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online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:10 [#02570010]
Points: 23323 Status: Addict



Haven't taken my antidepressants for a couple of days
purposefully and I feel like im on some kind of constant
psychedelic high like I feel my mind feels like its full of
summer flowers, I guess this is some sort of huge
neurotransmitter dump, but its really nice but disrupting, I
feel boundless creativity but I cant stand still for 5
minutes


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:12 [#02570011]
Points: 23323 Status: Addict



LAZY_TITLE


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:22 [#02570012]
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think might have a bit of hypermania


 

offline w M w from London (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:29 [#02570013]
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Well there's got to be something off kilter going on in your
brain if the legend of goldihunk resonated with you. Maybe
you should try an enema to clear out the area where you
brain is.


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:30 [#02570015]
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haha


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:32 [#02570016]
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I have a mate who looks exactly like a bald Robert plant ive
never told him


 

offline w M w from London (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:37 [#02570019]
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Maybe if he got a hair transRobertPlant he'd look exactly
like him.


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:40 [#02570020]
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LAZY_TITLE


 

offline w M w from London (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:43 [#02570023]
Points: 21123 Status: Lurker



He doesn't look anything like robert plant. He looks like a
fish.


 

offline w M w from London (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:45 [#02570024]
Points: 21123 Status: Lurker



LAZY_TITLE


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:46 [#02570025]
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fish looks like landos co-pilot


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:46 [#02570026]
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I think jimmy page is on heroin in every video from the 70s,



 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:48 [#02570027]
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LAZY_TITLE


 

offline belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-02-24 02:55 [#02570028]
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lolling out loud at that guy's expression

i've had a couple of periods like that (the mania not the
fish dude) as my brain soup readjusts itself to
new/more/less meds, i couldn't tell you exactly which was
responsible though as i'm on a whole load of different ones.
one of the best sleepless manic times was thinking i was
psychically linked with peter baynham, we wrote the outline
of an lsd opera / graphic novel about an 8 year old ninja
paedophile hunter


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 02:59 [#02570030]
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yeah great expression!

That sounds kind of cool, perhaps a tad exciting and
distressing!

When i like down in bed like this my brain is generating
unfurl leaf like fractals in my mind, its not so like its a
visual in my visual cortex but something in my mind, its
quite distracting when your lying down trying to sleep and
all this mental noise is going on



 

offline Cliff Glitchard from DEEP DOWN INSIDE on 2019-02-24 03:02 [#02570032]
Points: 3871 Status: Regular



What antidepressants were they?



 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:02 [#02570033]
Points: 23323 Status: Addict



LAZY_TITLE

this sort of stuff, I can see why paganism is really big,
green man, all this symbolic stuff is innately in us


 

offline w M w from London (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:02 [#02570034]
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Sounds like nanobots in your "meds".


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:05 [#02570036]
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citalopram


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:06 [#02570037]
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if there is nanobots in my meds then there is nanobots in
every living system on this planet, you can guarantee that


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:08 [#02570038]
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ones pandoras box has been opened on that one we are
screwed, I don't want some pharmaceutical company rewriting
my dna while im asleep so im more likely to watch reality TV
and by coke


 

offline belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-02-24 03:11 [#02570039]
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yeah it's hard trying to explain this stuff even to fellow
patients, unfurling fractal of ideas is about right though
for manic periods. i used to talk out loud to myself to
organize the ideas and i recorded them on my phone -
listening back now they're close to gibberish. i've got the
psychosis element too though, how you feel now might be
quite productive if you can kinda funnel it!


 

offline w M w from London (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:12 [#02570040]
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You don't want that now; you will be programmed to want it
after the rewrite.


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:14 [#02570041]
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yes i reckon all the best creative periods in anyone's lives
are funnelled through some experience like this, you can be
inspired if nothing is going on in your mind, im not getting
enough sleep/too fatigued to create anything at the moment
though, if i had the energy levels fo when i was 15 i would
be laughing, i didn't mind crawling round the back of my pc
then plugging and unplugging stuff, installing software


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:14 [#02570042]
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yeah waiting for the firmware update to make me want to buy
a dyson hoover


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:17 [#02570043]
Points: 23323 Status: Addict



i don't take antidepressants because im depressed but for my
maina/anxiety if im off them i go off the rails i never
sleep cos my mind is too active


 

offline Cliff Glitchard from DEEP DOWN INSIDE on 2019-02-24 03:18 [#02570044]
Points: 3871 Status: Regular | Followup to Hyperflake: #02570036



They are the worst ones I've ever had! Felt awful and gave
up after 3 days. Taking Mirtazapine now, which I'd recommend
if you ever feel the need for an alternative.



