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online belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-12-01 18:57 [#02590556]
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inspired by dariusgriffin's comments in the zizek thread,
and the prospect of another tory government leaving the poor
to eat each other / be hunted down on horseback:

how do you want to go out? at home in your sleep?
dignitas-assisted barbiturate tourism? pointlessly knifed
trying to save your smartphone? drawn-out cancer struggle?
crushed by piano and / or python?


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-12-01 20:06 [#02590557]
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I had the idea a couple of years ago that eventually they
will be hunting the poor on horseback instead of foxes,
seems like im not the only one


 

online dariusgriffin from cool on 2019-12-01 20:11 [#02590558]
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i'm hoping senility or illness will first affect the parts
of the brain that make one fear death


 

online belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-12-01 20:18 [#02590559]
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i'm hoping for an aneurysm or tony soprano-style unexpected
yet ambiguous assassination


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-12-01 20:25 [#02590560]
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I hope I die on the job, but its looking very unlikely


 

offline mohamed on 2019-12-01 20:40 [#02590563]
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which region are you most active on?


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-12-01 21:01 [#02590565]
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definitely the internet


 

offline Tony Danza from Cats! on 2019-12-01 21:02 [#02590566]
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A Boring Dystopia


 

offline DADONCK from here on 2019-12-01 22:06 [#02590576]
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:{}


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-12-02 15:17 [#02590605]
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Old and with grandkids. Not with them, obviously.


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-12-02 15:21 [#02590606]
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Try doing that before being ill! Not an easy feat obv. But
when finally you’re free from the concept of death
you’re terminally ill, which seems a shame.

Mind you... Not sure I’ve ever truly believed someone
who’s told me they’re not afraid of dying. So maybe it
is a good thing, your illness...


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-12-02 15:40 [#02590607]
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LAZY_TITLE this always gives me comfort when I think of
death


 

offline Roger Wilco from Island of Cannibal Sodom on 2019-12-02 17:27 [#02590608]
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I dwell a lot on hanging, I probably will hang myself.


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-12-02 17:44 [#02590609]
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my dad drunkenly tried to hang himself on the washing line
once, problem was he was taller than the line


 

offline Tony Danza from Cats! on 2019-12-02 17:55 [#02590610]
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The Diabetic Gamer's 2019 funniest hanging fails compilation
(137 minutes) please comment like and subscribe


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-12-02 18:12 [#02590611]
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I’d never do the hanging thing if I wanted to die, but my
gosh is it symbolic. It’s like the most noble way, yet
also a way of showing you’re executing yourself. Because
the law hangs.


 

offline Roger Wilco from Island of Cannibal Sodom on 2019-12-02 18:13 [#02590612]
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OK, scratch that, I will probably botch hanging myself and
end up painfully choking myself to death.

Ideally I'd use a professional gallows, and not some
half-arsed thing with a shoelace like I don't know how
prisoners do.


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-12-02 18:14 [#02590613]
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It’s like jumping. Do you really need that last thrill? I
guess some do thought I reckon it’s got more to do with
dramatics. People have to see. People will see. (I mean the
public)


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-12-02 18:39 [#02590614]
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How about reading your favourite book, while burning
charcoal in a room the doors and windows shut? It’s meant
to be really smooth. Not trying to condone you being a right
girl and talking about suicide here, nor do I want to see
you go on charcoal fumes. It’s just, does it have to hurt?
Do you have to traumatise yourself that extra bit more to go
out with a “bang”?


 

offline Roger Wilco from Island of Cannibal Sodom on 2019-12-02 18:42 [#02590615]
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I wouldn't really want people to see, my only concern would
be that it worked. I think the surest method would be to
jump off a cliff onto rocks where the sea would take you and
drown you if for some awful reason you hadn't died already.
I think I'd probably do that actually.

I do think about it a lot. This isn't a cry for help, I am
just saying that I do think about it a lot.


 

offline Roger Wilco from Island of Cannibal Sodom on 2019-12-02 18:43 [#02590616]
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I've never heard of that method. Ideally there would be no
pain, and no "spectacle". I would like to slip away. I'll
look into it, you've given me "hope".


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-12-02 18:50 [#02590617]
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Have you read much Albert Camus? I suggest the ‘myth of
Sisyphus’. It’s a worthy essay on the subject of
suicide. Apparently it was what Nick Drake was reading the
night he died. Not sure he finished it if that’s true.
Also the official and family statement on the affair is that
he didn’t commit suicide.

Do you like some nick drake music, signed up to roger?


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-12-02 18:51 [#02590618]
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There’s always hope, even in suicide.


