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Always when I am in a train I think in the possibility of its crash or beat another train while in motion. I stay counting my footsteps when I walk in the street without notice. I talk alone (frequently). When I am in a car is the same,I always think in an accident or something and how I would do in the case of it happens. I always think that peoples are complaining or doing some conspiration using my name or talking shit about things that I made when I am away. |
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everyone talks alone. it's weirder not to talk alone. |
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talks alone..? talks to the themselves! |
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But not all the time. |
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okay, do you mean "frequently" or "all the time". |
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Sometimes I preffer to talk with myself or imagine a person talking with me than talk with another person. |
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Actually,all the time. |
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I always think "This bus could crash any minute" when I'm in one. But I don't count my footsteps or whatever else you're on about. |
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Then I am normal. |
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The society freaks me,then,I preffer to live in my own world sometimes. |
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I usually imagine the bus tipping over to the side, and me jumping up to grab one of the beams that are now horizontally aligned, smeshing the window with my fist and getting the hell out of there just before it explodes and kills that annoying kid two seats behind me that just didn't want to shut up. Fuck yeah. |
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Hahahahaha I always imagine the train getting out of the raillroad and hitting another train (of front) . If is a bus I always think that it will lost the direction and fall in a river or something. P.S.:Kids disturbs me a lot..... |
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I actually talk to myself quite allot. |
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Sometimes I think in hit a kid out of the bus if he/she is crying high. I hate kids... I f have a baby soon of me I think in the possibility of he/she vomits in my clothes,I would hit his/her mom if it happens. |
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This avatar distracts me a LOT. |
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Oh you are so insane and cool. |
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when I see people laughing I always think that they are laughing about me... that makes me very depressed... |
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what a load of poo. |
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Like Devin Townsend told once:" I am not insane,I am not insane...I am just smarter than you..." |
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I have talked to myself out loud a lot this summer |
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Same here! |
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Same here! |
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I hate this mozilla,it makes me post twice. CS2x: Fuck off. Nacmat:I talk to myself since I was a child. |
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isnt posting on a messageboard talking to oneself most of the time? |
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I always feel like that here. |
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I hate when I come online and the peoples in messenger talks with me in a first minute,argh! O__0 But I hate peoples that are mutes too. |
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why made you be like that? anything happened while you were a kid...did your mum/dad hit you or smtn? |
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*what made you like that* |
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Humm.. Let me see.. I always thinked in suicide since my 4 years-old,I was molested by my father but not raped.He just put his dick in my hand,I has 4 years-old. I think that with 4 years-old was one of the most annoying times of my life,but,why i am talking it here?I don´t know. I just talk about this topic with myself,my mom don´t knows of that. |
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oh my.. if psychology only would work that easily. |
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oh,sorry to hear that...you seem like a nice girl,but us discussing this problem won't lead to your healing. did you see a therapist for the damadge your dad did to you? |
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I hate my father and nobody understands why,or fakes the "why she hates him?" feeling. He is nothing,always will be nothing and will die like that. I wish that my mom didn´t fucked with him 18 years ago,then,I couldn´t be born and she would be very happy without my father and I in her life. I am a loser and my father is nothing,but the difference is,I know that I am a loser ,he thinks that don´t know that. My father have 53 years-old and haven´t a house,he don´t lives with my mom,he lives with his mom.He haven´t a job,the only thing that he haves is a dick that he should smash in a stonebreaker. |
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well,it worked this time...but it's the internets! |
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I was recommended for a psychologist some times,my mom just thinked in put me at one but I never went. I almost hited once the sub-director of my school and he told to my mom that I would be taking drugs and recomended me some psycho support,but I don´t went. My humour change constantly but sometimes I think that it is because I have some hormonal problems and stuff.I just took some pills (4 to 10 years-old) to control my hypo thyreoidism ,sometimes I think that I am like that because of my hormones. |
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i'm behind you on whatever you do...i didn't have a chiledhood like you did,but it was hardcore also. maybe others don't know why you hate your father...but i can tell you one thing! please,don't lock yourself into your micro world cos it will only make you feel worse and distracted from what you really are. i know it's tuff to do it,but in a few years you'll maybe understand why i'm talking this. are you happy with your current life? |
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I know that talk about it here won´t help me,but,who cares.Nobody gives a fuck about what I am talking about,I could be inventing all this shit,but I am not. |
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I count all the time. I count my steps, the ticking of a clock, all sorts of things. it's not strange don't worry. I also often picture things like me getting very ill or hurt. It happens to a lot of people. I'm sorry to hear about that shit with your dad. I hope you can have some control over it so he doesn't have too much of an effect on your life. That's maybe what he wanted, control. |
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heh,you are...puberty mixed with the past tragedy that happened to you is the present result. some people grew up ulder a bit quicker than their firends in that age,just because of certain issues thay had as kids. i would advise you to work on yourself,not to close to your microworld. please,it's for your own good. |
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maybe it would be better if you wouldn't think about your dad too often if you think that way of him.. |
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My life actually just makes me feel tired,tired of do fucking nothing. I am lazy lately and I don´t know why,strange. I am procrastinating a lot and I hate it,then,I am not happy at all. My music just sounds shit and the guys that I should be working with are all busy with another projects. The cool edit pro always distructs my musics,the only good thing that I has was goldwave (expired). My mom thinks that I am a moron,she just talks:"you aren´t studying,you need to study.You just stay chatting on internet". When she talks that I have the feeling of explode,is just I turn the pc on and she talks that.I make music in my pc then,I need to turn it on.Aren´t all the times when I on the pc that I am chatting in internet.She thinks that I am probably a vagabond. DAMN!The cat is meowing,it wants food and I need to clean the poo of my dog.BRB |
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From childhood's hour I have not been As others were; I have not seen As others saw; I could not bring My passions from a common spring. From the same source I have not taken My sorrow; I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone; And all I loved, I loved alone. Then- in my childhood, in the dawn Of a most stormy life- was drawn From every depth of good and ill The mystery which binds me still: From the torrent, or the fountain, From the red cliff of the mountain, From the sun that round me rolled In its autumn tint of gold, From the lightning in the sky As it passed me flying by, From the thunder and the storm, And the cloud that took the form (When the rest of Heaven was blue) Of a demon in my view. by Edgar Allan Poe (1830) |
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your mum just wants the best for you,so don't blame her for telling you to go study. i'm gonna go to sleep,cos i'm tired of sleeping! |
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Now I just want to left home and have my own place. Sometimes I think that I will repeat my dad family (they all are annoying and hates me),and it is the last thing that I want in this world.I preffer to die than repeat them. My mom don´t saw the wrists that I have in my left pulse yet.She knows that I cut myself but she don´t talk with me about that. Cut myself when I am depressed just reflects in the outside how i am feeling inside,nothing else. |
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Thanks guy,have a nice sleep. O_0 I will drink more wine before my mom come back. :-* |
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i did the cutting also,but it will pass,don't worry...everything will fall in it's place if you want it to be like that. so,basicly it's up to your decision on how do you want to live your life. it's only your decision,not your mums or anyother persons. |
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Yes darling. But,sometimes,I think that she don´t understands that.But it´s ok.I will show her that I am not so loser how I apparently lookalike. |
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