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i'm just so fucking bored, that i had to signify it by making a thread about be bored.. .. but i'll jazz up this boring topic by saying how and why i'm so bored.. i'm sitting here, staring at my monitor, opening and closing msn repeatedly. as if doing so i might magically see a new person come online, so i may shit on them by saying how bored and depressed i am. while i'm doing this, i'm impulsively reaching into a bag of flax seeds and eating them off my finger. i don't even like the taste of them. i'm just doing it anyways. i'm also scraping the food residue off my plate, imagining that i'm doing some archeological dig. then i'll just lean back on my chair and fidget with anything surrounding me, including myself. also, when i try to think, i can't even articulate idea's conventionally. it's as every thought leads to the same result. That everything just becomes terminally disturbuted into a large, quantitive amalgamation, which dosn't allow me to reconcile my thoughts and motions into facets of dissociative meanders. I'm aware of all my options but it merely reflects apon me, because i have no preference, so it acts as an obstruction, leaving me only capable of being completely habitual. Like, it's as if my mind comes to a vacuous point and i'm only being driven by muscular motion. this sometimes makes me have spontaneous, short bursts of insane laughter, making me feel delirious. yee... |
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you always manage to fit as many complex words as you can in your discussions, as if to give them so much more meaning and level, but in fact these words can be simplified in terms every and anyone can understand. but really, i dont care, i just didnt spend enough time to learn the words like you did, so im a bit jelous. but at least you understand me. as for this dull boredom. i too have it, in waves of motivated motar skills. this morning i awoke after a disturbing dream that my cat turned into an alien made of pus that maintains its form with a thin coat of translucent skin, it hopped up on my bed and its stomach burst, and ameobic goo splashed all over my bed. usually i'll sleep untill lunch or dinner, i love sleep, dreams *that arent so fucked up as the one i had*, and the comfort of pillows and blankets, a comfort zone without the worry of work, responsibility, bills, duty, life.. i acually quit my last job so i could sleep more often. most of my days, im very depressed, as feld stated, in fact, exactly what he stated, with a little something on the side, a fierce mental illness that wont take my mind off death, nothingness, and hopelessness. but i cope, i mean im still here right? once in a while (and i mean at least once a month) ill have a few hours where the chemicals in my breain level out and i feel fan fucking tastic! i get to the things ive been thinking of while doing nothing staring off into the opening and closing msn window. i clean my room, produce and finish up music, write scripts for my movie.......shower. its already evident that this reality has nothing to offer me in terms of a social life, sexual life, or just a comfort zone. im far too detached and have no primary development skills for socializing. The only thing in life thats ever made me content and happy was playing video games as a child, even if it wasnt really what some of you call 'living', it made me happy. |
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when i get a new computer, i will even be leaving this place, for Norrath. |
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NOT NORRATH!!!!! |
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ahh..the guilty pleasures derived from norrath |
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if you're bored in these days, imagine how bored would you be 50 years ago...it's impossible to be bored nowdays...not with all the posibilities we have!! |
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you are a pseudointellectual idiot and i never want to read your posts again |
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Post number 8 |
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Whoa, thesaurus |
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but more regular words like "doesn't" seem to be more of a problem. |
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I liked " terminally disturbuted" which is, coincidently, my perpetual state of being. |
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hahaha |
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Oh come on |
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you could just leave msn on... |
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the living tribunal has spoken! |
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hahaha...this topic is going the right way now. |
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straight to hell! "hoist that rag!" |
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I woke up, went for a run, had a wank in the shower then went around to cuddle my girfriend into an eternal sleep. |
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not too fond of standing wanks myself. |
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why not do it the easy way, right? i think so too... |
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i prefer wanking this way |
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you rub against the wall? |
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the shower is rather distracting |
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not if you're a girl... |
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