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ugh.. Well, I leave tomorrow for a short vacation in Florida. Looks like my plane may be flying directly into a hurricane.. perfect. Last Thursday my girlfriend of 2 years told me that she wanted to 'take a break' from me. She says she needs the time to grow on her own, shes searching for something.. I'm not exactly sure what, I'm not sure if she knows either. We live about 100 miles away from eachother and see (saw) eachother every weekend. She's just moved into an apartment by herself. She's supposed to call me in a month, hopefully with some sort of decision.. We've never had a big fight, no one has ever made me hapier than her.. did I mention she's absolutely beautiful. All I ever tried to be was kind and nice.. I don't think it was enough.. She wants me to move to where she is, which would mean I would have to quit my job at the software company... It seemed impossible up until now. If it would bring her back, I would turn in my notice today. But I think there is more to it. I have been in a few serious relationships.. one lasted nearly twice as long as this one, but wasn't anything like this. Our relationship was her first serious one. The thought of her with someone else makes me sick to my stomach, but maybe it will make it clear to her how wonderful what we had was.. The fact is, I will never find another person that made me feel so happy, but there is a good chance that she will. Maybe she met someone, maybe thats what this is all about? If things don't end up working out for us I don't know what I'll do.. sit around and be depressed all the time i guess. I should have moved to be with her, I should have read more books, I shoudl have done more then i fucking did because now im fucked... I'm such a fucking loser. I'm changing my life. I've been running and working out every night. I've become a vegetarian. I just mailed out 7 demos to record labels, and ive been getting books from the library... all things that would have made her like me better. Too bad theres a chance she'll |
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never even know about it. Like I said, I would quit my job abd sell my house today if it meant I got to spend the rest of my life with her.. the whole reason I got this job or bought my house is because I thought it might make things better for us in the long run, turns out they were my demise.. fucking shit. I believe William Shakespeare said it best: "Life is a tale told by an idiot -- full of sound and fury, signifying nothing." It just sucks is all.. I totally love her. Everybody can make fun of the pathetic loser now... until the tread is killed, as it should be. I just had to let it out, I haven't told any of my 'real' friends what happened. Anyhow.. see you guys next Tuesday. |
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see ya then, watch out for those hurricanes ok ? |
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Take it ezy man... it'll all work out for the best. I've had that sick to the stomach feeling loads recently (not only due to booze!), and the one thing you have to have faith in is yourself, and that you've done all you can, and that you are good. If she still rejects you, then you have to walk away... there is nothing less dignified than a person begging there ex to come back to them. I've done it and its bullshit! Peace |
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Sorry to hear that man - I was in the same boat a little while ago so I know how it feels. All you can do is keep busy, don't just sit around feeling sorry for yourself. You didn't do anything wrong. It's her move I guess, and she may come back. I hope you feel better. |
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Yeah, cut loose man. I've shunned intimate full-on relationships for 4 years now because I don't trust them/myself/women.... You can live a better life without her, you'll realise that sooner or later :) |
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I don't think you're a fucking loser, lots of people go through shit like this. The only serious relationship that i actually wanted to last lasted for 6 months. I was heart broken when we split up. BUT... You have to experience the bad times to appreciate the good times. There's more to life than love i think. But saying that, i don't if i've experienced it to a level possible. But from my experiences, there's lots of better things and times i can think of than what i felt during any past relationship. Being human is learning to deal with things like this. Plan strategies, your approach; for more rough times to come. :) |
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Yeah, and a find a slut. Sluts are good. No relationship is the best relationship. And that's my 2 cents. Hope you feel better. |
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I wouldn't hold my breath. Sounds like getting dumped in slow motion by a coward. That's how they do it. Don't mean to harsh your trip dude but that's my $0.02. I once told my girlfriend I needed some space but it was just because I was on a steep learning curve with computers and shit, getting four hours of sleep a day, chainsmoking and drinking coffee and not bathing. God those were the happiest days of my life. Then I turned around and married her. Oh well. If she has specific things she needs to do and just wants you out of her hair, that's one thing... but if she's looking for something and doesn't know what it is you can be pretty sure it isn't you. I know it's hard to believe but there's others out there that can be just as special and more so if you look for them. I'd wait a while though because right now there's probably waves of angst rolling off you like stink lines in a cartoon and that's not terribly fetching. |
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good luck my friend |
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