a problem if
simply thinking of something like "how does a nickel smell"
could send you into it


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-12 07:30 [#02633400]
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also significant around that time was reading interviews
with chris clark. the bones are baked; the brittle
separated. it inspired me to embark on experiment that --
fuck, why have i never gotten back to this again -- i'm in
cubase recursively processing audio. pitch down, run through
fx, then take the result and do something else to it. after
twenty or thirty rounds singing voices literally began to
emerge, like, holy shit, this is wild. it's like i'm
amplifying something, with all these repeated recursive
processings. and i suppose that something would be myself


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-12 07:31 [#02633401]
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if you get into the analog of neurons, operational
amplifiers are important. as in, we're all just glorified op
amps


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-12 08:10 [#02633404]
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i first heard detrimentalist while buying an albatross of a
soundcraft mixer off of aeser from watmm. he played me a bit
in his bedroom. if he remembers that day, i would ask him to
imagine me next carrying that fucking mixer up to the second
floor ENTIRELY BY MYSELF and it's a miracle i didn't put
myself in the hospital doing that. or fucking drop the thing
and wreck it. selling it to two orbital... well, i think
they aspired to be orbital... brothers... that's how i got
my dx200 and the guy was all "you're going to love this" and
"you don't see these much 'cos people who have them tend to
hang on to them" and i believe they still had another and
the more boring non-dx7 equivalent too. i'll spare you the
story about how the soundcraft broke in between and the fix
literally came to me in a dream after studying the
schematics before i went to bed

...but, yes, halo 16, things falling apart, detrimentalist.
that was my point, i think.

someone in idm land was trashing that album, like, "if you
slow it way down you can hear how crap it is compared to
aphex" and really, i don't have an opinion there still

but the remix of "we're in this together" off things falling
apart is like what snares was doing with circle pit, but...
gosh, it's so much clearer

and we're on the "over 9000" tip too, circle pit is total
anime camera shots, i believe someone on watmm was also like
"fuck off with smoking crack to saturday morning cartoons"
and no, fuck you, this is clearly, like... vegeta battle


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-12 08:11 [#02633405]
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no, wait, not we're in this together. where. is. everybody

and the drum hits are hitting around you in circles like
bullets whapping into sand. you follow the trails up and the
structure becomes rather large

never mind. what's this thread about? i give up


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-12 08:34 [#02633406]
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and because i view this on the level of giving a woman VD
and then selling her as a perfectly good slave, don't ever
buy a dx200 online. you can yank the yamamahamaha dx7 board
out of it and install it in a couple different other
products from the company of the same name


 

offline Roger Wilco from Mo's Beans on 2024-03-12 11:07 [#02633408]
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I've got New Order's "Confusion" on 12", if you want to add
that to my records.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-12 12:23 [#02633409]
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i have no choice but to add it unless i throw out my
existing decision architecture.


 

offline Roger Wilco from Mo's Beans on 2024-03-12 12:27 [#02633410]
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There's an interesting colour "code" to reading the title
and the band's name on the sleeve, if I remember correctly.
Or it might be something on the back. I'm bot sure of
anything at this stage.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-12 12:30 [#02633411]
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i suppose this thread is the summary no one asked for.

i can't find the interview with serge pizzorno from kasabian
where he's saying, effectively, "ohh, i've overdone it with
the acid a bit, i have the most ridiculous associations i
cannot get rid of, like... stupid magic tricks, pulling a
rabbit out of a hat. that smells terrible to me. like raw
sewage. it's so bad that if i see it on tv or something i
have to leave the room"

since it's not on the web history in this computer it would
be in the web history in the backup of this computer's
previous incarnation, before i threw ubuntu into the sarlacc
pit -- i could find it; i could

but suffice to say the interview exists, and my summary is
effectively accurate, aside from probably bodging a few
details [was it sewage precisely?]

and i read this and thot: i always figured this was possible
but god damn i never expected anyone to casually open up and
freaking complain about it as if it's rhumetroid
arthritus


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-12 12:31 [#02633412]
Points: 24389 Status: Addict | Followup to Roger Wilco: #02633410



I'm bot sure of anything at this stage.

on the ChatGPT train are we


 

offline mermaidman on 2024-03-12 12:33 [#02633413]
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he derailed his own thread didn't he


 

offline Tony Danza from Sesame Street on 2024-03-13 02:12 [#02633436]
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there is no off position on the genius switch


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-13 02:23 [#02633440]
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i've been over this thread for hours now. i've moved on to
bea arthur deepfakes


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-14 15:59 [#02633496]
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serge and his weird associations. i want to clarify.

someone spilled some incense on some acid blotter i bought
and the smell sent me back there a bit for quite a few
years. same mechanism as the ramble about black milk above.
there's one theory that something something mammalian
imprinting usually a brief window during development that
then closes forever, and tripping you've thrown the window
open.

i don't think this is literally what's going on, but you are
certainly in a state where you can meddle with things so
fundamental that you'd normally not consider them mutable.
if Christianity really cared about saving the gays by making
them straight, they'd use a carefully designed brainwashing
program, and psychedelics

there's a chapter of an r. a. wilson book, "how to brainwash
friends and family" that'll walk you through it. capture
someone in a white van in the dead of night; lock them alone
in a room. solitary confinement occasionally interrupted by
telling them they're pond scum. eventually, they're hungry.
they don't have to do anything for food at first, but
they're yelled at and told they don't deserve the food
because [whatever you want them to do]

then we move on to "this is my rifle this is my gun." [basic
training in the military is also brainwashing] you immerse
them in a group of converts who are all using the same weird
group lingo. since they let you out of the cage when you
talk that way, you play ball. a few years later you're patty
hearst.

