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offline tibbar from harrisburg, pa (United States) on 2003-10-31 22:19 [#00928079]
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i gotta vent.

i got sold out tonight, AFTER hanging out had commenced.

i found out my grandmother has bowel cancer, and is having
surgery done in a few days.

im still sick with some stomach crap.

and in general, its making me feel blue about other
thigns...

*sigh*

this hasnt been my week.

anyoen else care to share?


 

offline Gwely Mernans from 23rd century entertainment (Canada) on 2003-10-31 22:33 [#00928082]
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well my halloween is ruined too. all my friends are at work!
im waiting for calls listening to aphex twin. this is
boooring.
and my granmother is having open heart surgury in december.
so yeah i know how ya feel mate..


 

offline tibbar from harrisburg, pa (United States) on 2003-10-31 22:35 [#00928084]
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that sucks about yr grandma...

i hope she'll be ok.

ah, the life of a hermit ;)


 

offline D-Steak from Kansas City, Mo. (United States) on 2003-10-31 22:35 [#00928085]
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im playin smackdown and online poker and talkin w you all,
not so bad eh


 

offline Gwely Mernans from 23rd century entertainment (Canada) on 2003-10-31 22:38 [#00928091]
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the life of a hermit aint that bad.
tho when you accually had plans to party and they all got
thrown away, ya get just a little pissed off....

yeah i hope your grandma will be alright too


 

offline tibbar from harrisburg, pa (United States) on 2003-10-31 22:39 [#00928092]
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its not even the plans thing.

its just been a rough week in general.

too much bad news, not enough good news.


 

offline plaidzebra from so long, xlt on 2003-10-31 23:26 [#00928104]
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i wish you an upsurge in good news. bad news reminds of
what is great about the humanity we all share; the
willingness to help shoulder the burden of sorrow...


 

offline tibbar from harrisburg, pa (United States) on 2003-10-31 23:29 [#00928105]
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here here, mate.

thats how you know who your friends are... the bad times.

you gotta stick together.


 

offline Gwely Mernans from 23rd century entertainment (Canada) on 2003-10-31 23:38 [#00928111]
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yeah, well what if you best friend decides not to stick
together and your left alone... FOR HALLOWEEN

hmm? lol


 

offline plaidzebra from so long, xlt on 2003-10-31 23:40 [#00928112]
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It is said an Eastern monarch once charged his wise men to
invent him a sentence to be ever in view, and which should
be true and appropriate in all times and situations. They
presented him the words: "And this, too, shall pass away."
How much it expresses! How chastening in the hour of pride!
How consoling in the depths of affliction! - Abraham
Lincoln, 16th U.S. President (1809-1865)


 

offline plaidzebra from so long, xlt on 2003-10-31 23:42 [#00928114]
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you can decide to focus on the betrayal, or you can choose
to focus on letting go of your disappointment. it's a very
valuable discipline round these parts...

anyway, happy halloween!


 

offline Gwely Mernans from 23rd century entertainment (Canada) on 2003-10-31 23:44 [#00928116]
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happy halloween


 

offline tibbar from harrisburg, pa (United States) on 2003-10-31 23:45 [#00928117]
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yes yes...

that is all you can do, is look to the future... for the
present is always being affected by the past and future.


 

offline Gwely Mernans from 23rd century entertainment (Canada) on 2003-10-31 23:47 [#00928118]
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"For in this world, everything exists. Anything can happen
at any time ... and everything happens all the time."



 

offline tibbar from harrisburg, pa (United States) on 2003-10-31 23:48 [#00928119]
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i am learning so much about myself lately...

i am learning how strong i really am inside...

i am learning that even though things may have me down for a
moment, i am a very resilient person who can spring back
fast...

and im so happy to learn that about me.


 

offline Gwely Mernans from 23rd century entertainment (Canada) on 2003-10-31 23:49 [#00928120]
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yes, everything is only temporary


 

offline pachi from yo momma (United States) on 2003-10-31 23:58 [#00928125]
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sorry u had a rough week man =(

i didn't go trick-or-treating tonight, but i passed out
candy & carved a jack-o-lantern. i had way too much candy
too. the good news about today is that i should be starting
a new job soon , after being unemployed for over a year.