 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:19 [#02570045]
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yes i might suggest it to my doctors, i know exactly what
you mean about feeling awful, imagine feeling like that for
years its no fun,


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:21 [#02570046]
Points: 23323 Status: Addict



I just really wish i didn't need to take them, i feel a lot
of external pressure to take them, and i know i have some
semblance of normality when i take them, but yeah either
scenario feels sub optimal


 

offline Cliff Glitchard from DEEP DOWN INSIDE on 2019-02-24 03:29 [#02570047]
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Yeah I had similar problems with seroxat, especially coming
off them.

I take Mirtazipine for anxiety. Worst side effects are that
they make me tired and hungry for a short while after taking
them. Closest thing to valium I've ever had.


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:34 [#02570048]
Points: 23323 Status: Addict | Followup to Cliff Glitchard: #02570047



yeah was on seroxat for a long time and before that Prozac,
I don't know my meds were changed as essentially they do the
same thing from what I can tell, perhaps they are subtly
different, the world of psychology seems much more nebulous
that other medical disciplines, more akin to alchemy than a
real science, very trial and error. I think in the far
future they will look at these drugs as barbaric, messing
around with delicate brain chemistry/function in a haphazard
way


 

offline Cliff Glitchard from DEEP DOWN INSIDE on 2019-02-24 03:46 [#02570049]
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Yeah, I wasn't comfortable taking seroxat so long (7 years)
as I was worried about the long term effects, but 10 years
without medication was far worse.

Still, it seems a better option than the electroconvulsive
therapy that an older neighbour told me he had in the 80's.


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 03:49 [#02570050]
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yeah that's only 30 years ago and they were doing that!


 

offline Indeksical from Phobiazero Damage Control (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 15:43 [#02570069]
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Is everyone on this site medicated?


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 16:10 [#02570071]
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yeah I think so


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-24 16:37 [#02570075]
Points: 23323 Status: Addict



their is gradients of madness/creativity im not sure what
band im on if it was like council tax id probably be on D or
C band


 

offline marlowe from Antarctica on 2019-02-24 17:03 [#02570076]
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not me, I don't listen to enough idm to require medication


 

offline dariusgriffin from cool on 2019-02-27 16:42 [#02570197]
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eep don't go cold turkey on SSRIs it can fuck you up pretty
bad


 

offline mohamed on 2019-02-27 17:21 [#02570204]
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cold turkey is shit. my face is getting old ever since.
gonna get back on rolling ASAP


 

offline mohamed on 2019-02-27 17:29 [#02570205]
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but i enjoy music more


 

offline belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-02-27 18:00 [#02570213]
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this is probably a good point, brain zaps can be pretty
nasty

how are you feeling hyperflake? still manic or is it
levelling out a bit?


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-27 18:28 [#02570215]
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hey yeah ive levelled off thanks but im going to sleep at 4
and I have to get up early so im completely knackered!


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-27 18:29 [#02570216]
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yes exactly, music causes and
emotional response so you have to have the facility to be
sensitive to music to truly enjoy it, that's why SSRIs are
negative when it comes to enjoying stuff


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-27 18:30 [#02570217]
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yes for sure, im on a low dosage now so its not as vicious
as it could be, but its still less that ideal


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-27 18:38 [#02570218]
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LAZY_TITLE

good news


 

offline mohamed on 2019-02-27 19:02 [#02570222]
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same for weed, when youre doin it all the time youre just
looking for that catatonic state, that music and everything
else takes a secondary importance. therefore cold turkey is
the new special, and makes the same effect of a low/beginner
herb dosage.


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-27 19:03 [#02570223]
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yeah that's quite insightful I didn't see it like that, your
out of it for so long, being normal is like a different
state


 

offline mohamed on 2019-02-27 19:05 [#02570225]
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yeah kinda like an inverted picture


 

online Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-02-28 14:41 [#02570259]
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yeah you spend so long not feeling normal its strange when
you do feel it, I definitely felt that today


 

offline mohamed on 2019-02-28 14:45 [#02570260]
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im stoned but im normal all the same, normality has take
over my mind i cant stop it anymore


 


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