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Are you back in England already? What's happening? |
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Yes i am... Life hurts... alot! Can't go into it on here really... |
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Damn - do you have my eMail address still? If so, email me -- |
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broken heart and dreams. |
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Not due to anything either of us have done, due to something that was beyond our control... The whole situation is too confusing. |
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confusion is a state of mind that can easily be overcome. |
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Not if you are me... |
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meditation and clean living. you would be amazed how much difference it makes to you. |
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oh don't be so boring, Lee.. |
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it's not boring at all. since i started this new life i have beenmuch more active and pleasent. it is wonderful. |
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yes, it is boring. maybe not to you, but to us it is. |
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then i pity you all. |
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thanks!! |
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Lee speaks the truth - when things are really shitty, the mantra "everything is temporary" usually lightens my mood somewhat, normally enough for other things to take temporary hold and lead me elsewhere. |
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I will try but it is very difficult... I wish i could tell people the whole situation but i can't... It is a real bummer and more unrelated things have happened... It feels like someone is playing some kind of sick joke on me. |
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telling myself everrything is temporrarry does worrk forr shorrt little while. |
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a A FUCKING A |
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Skink, you are a very decent guy and i hope you come out the other side of this bad bad badness. I suppose i'm not the best person to talk to about dragging thyself out of Dem Blue Pits, but distracting the mind with completely meaningless wank can do wonders for your outlook, at least temporarily. The beast that's constantly gnawing at the back of your thoughts, if you've managed to banish him that far... he's defeated with washing up for 5 minutes. He's defeated with doing something creative for a couple of hours. He's defeated with Thinking About Something Else. It doesn't help a fucking jot in the long term, but if you keep yourself busy in the short term you've got the energy to actually deal with the root later on. I'm hoping for you, dude. I hope you can find something that makes you happy, not just in the limbo-stage, but something more. Best of luck my man. |
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Dude those kind words mean so much to me! I will say this much to you about the whole thing, it was no fault of either of us. It was however the actions of one person against the will of us both has just fucking fucked everything up... I think this is a vital clue. I now have to battle some very real personal issues of my own as well, like again i am homeless. I also have to battle my own fucked up thought processes and paranoia... The list is kind of endless right so... So those words mean alot to me. They also give me a little bit of faith in humanity. |
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Whatever you have to work out or work through... i'm hoping you come through it ok. The only thing i can say about situations like this is to not blame yerself, because in fucked-up 2-person situations it's almost UNIVERSALLY not your fault, usually nobody's fault. (bearing in mind i don't know a fucking thing about your situation. y'know etc etc). I'm alex.dunn12(at)btopenworld.com if you want to chat or anything man. |
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So is this related to that girl you travelled across europe for? Jesus man, if it is, I wish you the best of luck, you seem like a nice genuine guy. Learn from your mistakes and be strong. |
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Ok if say that the issue is the r word would that suffice... Hence not my fault or hers... |
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hmm, is this R word 4-letters long? |
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Yeah and it ends in e... |
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rake? were your gardening skills not up to scratch? |
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Rice? |
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Those german girls can be very demanding about a gentleman's bush husbandry skills. |
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C'mon Wabbs, don't make light of this situation, it's 'rice' they are on about. |
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And to top it all off one of my friends mum died a couple of days after i got back... She was also my friend too she helped me out loads, i don't even know if i have a right to be sad... All i know is there is so much in the world i can't do anything about... You can put all you can into it and you still can't fucking do anything, not a fucking thing! All you can do is sit and watch as everything that was important and make you think the world is just alright enough to give you a little faith in something... Don't be surprised if i am fucking dead soon, ok? Since i can't do fucking anything... I feel like there is nothing left to fucking give and nothing left to prove... I mean... Why bother when everything is just a sick fucking joke! I really don't have any time or pateience... Just a big gaping hole where my soul used to live... I don't even know why i am saying this here... It isn't like anyone really cares... I am not really here this isn't happening to you... I mean why care if you aren't there to see it? Why care at all... about anything...? There is no fucking justice, no solace just nothing just a figurative black fucking hole where all the slime lives a good life... It dosen't matter how good you are, how hard you try everything is just a fucking joke. ANy fucking questions or anyone with something smartarse to say to me i am really fucking waiting for it, i will waiting for all of it hell... |
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I love Horses, best of all the animals! I think it's rice too. |
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Does anyone know how to fucking read or does anyone just have no fucking respect or are you just fucking cunts? |
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They don't call is Rice Gang X for nothing. |
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I'll shut up skink... |
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Sorry i am just so fucking angry, i hate the fact that i have to live within this body all the time... |
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i hate to hear this from you dude... expect my email shortly... |
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i hear you man. people say that life is too short, but sometimes i feel like life is too fucking long. when i'm feeling shitty, and i look to the future and see no improvement in sight, i feel like i'm just going to fester in this uncomfortable pit. how many years left? 60? 70? sometimes that seems like such torture. what helps me is to fill the time with things i enjoy, and say fuck-all to the things i hate. it makes no sense to waste energy dwelling on the things you can't change. i'm not offering advice here or anything. just understanding. |
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I would like to thank all the people who just sent me e-mails... These are all good words guys, thanks alot. I really do mean that from the bottom of my heart! |
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i know it's clichéd as hell, but it's totally true that bad things happen in life. they happen to everyone. you seem to focus on only the bad. i'm not quite sure, as i don't know you at all, but it seems like you're searching for some deeper meaning in life. i don't think there is one. just try to enjoy the time that you have, and accept that it isn't always going to be ideal. |
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I am not really searching for deeper meaning... I already know it is pointless. It's just i don't get why my life is like this, why can i not be happy ever??? I can count the times i have been happy in the last 12 years on one hand... I thought this year would be a turning point in my life... I feel worse now than i have in fucking years and i wonder what the point of all of this is... I really don't think i can work through anymore of this... |
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Life might not have a meaning, I don't know if it does, but I guess that doesn't mean it can't be enjoyable. If you want the secret to happiness, here it is: don't be in debt and don't go looking for love. If you can manage one or the other of these, or both! you'll notice that you really don't mind so much when other things go bad. The things that always gets you the worst is love, and particularly failed or unrequited love. I used to get *really* down about the obvious fact that I was just shit at relationships. Even when things looked like they were going well, things always ruin it. Sometimes it's my fault, sometimes it's not, but it always goes arse over tit. These days I've more or less accepted that I won't find "that special person" by searching and so I've stopped. Seriously. I've had it with the chase. When you boil it down to it's basic facts, whatever is causing grief is just a small number of matters. The more there are the worse you feel, and the less you feel like sorting them out. So take the smallest one, take some time out, and get it sorted. Or at least try. Once you start you'll feel better about yourself. Just the relief of *something* off your mind can give you the willpower to tackle other things. I don't know if I'm making sense any more. I think I'm starting to waffle. |
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That's SOLID GOLD moderating, RIGHT THERE! Read those words of wisdom young Skink, and, whatever you do, DON'T wallow in your own misery. It's just dirty. |
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Okie, go easy on the praise. The underpants can only take so much. |
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losers |
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self importance is overrated |
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I'd listen to Eggy as well. As a Ying to Xcheque's Yang. |
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it's also extremely ugly |
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You've never seen my yang |
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i sold my electron microscope on ebay |
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