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I’ve heard a voice recently , while I had a panic attack in my offi e , was on some cola and alchohol at the time . It sounded like someone laughing in a weird kind of creepy way . It’s the second time I’ve heard it . I wonder if it’s a person out in the street , but I can’t see anyone |
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I've had a voice in my head since 4 years ago. Pretty sure high up Jews can be psychic. I picked on a Jew for years, a high up in the conservative party and stopped his stupid plans to make a new liberal party, everything's gone really right wing because of me. I did it all through my laptop by logging onto conservativehome website every morning and posting comments under all the articles attacking a few Jews. I didn't really know what I was doing. But I had loads of MPs and journalists repeating my words in newspaper articles. And I think God is pretty angry at me for being a fucking arsehole to people in the past. My voice says I'm gonna be tortured and its full family torture according to Jewish law. I get weird shit happening like knives sticking in my body when I go to sleep. It doesn't hurt yet, but it feels like they're just getting started with me. If you look at the supreme court of israel there are hints in the architecture of what looks to be designed for human souls. It''s actually super rare for people to go to hell, most people will be revived in the afterlife, but my family will be denied entry to a peaceful afterlife. I see a psychiatrist and take medication and stuff. That might work for you. Tell your doctor. They won't lock you up, but you can quit your job and go on benefits and stuff. zilty members mohamed and belb suffer from voices too. |
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cocaine psychosis is real mate. you need to stop it with the sniff (easier said than done i know). if it carries on after a while when yr drug-free (if possible) go to a&e and lay it all out for them. a stay as an inpatient will do you good. hoping for the best for you, i know it's gonna be an uphill struggle but it'll be worth it. think of yr daughter |
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so is amphetamine psychosis. the solution was always to go get some sleep. years ago, i'd been up coding on adderall for three days, and i thot i heard a radio. hey, i think i know that song i start tracking down the source, and i get close to my computer, and, ~switch~ it's actually just my computer fan, i was hallucinating music inside of the white noise. i went to bed and all was fine worse was the time i was going mental in a parking lot, checking behind shipping crates because i thought someone was laughing at me. again, i was fine after sleeping so my first advice would be to get some proper sleep. it will probably subside. but be mindful that it was cola and lack of sleep that got you there, if you keep pushing to that level i wager it will start to set in a bit more permanently |
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i wonder about the correlation between idm, mb membership and psychosis sometimes. it's like zilty is the middle of an unhealthy venn diagram |
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given that i didn't "get" autechre until i tried acid, probably |
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I can’t stop the cola thing , it’s been about 4 years , it’s causing a big problem cus after cola I need to balance out of alcohol and then I feel ok and do more stuff ;() I can go for about 2 weeks sober then relapse , I’ve been reading Marc Lewis about addiction and how the brain becomes good at addiction , similar to learning a skill. So I’ve got good at keeping it a secret from my wife by lying etc and running my business and still supporting the habit like nothing is wrong . It’s a very strange reality I’ve found myself in , if the universe is a simulation it’s a nice curve ball it’s throwing at me , tough one |
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The laughing voice I heard was so fucking weird man , I swear it’s someone outside , but the laugh sort of starts off quite loud and then fades out |
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that's the sort of shit that happens when you've been on edge, awake, for too long and your neurons are fried. consciousness has, to borrow a metaphor from star trek, a sort of warp integrity field. once it gets down to 60 or 70%, you're hallucinating moving things in a pile of leaves, and it only gets more incoherent from there. when you're coming down from a bunch of stimulants, or have been on a bunch for more than you should have, and then mix in alcohol, yes, you might hear people laughing at you from behind shipping containers. you have the added variable of juggling your habit(s) vs. your family life and this adds a tightening guitar fret of additional paranoia that will immediately make all this worse best thing you could probably do is take a proper vacation, away from home, day-to-day family, whatever, with a stern but fair relative and withdraw from it all, get back, try to stick to the program |
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it's hard to tell how much is physical need (physical withdrawals without booze) and how much is want (psychological withdrawals from the coke), but if yr drinking to "balance out" yr powder high yr creating cocaethylene which is far worse for yr liver than either drug alone. cirrhosis etc will creep up on you. anyway if yr going two weeks without coke or booze, yr out of withdrawal for both, and just because you have strong mental cravings and want yr high back, presumably because yr pretty miserable, doesn't mean you have an excuse. you don't exist in a vacuum man. you are fucking up yr life |
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Yeah I respect it's hard to arrange two weeks away from work, you may need your host to have some medical excuse or something. Point is to get out of the environment, the pressure, the patterns. The hard part is when you get back any slipups will slide you back like clockwork. But you'll feel better, shaper sober and that will be motivation to stay steady. |
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