 

offline tibbar from harrisburg, pa (United States) on 2003-10-31 23:59 [#00928127]
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good luck on yr job, pachi!

brush dem teefs, to get dat gunky ol sugar out o yr gums


 

offline tallyho from Vladivostok (Russia) on 2003-11-01 00:02 [#00928131]
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bad things must pass...

sometimes you just have to go through something. you never
know how it works, but it works anyway...
you're down now, but soon you may find yourself cheerful and
stronger than you are


 

offline tibbar from harrisburg, pa (United States) on 2003-11-01 00:04 [#00928133]
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i know thats whats happening, i already feels stronger...

but its still very hard, nonetheless...


 

offline pachi from yo momma (United States) on 2003-11-01 00:05 [#00928135]
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phanx mang =)

i'll try not to upset my orthodontist too much ;)

and i hope everything works out for you too!


 

offline tibbar from harrisburg, pa (United States) on 2003-11-01 00:06 [#00928136]
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thanx, but its gonna take time for some of these thigns to
work out...

i just have to be patient and put others before me.


 

offline tallyho from Vladivostok (Russia) on 2003-11-01 00:09 [#00928141]
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*sighs knowingly*


 

offline tibbar from harrisburg, pa (United States) on 2003-11-01 00:12 [#00928142]
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*pats maria's head*

it's all just amatter of time and perseverance.


 

offline tibbar from harrisburg, pa (United States) on 2003-11-01 00:18 [#00928143]
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the one thing i cant figure out is this...

why do good people go dark when they get hurt?

why do they latch to negativity?


 

offline happy cycling from berlin on 2003-11-01 00:29 [#00928148]
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happy fucking halloween thou kookoo souls this latenight
morrow! pretty to read your soultalk -- had some ayahuasca
(a peruvian divinitory ethenogen) and spent the night
positively glowing with happiness and sadness -- be blue! xo
from vancouver everyone.


 

offline tallyho from Vladivostok (Russia) on 2003-11-01 00:50 [#00928151]
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happy weekend everybody.

life is still beautiful :)


 

offline ambsace from canaDUH. on 2003-11-01 01:02 [#00928154]
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i hung out with my ex-girlfriend whom i haven't seen for
five months. we drove around forever without any clue what
to do...so we ended up at some park in my car making out for
two and a half hours. i feel really bad about it, actually.
there. i had to post this SOMEwhere.

i feel a little better. i think. a bit.


 

offline plaidzebra from so long, xlt on 2003-11-01 12:42 [#00928865]
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tibbar

i'd like to offer the following as a possible helpful
viewpoint.

think of a person, a human being as a translation or
interpretation of the true self, an expression or statement
in four dimensions, space and time, a body and a "lifetime."


in this expression, there exists a distortion or
interference imposed by the medium (the body and time),
which we might consider "primal fear." this fear takes the
form of certain destructive beliefs assumed to be true,
which may include, for example (just examples of common
beliefs, not necessarily relevant to your experience), "the
death of my body is the death of my true self" or "i must be
punished" or "i am afraid of what i do not know" or "i am
vulnerable to destruction."

beliefs like this can be active, or passive. when passive,
they remain latent until they are triggered by external
events, or are depended upon in the translation of personal
perception. in other words, one perceives an emotionally
charged event, for example the death of a loved one, and
then one looks to one's beliefs, both active and passive,
and these beliefs dictate how one will respond (of course
you can see that this is a simplification of what can be a
very complicated process) to the situation (how one will
feel about it).

many good people are operating actively and passively such
destructive beliefs, which are expressed in negative
emotional terms under stress and in reaction to charged
situations. these beliefs are used to define the
situations.

the negative emotions, although very dangerous because they
can be so destructive, are extremely important, because they
are part of a feedback mechanism which is used to identify
beliefs that are operating, assumed to be true, and are
derived from the primal fear and therefore destructive in
nature. the destructive beliefs must be changed to reflect
one's true origin (of which i think you are aware).

the negative emotions must not be hidden, or denied; they
must be accepted and used as a tool to unc


 

offline plaidzebra from so long, xlt on 2003-11-01 12:43 [#00928866]
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over their source: destructive beliefs assumed to be true.
trying to overwrite destructive beliefs with positive
beliefs only creates an internal conflict. the destructive
beliefs must be identified and changed.

this is why compassion and non-judgement are so important;
it can be unpleasant to see good people expressing such
negativity, but this is the essence of discovery and
healing. when the light is unknown, the darkness gives
light definition. when the light is known, the darkness is
seen to not exist.


 

offline Anus_Presley on 2003-11-01 12:47 [#00928871]
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my day, week month, yearr has been shit, forr one rreason...
it neverr changes. i have no ups and not many downs, it's
just an endless exhausting move forrwarrds. i need some love
and some fun. but i can't complain, no i don't have the
rright to complain because i have a rroof overr my head and
don't live in a hut in Africa with AIDS.

i'm tirred of this endless mundane existence as cushy as it
may be.


