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offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-06-29 11:25 [#02581409]
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how you doin guys? i cant occupy all the threads so i
opened a new one. been at the supermarket and cleaned my
room. with dilated times.


 

online belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-06-29 11:49 [#02581412]
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reading gordon corera - the illegal, about russian spies in
post-ww2 london. only short but pretty interesting.
listening to this and composing silly freestyles


 

offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-06-29 11:50 [#02581413]
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fucking ninjas


 

offline umbroman3 from United Kingdom on 2019-06-29 12:07 [#02581414]
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Happy saturday

Going out for lunch with my mother(do this every saturday)

Planning on making some new music, less repetitive/loopy
than my other music


 

offline DADONCK from here on 2019-06-29 12:55 [#02581415]
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Hanging around on a conference about AI, eating lotsa free
food


 

offline mermaidman on 2019-06-29 13:03 [#02581416]
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i'll join an interactive symposium on anal. not that i have
anything to learn just liked to check if they're doing a
good job and i have to disguise myseld of course because as
u know i'm very popular among the anal crowd


 

offline ijonspeches from 109P/Swift-Tuttle on 2019-06-29 13:30 [#02581419]
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lunchbreak at old flat.
almost cleaned out gf flat, now fetching stuff from mine.
trying not to melt.


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-06-29 18:21 [#02581431]
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Went into town. I slept all day yesterday so it was nice to
have a walkabout. I got myself a Super Mario t-shirt from
H&M, and some summer sneakers that were greatly reduced on
sale. Now that I’ve stopped cigarettes and don’t buy
weed anymore I have a little extra for myself which is nice.



 

offline RussellDust on 2019-06-29 18:22 [#02581432]
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I’m due a colonoscopy soon, would you like me to send you
the vid?


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-06-29 18:40 [#02581433]
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I washed about 20 cups and plates that have gathered around
the flat


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-06-29 18:40 [#02581434]
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LAZY_TITLE

I can imagine you in this Russell


 

online belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-06-29 18:56 [#02581435]
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that star wars jacket looks more like freddie mercury circa
wembley '86

so no weed at all eh hobz? must be tricky, are even edibles
out?


 

online belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-06-29 18:57 [#02581436]
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i swear that fuckin reply function has a mind of its own


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-06-29 20:15 [#02581442]
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it does a bit!


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-06-29 22:58 [#02581460]
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Ha ha, that jacket is ace!

Yeah belb, but it’s my choice and to be honest it had been
too long, for too long I was just a fucking prisoner. I felt
like something had to happen because I was just making sure
I was constantly numb in order to avoid actually
“living” my life. Of course I was living, my life, but
in hiding. I was a zombie, in a way terrified of fulfilling
anything that required anything other than just thinking
about it. I had my little routine, by the end I wasn’t
even following whatever was on the tv. This wasn’t the
weeds fault, I was obviously depressed, but my god weed just
helped me stay like this with the cozy illusion that I was
coping, when I was just commuting slow suicide.I felt like I
was about to reach a crossroad. Either I change or something
will happen. Never thought it would be a heart attack, never
saw myself as a heart attack man. I did feel an ever
increasing sense of dread though, and the week before I had
my issue I cancelled a trip to England when usually I’m
totally buzzing at the idea. I kicked heroin in the past,
through sheer common sense and will, but it took a fucking
heart attack to realise I wanted to live. To live without
hiding, without already haven given up on myself.

Ha ha that all sounds pretty pathetic really. I’ll still
have the odd spliff, I just won’t be it’s bitch
anymore.

This is in no way me trying to demonise weed. I had just
been using it wrong for a while now.


 

online belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-06-30 00:14 [#02581471]
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sometimes it's just time to let go of yr crutch. and if it
takes yr heart doing a spaz-out then don't let go of the
positives, i'm proud of you man (if that's not too
patronising). an enforced break is sometimes just what's
needed, you think it's the end of the world and like a part
of yr identity is going but you'll just be you only without
a brain muffler. i still love weed but i know it puts my
hard-won sanity at risk, and i take it it's yr life full
stop that's in the balance. my advice is to not beat yrself
up if yr cravings surface but think of yr current clarity
and weigh it up, it's just not worth the risk, even setting
aside the physical side. well done tho man!


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-06-30 00:44 [#02581472]
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I have no cravings at all, it’s weird. Like none
whatsoever.


 

online belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-06-30 01:01 [#02581474]
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i never had any physical cravings giving up weed either,
it's remarkably benign like that. still fancy a smoke now
and then but then i'm still hooked on nicotine


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-06-30 01:02 [#02581475]
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I meant mental. For 26 years I couldn’t kick it.


 

online belb from mmmmmmhhhhzzzz!!! on 2019-06-30 01:10 [#02581476]
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damn, that's longer than i was at it by quite a way. crossed
over to spice though and that definitely had a physical
component coming off


 

offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-06-30 08:55 [#02581479]
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Ciao Russell

its not weed that screws you up, its all the shit you have
in the head amplified. have you tried unclogging it?

by the way we used to hallucinate when we were young as
well, its just we weren't frightened like we are now because
'conscious' of the illness


 

offline mermaidman on 2019-06-30 09:30 [#02581482]
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oh baby


 

offline mermaidman on 2019-06-30 09:33 [#02581483]
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i mean i would like it very much thank you


 

offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-06-30 09:49 [#02581485]
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lol, somebody is sending pictures straight from the london
eye


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-06-30 12:02 [#02581492]
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I was mostly depressed, and I was smoking all the time in
order not to do anything constructive with myself. Like I
mentioned before though, I’m not blaming the weed.


 

offline RussellDust on 2019-06-30 12:02 [#02581493]
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I hope the sight of polyps gets you off!


 

offline mermaidman on 2019-06-30 12:10 [#02581494]
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stop teasing me i’m only human


 

offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-06-30 12:35 [#02581495]
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thanks RD you are an institute


 

offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-06-30 13:00 [#02581496]
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i like mm's avatar, look what that chair turned into like


 

offline mermaidman on 2019-06-30 13:07 [#02581497]
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you mean like a transformer


 

offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-06-30 13:19 [#02581498]
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yes, the one with the huge stick out of combat issues


 

offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-07-01 20:37 [#02581577]
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what if i wanted the same amount of cash needed to
die



 

offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-07-01 21:19 [#02581579]
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One waa bald, i telling yuo


 

offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-07-04 01:21 [#02581760]
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in my case he was only doing his duties, got some punch in
the face with care, the other nsted hit me with the same
technique of london instead thats how you get bald apples.


 

offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-07-04 01:28 [#02581762]
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on the fucking temporal lobe baby


 

offline Monoid from one source all things depend on 2019-07-05 13:20 [#02581920]
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Usually i am bored on saturdays. I have really nothing to do


 

offline mohamed from the turtle business on 2019-07-05 13:32 [#02581921]
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and what about the washing machine? and the supermarket? and
the cleaning?


 

offline Hyperflake from Wirral (United Kingdom) on 2019-07-05 15:00 [#02581923]
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my dryer stopped turning, its giving me anxiety


 


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