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Haven't taken my antidepressants for a couple of days purposefully and I feel like im on some kind of constant psychedelic high like I feel my mind feels like its full of summer flowers, I guess this is some sort of huge neurotransmitter dump, but its really nice but disrupting, I feel boundless creativity but I cant stand still for 5 minutes |
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think might have a bit of hypermania |
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Well there's got to be something off kilter going on in your brain if the legend of goldihunk resonated with you. Maybe you should try an enema to clear out the area where you brain is. |
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haha |
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I have a mate who looks exactly like a bald Robert plant ive never told him |
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Maybe if he got a hair transRobertPlant he'd look exactly like him. |
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He doesn't look anything like robert plant. He looks like a fish. |
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fish looks like landos co-pilot |
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I think jimmy page is on heroin in every video from the 70s, |
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lolling out loud at that guy's expression i've had a couple of periods like that (the mania not the fish dude) as my brain soup readjusts itself to new/more/less meds, i couldn't tell you exactly which was responsible though as i'm on a whole load of different ones. one of the best sleepless manic times was thinking i was psychically linked with peter baynham, we wrote the outline of an lsd opera / graphic novel about an 8 year old ninja paedophile hunter |
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yeah great expression! That sounds kind of cool, perhaps a tad exciting and distressing! When i like down in bed like this my brain is generating unfurl leaf like fractals in my mind, its not so like its a visual in my visual cortex but something in my mind, its quite distracting when your lying down trying to sleep and all this mental noise is going on |
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What antidepressants were they? |
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this sort of stuff, I can see why paganism is really big, green man, all this symbolic stuff is innately in us |
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Sounds like nanobots in your "meds". |
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citalopram |
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if there is nanobots in my meds then there is nanobots in every living system on this planet, you can guarantee that |
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ones pandoras box has been opened on that one we are screwed, I don't want some pharmaceutical company rewriting my dna while im asleep so im more likely to watch reality TV and by coke |
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yeah it's hard trying to explain this stuff even to fellow patients, unfurling fractal of ideas is about right though for manic periods. i used to talk out loud to myself to organize the ideas and i recorded them on my phone - listening back now they're close to gibberish. i've got the psychosis element too though, how you feel now might be quite productive if you can kinda funnel it! |
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You don't want that now; you will be programmed to want it after the rewrite. |
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yes i reckon all the best creative periods in anyone's lives are funnelled through some experience like this, you can be inspired if nothing is going on in your mind, im not getting enough sleep/too fatigued to create anything at the moment though, if i had the energy levels fo when i was 15 i would be laughing, i didn't mind crawling round the back of my pc then plugging and unplugging stuff, installing software |
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yeah waiting for the firmware update to make me want to buy a dyson hoover |
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i don't take antidepressants because im depressed but for my maina/anxiety if im off them i go off the rails i never sleep cos my mind is too active |
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They are the worst ones I've ever had! Felt awful and gave up after 3 days. Taking Mirtazapine now, which I'd recommend if you ever feel the need for an alternative. |
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yes i might suggest it to my doctors, i know exactly what you mean about feeling awful, imagine feeling like that for years its no fun, |
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I just really wish i didn't need to take them, i feel a lot of external pressure to take them, and i know i have some semblance of normality when i take them, but yeah either scenario feels sub optimal |
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Yeah I had similar problems with seroxat, especially coming off them. I take Mirtazipine for anxiety. Worst side effects are that they make me tired and hungry for a short while after taking them. Closest thing to valium I've ever had. |
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yeah was on seroxat for a long time and before that Prozac, I don't know my meds were changed as essentially they do the same thing from what I can tell, perhaps they are subtly different, the world of psychology seems much more nebulous that other medical disciplines, more akin to alchemy than a real science, very trial and error. I think in the far future they will look at these drugs as barbaric, messing around with delicate brain chemistry/function in a haphazard way |
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Yeah, I wasn't comfortable taking seroxat so long (7 years) as I was worried about the long term effects, but 10 years without medication was far worse. Still, it seems a better option than the electroconvulsive therapy that an older neighbour told me he had in the 80's. |
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yeah that's only 30 years ago and they were doing that! |
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Is everyone on this site medicated? |
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yeah I think so |
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their is gradients of madness/creativity im not sure what band im on if it was like council tax id probably be on D or C band |
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not me, I don't listen to enough idm to require medication |
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eep don't go cold turkey on SSRIs it can fuck you up pretty bad |
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cold turkey is shit. my face is getting old ever since. gonna get back on rolling ASAP |
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but i enjoy music more |
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this is probably a good point, brain zaps can be pretty nasty how are you feeling hyperflake? still manic or is it levelling out a bit? |
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hey yeah ive levelled off thanks but im going to sleep at 4 and I have to get up early so im completely knackered! |
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yes exactly, music causes and emotional response so you have to have the facility to be sensitive to music to truly enjoy it, that's why SSRIs are negative when it comes to enjoying stuff |
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yes for sure, im on a low dosage now so its not as vicious as it could be, but its still less that ideal |
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good news |
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same for weed, when youre doin it all the time youre just looking for that catatonic state, that music and everything else takes a secondary importance. therefore cold turkey is the new special, and makes the same effect of a low/beginner herb dosage. |
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yeah that's quite insightful I didn't see it like that, your out of it for so long, being normal is like a different state |
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yeah kinda like an inverted picture |
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yeah you spend so long not feeling normal its strange when you do feel it, I definitely felt that today |
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im stoned but im normal all the same, normality has take over my mind i cant stop it anymore |
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