 

offline telica from london/york on 2003-11-01 12:50 [#00928874]
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i want to give you a hug and a cup of tea.


 

offline pachi from yo momma (United States) on 2003-11-01 12:50 [#00928876]
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maybe you need a vacation in going somewhere exotic.



 

offline Anus_Presley on 2003-11-01 12:56 [#00928879]
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Lol thank you :)



 

offline plaidzebra from so long, xlt on 2003-11-01 13:00 [#00928890]
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anus, stop feeling sorry for yourself and realize that you
may very well face a challenge more difficult than that
someone in a hut in africa with aids might face. the
problem is that you built the prison in which you are
housed. so, you will have to create the key...


 

offline telica from london/york on 2003-11-01 13:03 [#00928897]
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do you get paid for saying stuff like that? :-p


 

offline Anus_Presley on 2003-11-01 13:03 [#00928898]
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save that crreate the key bullshit forr office motivational
talks


 

offline plaidzebra from so long, xlt on 2003-11-01 13:15 [#00928907]
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perhaps i am paid. excuse the tired metaphors. regardless
of your feelings on the matter, i care about you. whining
publicly about the problems you've created for yourself is
an implicit solicitation of assistance. i don't need your
appreciation, but i will be very glad to see you act on your
own behalf and empower yourself to abandon your bitterness
and sorrow.

maybe you should come by the office for a talk.


 

offline Anus_Presley on 2003-11-01 13:19 [#00928909]
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saying crreate a key is no help to me. i don't want help
anywa i was just rreplying to tibbar's question.


 

offline roygbivcore from Joyrex.com, of course! on 2003-11-01 13:24 [#00928917]
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my halloween morning-mid day sucked ass

i missed my bus to school, the next one wasn't for another
hour, i had to miss my first class (the only one i like) to
take a test, then i got kicked out of my next class cause i
didn't have my homework, then i had to go to the
radiostation for 2 hours, but i forgot my tape to record the
show, so i went to the school store to buy one (cause they
always have them), but they were remodling so everything was
closed off except what they thought was important (including
candy bars). so i wen to the station to try to talk to the
manager and just explain to him how i was having such a
shitty day and i didn't feel good, so these old women were
leaving and i tried going in to the station and they were
like "you have to have rick buzz you in" and i was like
"it's ok, i'm an intern" and they were like "NO" and they
were like you have to call, one of them went back in and i
tried calling but no one was picking up. so she came back
out and she was like "he says come back at one" which was in
a half hour so i was like "fuck it, i'm going home"

drowned my sorrows in some old english


 

offline roygbivcore from Joyrex.com, of course! on 2003-11-01 13:32 [#00928927]
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you went out with your best sweater on, with every intention
of dancing till dawn. but when the dj played that song, it
all went wrong.

crying on the cab ride home with, frank sinatra on the
radio, but it might as well have been li'l kim when every
song you hear still reminds you of her

and you'll say that it's no big deal, but it's the shake in
your voice that gives away how you feel, and you couldn't

slam the door

any faster

and you'll say that it's no big deal, but it's the tears on
your face that give away how you feel

so tonight

tonight

was a disaster


 

offline plaidzebra from so long, xlt on 2003-11-01 13:39 [#00928934]
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i didn't tell you to create a key. consider again what i
said. or don't. i shouldn't have implied that i intended
to help you, although i would without hesitation. i was
really reacting to what you said, as you responded to
tibbar. perhaps you don't want anyone's help, but you don't
want to perpetuate your unhappiness either. or do you?


 

offline Anus_Presley on 2003-11-01 13:43 [#00928936]
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i didn't want to offend you plaidzebra, but them 'theorry'
speeches don't rreally worrk forr me.


 

offline Chihiro from twins land on 2003-11-01 13:44 [#00928937]
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it is very nice Here tonight... What's wrong in your
country?


 

offline hedphukkerr from mathbotton (United States) on 2003-11-01 13:50 [#00928945]
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hey thats too bad about both ur grandmothers, ive been
without one for years now (or any grandparents for that
matter) and if u wanna see how shitty my night was, just
check out "feelin shitty right now"


 

offline plaidzebra from so long, xlt on 2003-11-01 13:53 [#00928947]
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no offense taken. there is something very real beneath that
theory, however. i'm aware of how useless words are in the
absence of technique and discipline. anyway, i wish you
well and ask you to excuse any presumption on my part...


 


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