like any decent lad, i took a moment and toyed with the idea
of how i'd create a personal harem. then a few years back i
found out about NXIVM, and it was like... wait, someone's
actually done this?

have humans done it, eaten it, shoved it deep up their arse
and enjoyed it a lot, thank you very much? the answer is
always YES

and so it is with serge. he didn't do himself in a single
go, he worked on it carefully for years with dozens of
medium-high dose trips


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-14 15:59 [#02633497]
Points: 24389 Status: Addict | Followup to mermaidman: #02633413



he derailed his own thread didn't he

all my posts are one thread


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-14 16:42 [#02633498]
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not breathing dave told me why he's a vegan back in the
early 00's. he was clubbing on acid and he comes home and
his mom asks him if he wants a bacon grease sandwich¹. he
says "sure" and eats it. then he's putting his plate in the
sink, and, well, his acid is still going, and he sees the
bacon grease in the sink move. like some alien
creature. then he vomits up his bacon grease sandwich. then
he vomits more. he vomits more. he vomits some more. he
never eats meat again. i replied, "bacon sounds good now
actually" and he told me to fucking die in a fire. it was a
troll but it was also the truth. bacon.

...so he clearly formed a very strong association that
round, to the point of becoming a vegan. i'd never tripped
at that point, and i remember being very nervous to eat meat
on acid -- but it's more almost random, really. essentially,
something can bother you SO INCREDIBLY MUCH when you're
tripping and because tripping you can wind up stuck that
way. i have a few rough patches; there are a few things i
can no longer tolerate the idea of eating, but i'm certainly
not a vegan. it's just that one time when... i looked at
closer than i usually did, and that one glance will haunt me
forever

but i never did high dose trips, so it never got terribly
dramatic. that i was armed with dave's story, which gave me
the chance to be careful about it without fucking up.

in order for your hppd to be like "bad magic tricks smell so
awful i have to leave the room if it's even on TV, i cannot
stand to see it" you've jumped through quite a few hoops.
you need to have had past problems like "after that one
where i was smelling stuff on TV i always smell TV
programmes now" before you can have a different high-dose
trip ruin magic tricks specifically

¹ there was a whole tangent here because... bacon.. GREASE
sandwich? like, not actually bacon? and i guess this is a
thing! humans.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-14 16:44 [#02633499]
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for mermaidman:

much more fun than ruining foods because they looked like
eldritch horrors on acid is when you're telling lewis's mom
about the blade techno opener and then this visual of
concentric circles is popping into your head all day and you
finally remember this is blade techno opener acid
synaesthesia from 2009, and you were sitting in the comfy
brown chair when this happened.


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-14 19:02 [#02633505]
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if Christianity really cared about saving the gays by
making them straight, they'd use a carefully designed
brainwashing program, and psychedelics


this is a joke about graphs, and i need to explain.
christianity obviously has the brainwashing program going
[though it could be improved]. i could make my sexuality
whatever i wanted, actually. without psychedelics that would
be a very long slog, but with psychedelics you now have
tools like "ruin gay sex like that bacon grease sandwich
ruined dave's appreciation for meat" and from there you have
to build new associations, which is more complicated, but
similar -- that's a long slog without drugs

a corollary to this [ATTN: MERMAIDMAN] is that acid could
make you gay. the chances of this happening by accident are
astronomically low, but humanity is tenacious enough that
i'm beyond certain it's happened somewhere, to at least a
few people. maybe goa trance slightly increases the odds


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-15 03:27 [#02633516]
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A Clockwork Orange. right. the ludovico treatment. it's
passion for violence instead of passion for ass, but yes,
they pump him full of drugs and ruin his ability to run
violence with nausea. it works.

but then they don't put anything else in to replace it. they
dump him back in his old enviornment with nothing to support
his conditioning, and with nothing to replace it either,
he's jolted around until it wears off. then there are
similar arcs with his victims, the writer etc

and it's just a fine movie as it is, really, but i think
someone should make an alternate version of it where,
instead of being thrown to the wolves after the ludovico
treatment, they send him to an amish commune to make
furniture. that, during the treatment, he'd also been denied
food unless he found things to admire and appreciate about
carpentry and making furniture. he makes furniture and talks
about furniture all throughout dinner. the amish like making
furniture and talking about furniture. he meets a girl,
falls in love; has a family

this might make kubrick come back from the dead simply so he
could have a second heart attack


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-16 00:54 [#02633547]
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A Clockwork Elmer


 

offline big from lsg on 2024-03-17 08:55 [#02633572]
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TIL

i didn't know the original, though


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-19 19:36 [#02633674]
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i've experienced that state of mind before... and, so,
with firm enough
guidance, i can get there again. without mushrooms. this
must be horribly confusing if you start doing it by accident
and don't understand what is happen


or when you remember: oh, right, my brain is listening
closer than i'll ever know, and now that you can set it off,
you can also do so unintentionally... and that must be
horribly confusing


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-03-23 13:29 [#02633875]
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bloody hell


 

offline EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2024-04-06 12:07 [#02634628]
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Serge Pizzorno. that is some kind of name. like 70's
pornstar kinda name. did his parents have an absolutely
wicked sense of humor, or were they beyond clueless?

[professor weasel bursts through the drywall like kool aid
man]

the answer is YES!
both.

if you're going to have a name with this level of challenge
hung on you, well... it's quite good actually


 


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