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no vices please, i have an addictive personality. i need to escape. |
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bullet in the head |
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quick and effective |
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not that badly. |
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I've been there, man. It's a long, hard road to recovery. |
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go see a movie. |
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when reality is latched onto your skin, try covering it with salt, and if that doesnt work, light a match and press it directly into reality. |
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or put your head in a vice |
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that's a good one actually |
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go fishing |
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funny how alcohol thrrows you into a kind of rreality head firrst. |
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what happened? i think i have a depression problem, and i've been to see a specialist about it, but its coming back in the last few days. |
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put a finger in your ass |
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how does it make you feel? |
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salvia? nearly impossible to get addicted to and will definatly make you apprciate your reality, you ungrateful bastard. |
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how does it make you feel? |
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listen to maroon 5 |
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good |
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not as good as with the whole fist, though |
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well; i really think i you should quit smoking. |
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no drugs, i am applying for a job where you get tested on a regular basis. |
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i just realised why you posted a vice! bo'h |
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are you sure? you could totally brag about taking these drugs on messageboards and stuff if you like take them. |
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i don't know how you're going to "detach from reality" without drugs. and using drugs to escape your problems is a seriously bad idea. what the eff do you mean? what do you want to do? |
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if you're not afraid of people calling you nerd, you could probably play one of those "live" roleplaying games... I know a guy who does it, but he turned out kind of weird, and I haven't seen him for one and a half year. |
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yes but i dont wanna lose a job over it. redrum i have no idea, but i need something. my life is a void. |
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I was just kidding, guy. Like, vices, addictive... i'll get me coat. It's good that you're seeing someone about things, i know it can help some people. Don't drink yourself stupid, it really doesn't help in the end. Although it really does help at first. |
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i guess i forgot this: [sarcasm] [/sarcasm] uhm. you need to set goals from yourself and figure out what you would be happy doing, then figure out how you can accomplish these goals, then do that. |
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i've spent the last 3 years trying to do that. |
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basically drrugs arre the best way, i mean who gives a fuck if you'rre using them in a so called destrructive mannerr, big fucking deal. just do it. i know it's a cliche but we do all die anyway... and frrankly you should trry not worrrry about rright and wrrong and health etc... as long as you feel good. |
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Have a bath in the dark and snort some ketamine? Perhaps you could try some sort of meditation |
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No fucker would take drugs if they weren't the best way. It's the summer hols soon, so maybe you could get some sort of shitty soul destroying job and explode your body with the profits. It'll be a right larf. |
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the use of drugs is more oft a cause of a problem rather than taking them as an effect of, so no drugs....... summer hols? i work for a living! |
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i don't totally underrstand what you want... |
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start doing something that requires a bit of concentration. painting is good... it won't really detach you from reality, but you can concentrate enough on details and the image/picture/painting/whatever to forget troubles. |
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Ah, sorry, i think i must've got the impression you were at college. I'm only half-kidding about the drugsndrink thing, really... I feel really frustrated that i can't be of any help, i've been in a similar place and dealt with it quite badly. Getting fucked is the only thing that's ever worked to blank out the shitty bits for me. I dunno. Honestly though guy, i hope things look up for you soon and i'm not just saying that. You seem like a decent sort. |
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thanks. unfort i dropped out of college twice because i couldn't apply myself to do the work, even though i wasn't having problems with the work itself. i just couldn't see the point in going through the motions for something i didnt want at all. so my of my friends are just going along with it. i guess its better than doing nothing, but, i dunno, i'd rather be a lazy goat than a sheep. sorry peeps if this thread seems like ramblings of the vaguest kind. |
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write stories? |
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hmm painting, not a bad idea. i have been trying to distract myself or keep busy, but its hard, also i am a lazy writer. if i wrote a strory it would have 3 pages maybe. i guess i could do a picture book. |
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The whole "what do you want to do with your life" thing, it hurts my fucking brain. There's no shame in not having a concrete "direction", though. No mad rush to find a permanent goal and put everything you've got into it. Maybe you just need to take the pressure off yourself a bit... you make music, right (andy_k?) If you like it, stick with it, but just try to do things that make you happy for the minute. Although it's easier said than done. |
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it's scarry the 'not knowing what to do with yourr life' thing. when you have nothing, no status and little hope. |
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i like my life i just hate myself. i think that's it. |
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add to that that it's not even really expected/you're not supposed to know what you want to do with you life at 18. |
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I've been painting a bit lately. it's a nice activity. I've just moved for the second time, and to a great place (penthouse, large, two other people), and me and a mate figured there should be something on the walls here, so we scourged his garage, found some wooden plates and some paint and got to it (no brushes, so we used hands, shoes, spray/cutouts, sand paper, an axe, some nails and some gauze). It turned out pretty good in the end so we did another which is four smaller ones put into a "common" frame, and then we did another one on the leftovers from cutting out the four small ones. the latest, which isn't finished yet, is two doors that have been nailed together.. it's huge as fuck, but the more the better! |
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when i was 16 i didnt do anything at all. my brain compensated for the intense boredom with lucid dreams and imaginary pictures and sounds when i was half awake half asleep but still conscious. it was really enteraining but ceased when i had to change my lifestyle. |
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yeah music is about the one thing i give a shit about, and keeps me occupied, but i've not even touched anything for the last few days, and i normally spend hours writing.... i've been online nearly all fucking day today. a while ago it wasnt so bad, as i had a good social life before most of my mates either a) moved away or b) i fell out with/didnt stay in touch with. now its just shit. i just don't know what makes me happy. |
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got some pics of the paintings? |
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not yet, but one of the people I live with has a digital camera, and I'm supposed to take a picture of this place for my brother who lives in a different town, so I guess I could take a pic of each of the two first paintings. The door isn't finished yet and the four small ones are still in the guys garage (we made the "frame" from.. don't know the word, but it is something one would use to mend holes in a "inside" wall, and it needed to dry. I've just forgotten to bring it). |
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It's odd, often the one thing that you really care about can be just as much a burden as a release. Making art can be ridiculously stressful if you let yourself get obsessive about it, i know i fucking do. Painting really is a good way to turn your brain off for a couple of hours though, if you get really "into" it you can't think about anything else. Might be a good idea, something new to explore. I know what you mean about friends moving away though, it can feel very isolated at times. You've just got to try and keep in touch as best you can with the people you like, no other way round it really. |
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yeah.. the thing with paintings is that you can just go crazy (don't get brushes, just put on some clothes that you don't mind if they get ruined and get dirty), and if it doesn't work out, you let it dry a bit and paint over and over and over until you're satisfied. bonus: if you're having a party, showing chicks the paintings and saying that you've made them = sex. |
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