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f.l.e.a from NZ on 2001-09-13 00:59 [#00031208]



how is this effecting everyones mind and psyches?..me I was
plagued with nightmeres and I havebeen writing some of the
most depressing and creepiest music I have ever done..even
by my standards..how everyone else effected..anyone writing
drawing creating because of this...


 

m....M..Mw )wW(m M m)Ww( wM..M....m from W)mm(W on 2001-09-13 01:07 [#00031213]



I made a really happy song right before it happened. I'm
mostly just worried how it will affect me personally. I hope
they don't draft or anything, many wars start with
relatively small causes... this one wasn't very small. If
they give me a gun and a killing environment where people's
arms are flying off, I'll just shoot myself in the head and
save the unwanted mentaly pain. Plus the poor people that
suffered, I hate the concept of pain/suffering, but pain is
an evolutionary adaptation that evolved to help things know
when their bodies are being wounded and thus be more fit to
survive. Is it equally painful to the ants when a kid
tortures their hive? Or the rats killed in your basement. I
saw jurasic park and though it is only a representation of a
deceased reality, the scene of the t rex shaking that small
little insect like human, and knowing how horrible pain
feels to people, and knowing how reality would be so
different if only a butterfly had not flapped it's wings
somewhere in the deep cosmos to hurl a meteor in our path...


 

f.l.e.a from NZ on 2001-09-13 01:11 [#00031214]



same here..I was writing a lot of quirky silly
music..thinking the more depressing stuff's behind..and lo
and behold I witness this and I am back in a dark depressed
mode of creation..I can not describe what's coming out as
scary or anything..just..sad


 

f.l.e.a from NZ on 2001-09-13 01:16 [#00031215]



I was in the States at a University when a gulf war broke
out..some of my friends and classmates were in R.O.T.C and
one day they just stopped showing up in class because they
had been called in for excercises or something...I met em
later and they were frightened and very anxious..and wishing
they hadn't gone and joined R.O.T.C..one of them was worried
that he was gonna loose his life nad all just because he
wanted to save on tuition...it was a sad and dark time being
around those guys...


 

ross on 2001-09-13 01:51 [#00031225]



i just sat in front of my keyboard, and played somewhat of a
sad song, that was actually some of the best playing ive
done..and i did it for like 5 minutes, it was strange but
comforting


 

f.l.e.a from nZ on 2001-09-13 02:47 [#00031230]



herenow


 

m....M..Mw )wW(m M m)Ww( wM..M....m from W)mm(W on 2001-09-13 06:28 [#00031299]



Luckily I don't have any friends to worry about. When I was
in the adolescent prison called school, I had quite a tough
time... I can't say how tough exactly, at the time I thought
it was pretty damn bad but it's mostly all shoved into my
subconscious like a time bomb. I had plenty of horrible
thoughts I can no longer remember... During this time
though, I created drawings that are absolutely insane.
Almost rejecting reality, many are abstract almost surreal
representations of mental pain. The ones that do reflect
reality do so in a twisted way. I focused all my mental pain
and thought on them. I feel like they were 99%
representations of my soul. I've heard from some other
source a link to art and pain/misery, can one exist without
the other? The worst part is plenty of people and other
living things have suffered worse than me. I hardly remember
anything, maybe it wasn't that bad.


 

f.l.e.a from Now Here on 2001-09-13 06:38 [#00031300]



I have found myself to be the most productive in my darkest
hours...and I have had plenty of those..but funnily it's
never my art (I draw, paint, illustrate etc)..which has
always been kinda clinical, sterile and perfuntionary..but
my writing and music always goes apeshit..and to many the
work I create in these times is the most honest and
evocative..in general a lot of people find my work to be far
too cynical and satirical and intentionally bent for them to
connect to...I don't really agree but it's just what I have
always been told. quite frequently by totally unrelated
people and I have started to believe it.....


 


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