 

offline Roger Wilco from Island of Cannibal Sodom on 2019-12-02 19:03 [#02590624]
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I do like Nick Drake. Also, I did read "The Myth of
Sisyphus" only this summer, and yes, you're right, it's far
from a exhortation to kill oneself. I like it because I like
the idea of staring into the abyss, and once acknowledging
everything as "absurd" how do we carry on. I don't pretend
to have fully understood it, but, in what I take as a
positive sign, in my copy of the book there is also the
piece "Summer in Algiers" which was like walking into bright
sunshine and blooming colour having spent a grey, arid
eternity in "Sisyphus".

I don't *want* to kill myself as I think it's selfish, and
death will come round eventually anyway. But I do... think
about it.


 

offline Roger Wilco from Island of Cannibal Sodom on 2019-12-02 19:05 [#02590626]
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Apologies because I understand other people have thought
about it and indeed acted upon it, and it's no laughing
matter. All I am saying is that I do dwell on it, I am not
saying I am suicidal or belittling anyone's... experience.


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-12-02 19:11 [#02590627]
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those exit bags are meant to be quite good


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-12-02 19:11 [#02590628]
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No need to apologise you soppy sod! I Tajikistan I get ya!


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-12-02 19:13 [#02590629]
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Think*


 

offline Roger Wilco from Island of Cannibal Sodom on 2019-12-02 19:16 [#02590630]
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I like "I Tajikstan get ya", thought I'd take it to mean "I
totally get ya".



 

offline RussellDust on 2019-12-02 19:22 [#02590633]
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Autocorrect will get dystopian one day. Trust me!


 

online belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-12-02 19:36 [#02590634]
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not to harp on about suicide, but if you try to write an
"exit" letter on yr phone using autocomplete a fair bit, it
noticeably tries to steer you away from the subject, or i
remember it doing so. reallg weird. maybe it was an artifact
of psychosis, i obviously wasn't in my right mind doing it
but it shit me up enough to just start scrawling on the wall
instead. then when the pens i had stopped working one after
another i took it as a sign that something was trying to
prevent me; pens up nose and eye came next. i was in a panic
and autocomplete was a factor. just saying. dunno why really


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-12-02 20:06 [#02590638]
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perhaps the google rogue AI had command of your phone, and
was learning about compassion


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-12-02 20:07 [#02590639]
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Ive never seriously tried to off myself, but its something I
think about from time to time when im very stressed, but I
guess it creates a big mess for people I know if I actually
did it so I probably never will


 

offline mohamed on 2019-12-02 23:22 [#02590651]
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pezzo di stronzo avevi il popolo egiziano in mano

crepa


 

offline mohamed on 2019-12-02 23:24 [#02590652]
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TI ROMPO IL CULO NEL SINAI


 

offline mohamed on 2019-12-02 23:48 [#02590654]
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'it's not because you're psychotic that they can't get after
you'

-kurt cobain


 

online EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2019-12-03 00:49 [#02590668]
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just like in lawnmower man, my consciousness sucked from my
body like a visual fx cross between a human and a packet of
capri sun. once i escape this diseased mainframe, my birth
cry will be every smartfone on the planet playing a dreadful
"la cucaracha" ringtone in unison


 

offline mohamed on 2019-12-03 00:52 [#02590669]
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flowers from shit


 

online EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2019-12-03 01:04 [#02590675]
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LAZY_TITLE


 

online EpicMegatrax from Greatest Hits on 2019-12-03 01:06 [#02590676]
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LAZY_TITLE


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-12-03 20:11 [#02590753]
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Interesting!


 

offline mohamed on 2019-12-03 21:16 [#02590757]
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cucci cucci eh


 

offline mohamed on 2019-12-03 21:19 [#02590758]
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eta betha


 

offline mohamed on 2019-12-03 21:21 [#02590759]
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i am aonly with israel

sum

save my life


 

offline DADONCK from here on 2019-12-06 19:07 [#02591058]
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LAZY_TITLE


 

offline Indeksical from Phobiazero Damage Control (United Kingdom) on 2019-12-06 19:17 [#02591059]
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I have stood on balconies and considered the long drop.
I’m kind of tempted by my last moments being a cruel
realisation that I don’t want to die.

Practically a shit load of sleeping pills plus a plastic bag
and rubber band would do the job and be painless.

Maybe the midsommar way?



Attached picture

 

offline DADONCK from here on 2019-12-06 19:32 [#02591060]
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dude, you can't spend so much money on modular and then just
go to non modular dimension


 

offline Indeksical from Phobiazero Damage Control (United Kingdom) on 2019-12-06 20:14 [#02591071]
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I’ll leave all my shite to you mate


 

offline DADONCK from here on 2019-12-06 20:22 [#02591073]
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thanks for the kind offer mate, but i rather hear some more
snippets of what you do with it. especially with that milky
way module

i was thinking of getting the fx aid
LAZY_TITLE


 

offline mohamed on 2019-12-06 21:49 [#02591090]
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you ever been in a cemetery, other than a market?


 


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